SYSTEM HANG!!!

I am sorry for the long absense...
I hav my exams comin up and hence wont be bloggin much for a few days...
So till then...The bloggin server here is down...and my world for you has paused!

Give me all the luck you can spare...I NEED IT ALL!! :-)

Well...i thot i wud end the post here...but i would like to add some notes i made some while ago in this post as well..these dont sum up to anything...but i hardly hav anything else to write...


I am going to sue Hrithik Roshan!! Damn...he copied my hairstyle for his new John Players ad!!

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7 women and just one guy in a waiting room....talk abt boredome to its max!!

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Some ppl in your life are so perfectly placed! its like....it was meant to be for us to be freinds...
Sometimes...you wonder...what made us soo good friends??

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You wait for that one look the whole day....that you miss a hundred others!

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So much to study and soo little time! [y is it always this way and not the other way round? :-D]

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Others have all the LUCK!

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I cant bear her for more than 5 mins of talk...but shes a very good friend!

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Some professors are soo sweet...and some are soo irritating that you feel like slappin them the moment you see them...

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I have nothin to prove to anyone except myself!

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If evrythin in this world is "fated" and "decided"....i would very much like to change it....and change it NOW!!

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All it takes is just one compliment to bring an instant smile on your face!

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Thers nothin like seeing a smile on your Mom's face...

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I wanna cross atleast 70% this time!

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You are hurting 2 people...

LEAVE HER ALONE....SHE SHOULDNT BE PAINED LIKE THIS...

....AND I CANT SEE HER BEING STRESSED LIKE THIS....

A walk with her....

Why is it so that you say the most stupid things when you with the person you LOVE (i dunno if its right to use this word these days...)
I met her on the way to college the other day....We were walkin...I was sayin nothin...she was awfully quiet...
And i was having the best walk of my life!!
I dunno if it was the silence or it was her...for 2 minutes...IT WAS PERFECT!! And it happened....
I realised that the "pause" was gettin nowhere...and on the threshold...i needed to speak something....something....anythin...and it had to be quick!

I was now beginning to feel as if the silence was because she was uncomfortable...

"You seem nervous today....any problem??",I asked.
"Nervous...naa re....why do u think that??"
"Am i makin you uncomfortable?? Coz i wudnt want that....",I continued.
"No re....nothin like that...."She put up a smile...

After this...i had to move on to something else....u know...change the topic...
And then i said the most stupidest and seemingly the most offending two words in the history of conversation...

"Then why the WORN OUT look?"
Of all the millions of words in english i used...WORN OUT!! [i obviously dint mean that....it just came out of my head...frm nowhere!....well...its difficult to think straight about what you say when u are with the person u like :-D]
"Worn out???" she asked.

Realising what i had just done...
"ok...worn out is not the word...forget it....",I said and we moved on to something else...

I posted this basically to make a note of this moment...frm the "perfect" SILENCE to my being a "perfect" IDIOT!

I did it...yes i did it...
:-)
Told her how i feel...and it feels good to have finally let it out...
She said "NO"...No surprise there actually...
I dunno how this is gonna mess things between us...She did sound cool abt it (I still cant remember if we were laughin more abt what i said or thinkin seriously over it...)

I do feel bad abt it...but its ok i think...
Well...thats all there is to it i guess...
THERE ARE SOME THINGS IN YOUR LIFE THAT ARE NOT YOURS TO CONTROL...

Fate And Circumstances
by Missy

As words flow across the screen,
Relationships are discussed...
Positions in life are dreamed,
Frustration intensifies.
You say fate has brought us together but circumstances are keeping us apart...
Will fate and circumstances ever let us be as one?

CHEERS!!!!

You know how when everything is goin wrong in your life there finally comes a time when you have to say "Ok...This is ENOUGH!"
I have reached that point now...I have been bothered so much by things happenin around me that now....I JUST DONT CARE!!!
Its like...i have reached my point of saturation and nothin bad after this will ever affect me...I'll only take it all with a smile...
LIFE IS GOOD...and I am damn sure so is my FUTURE...knw why?? Coz i knw i am a GOOD person {Think no evil and evil wont affect you...}

A brief candle; both ends burning,but its giving light to the dark room
An endless mile; but the bus wheel is still turning
A friend to share the lonesome times;A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last....

Well...i did a bit of self contemplating yesterday and came to two very important (important for me of course...) decisions....

• I care a damn abt what others are doin...Let them have their "oh...so..perfect" lives...Let them get placed and have jobs...I am going to live my not so perfect life damn "perfectly"!I have decided to do an MBA...its what i wanna do...and i am gonna prove to them what i am capable of... Just coz i am runnin on bad luck....doesnt mean you are better than me...so...just go to your 9-5 jobs...ill come and be your BOSS some day! :-P

• I am going to tell "her" how i feel about her...I think its very important for my own sake...coz i dont wanna regret it later in my life...i dont wanna think back that i did nothin abt a gal i was soo damn serious abt! I think i am ready to here the "NO" now than to not "know" at all!! :-D Dont ask me when i am going to do it....i know i am goin to....but when its the right time...It time maybe today,tommorrow....6 months from now...i dunno....but i will tell her...

So....HERE's TO A GR8 FUTURE!!! :-D
:Cheers:

...The Last Whine...

"So...whos the latest gal in ur life now..." was the question popped by a friend the other day...
To be honest...if she had asked me this abt 6 months ago...i wouldnt have been as offended as i was now...
My friends are only amused abt the ever so changing gals on my LIST...and hence they never fail to get the updated name on it every 4-5 weeks....
And i used to keenly keep them updated by addin names to the list...for i never took these things so seriously anyway...
But now my reaction was a different one....
"oh..comeon....When will you gals take me seriously??" i asked.
"When you really will be serious..." was the answer i got.

I bluntly changed the conversation to something else...coz i knew i could never convince her that finally I have become serious.....that finally theres a name on my list that i cant find the courage to erase...
And strangely....this is the first time i hav not a single nerve in me that has enough dauntlessness to go and tell the gal how i feel abt her...Coz i knw her answer...and i dont wanna hear that "NO!"...

PS:
I realised that i am whinin a lot these days on my blog....I know it sucks...
Well...I hope this will be the last of the series of whining posts...I am sorry i made you read all this crap till now...

...The perfect Rose...

• You find the "perfect" ROSE ever seen but you have no one to give it to...No use of it...is there??
• You finally find someone whom you would really want it to keep...but you never gather enough courage to give it...No use of it..is there??
• You gather the courage to give it to someone...but the person refuses to accept it...No use of it...is there?

Wats the point of all this you ask???
Well...just that on my way back i saw the most beautiful Rose at a flower shop...
And NO...this is not abt how i felt the urge to buy it and realised..."Oh my god!! i hav no one to giv it to!!" [This realisation occurs to me evry now and then!!! :-D]

Its just that...Everything you do in life needs a complete cycle to be complete...
You start with HOPE and end with SUCCESS...
This is applicable to everything you do in life....dont you think??

So...what do you do when you start with something thats just not "meant to be"!!!Whom will you blame in the end??

You might come across a person whom you think you are in LOVE with....
But what if somehwer down the line you know that it might never just happen between you both...
You just hope and pray that it will some day...but it might never happen...
What do you do??
Accept it...Smile...and get on with your life...

Thats what i have decided to do...
Isnt it better than just keep walking down the wrong road untill you realise you are too far to turn back and return...
LET IT GO...thats the answer...YOU HAVE BETTER THINGS COMING YOUR WAY...

"The brightest of ideas and feelings are a complete waste if they have no takers..."

...The rain...

Well...finally got a net connection!!!
The rains are not ready to stop...Its been more than 28 hrs now...Its been pourin continously...
I am sittin at home with no cable,no phones,no electricity and net(untill now!),zero range on the mobile........
Life has become rural and really really dark!! Half of Mumbai is drowned i heard....
But it is still the best climate i have ever seen in 21 yrs of my life....

In a situation like this...wen you hav nothin to do but sit in the dark...wat do u do?
Thoughts started runnin in my mind abt the day that had passed by...and i started recollectin the day...

I was to recieve the CEO of Capgemini for a presentation he was to give in our college...
I stood at the gate ready to welcome him...I was ofcourse a bit nervous...i mean...comeon...we are talkin abt the CEO of a company here...
I saw his car enter the gate and all that was runnin through my mind was "Dont mess up...Dont mess up..."
The car stopped and He got out...i wished him good mornin and waited for him to speak...
He did speak...
"Can you please show me whers the REST ROOM??"

These were the first words of the CEO of Capgemini to me!!!
I couldnt help laughin( in my mind of course!)
It made me realise that however big u make it in life...YOU ARE STILL HUMAN!!!
And after this realisation...all my nervousness was thrown in the bin and i could talk to him as if he was just any other elder i would talk to...

Well..the darkness was longer than this thought...so i started thinkin abt...well...HER!!
(Wat else do you do in the most romantic climate ever!!)
And again i came to the same conclusion...
"JUST SHUT THE F**K UP...She doesnt hav to knw!!
If you ever tell her...you are gonna just screw up your life..."

PS:- I knw this post was a bit crappy and not "to the point" or somethin of that sort...But thats the state of my mind right now...I am sorry that i put you into readin this...
LOL

I need to take a risk....just need to...

RISK

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out for another is to risk involvement
To expose your feelings is to risk
exposing your true self
To place your ideal, your dreams before a crowd
is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return

To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure

Yet risks must be taken
Because the greatest hazard in life is risking
NOTHING

The person who risks nothing
Does nothing
Has nothing
Is nothing

Self-realisation is harder than
Self Sacrifice

Author Unknown

...Miscommunication...

This had come in the mail yesterday...Its a must see...
I hav not kept the original size so it would be a bit hard to read...But its worth it!