I did it...yes i did it...
:-)
Told her how i feel...and it feels good to have finally let it out...
She said "NO"...No surprise there actually...
I dunno how this is gonna mess things between us...She did sound cool abt it (I still cant remember if we were laughin more abt what i said or thinkin seriously over it...)

I do feel bad abt it...but its ok i think...
Well...thats all there is to it i guess...
THERE ARE SOME THINGS IN YOUR LIFE THAT ARE NOT YOURS TO CONTROL...

Fate And Circumstances
by Missy

As words flow across the screen,
Relationships are discussed...
Positions in life are dreamed,
Frustration intensifies.
You say fate has brought us together but circumstances are keeping us apart...
Will fate and circumstances ever let us be as one?

CHEERS!!!!

You know how when everything is goin wrong in your life there finally comes a time when you have to say "Ok...This is ENOUGH!"
I have reached that point now...I have been bothered so much by things happenin around me that now....I JUST DONT CARE!!!
Its like...i have reached my point of saturation and nothin bad after this will ever affect me...I'll only take it all with a smile...
LIFE IS GOOD...and I am damn sure so is my FUTURE...knw why?? Coz i knw i am a GOOD person {Think no evil and evil wont affect you...}

A brief candle; both ends burning,but its giving light to the dark room
An endless mile; but the bus wheel is still turning
A friend to share the lonesome times;A handshake and a sip of wine
So say it loud and let it ring
We are all a part of everything
The future, present and the past
Fly on proud bird
You're free at last....

Well...i did a bit of self contemplating yesterday and came to two very important (important for me of course...) decisions....

• I care a damn abt what others are doin...Let them have their "oh...so..perfect" lives...Let them get placed and have jobs...I am going to live my not so perfect life damn "perfectly"!I have decided to do an MBA...its what i wanna do...and i am gonna prove to them what i am capable of... Just coz i am runnin on bad luck....doesnt mean you are better than me...so...just go to your 9-5 jobs...ill come and be your BOSS some day! :-P

• I am going to tell "her" how i feel about her...I think its very important for my own sake...coz i dont wanna regret it later in my life...i dont wanna think back that i did nothin abt a gal i was soo damn serious abt! I think i am ready to here the "NO" now than to not "know" at all!! :-D Dont ask me when i am going to do it....i know i am goin to....but when its the right time...It time maybe today,tommorrow....6 months from now...i dunno....but i will tell her...

So....HERE's TO A GR8 FUTURE!!! :-D
:Cheers:

...The Last Whine...

"So...whos the latest gal in ur life now..." was the question popped by a friend the other day...
To be honest...if she had asked me this abt 6 months ago...i wouldnt have been as offended as i was now...
My friends are only amused abt the ever so changing gals on my LIST...and hence they never fail to get the updated name on it every 4-5 weeks....
And i used to keenly keep them updated by addin names to the list...for i never took these things so seriously anyway...
But now my reaction was a different one....
"oh..comeon....When will you gals take me seriously??" i asked.
"When you really will be serious..." was the answer i got.

I bluntly changed the conversation to something else...coz i knew i could never convince her that finally I have become serious.....that finally theres a name on my list that i cant find the courage to erase...
And strangely....this is the first time i hav not a single nerve in me that has enough dauntlessness to go and tell the gal how i feel abt her...Coz i knw her answer...and i dont wanna hear that "NO!"...

PS:
I realised that i am whinin a lot these days on my blog....I know it sucks...
Well...I hope this will be the last of the series of whining posts...I am sorry i made you read all this crap till now...

...The perfect Rose...

• You find the "perfect" ROSE ever seen but you have no one to give it to...No use of it...is there??
• You finally find someone whom you would really want it to keep...but you never gather enough courage to give it...No use of it..is there??
• You gather the courage to give it to someone...but the person refuses to accept it...No use of it...is there?

Wats the point of all this you ask???
Well...just that on my way back i saw the most beautiful Rose at a flower shop...
And NO...this is not abt how i felt the urge to buy it and realised..."Oh my god!! i hav no one to giv it to!!" [This realisation occurs to me evry now and then!!! :-D]

Its just that...Everything you do in life needs a complete cycle to be complete...
You start with HOPE and end with SUCCESS...
This is applicable to everything you do in life....dont you think??

So...what do you do when you start with something thats just not "meant to be"!!!Whom will you blame in the end??

You might come across a person whom you think you are in LOVE with....
But what if somehwer down the line you know that it might never just happen between you both...
You just hope and pray that it will some day...but it might never happen...
What do you do??
Accept it...Smile...and get on with your life...

Thats what i have decided to do...
Isnt it better than just keep walking down the wrong road untill you realise you are too far to turn back and return...
LET IT GO...thats the answer...YOU HAVE BETTER THINGS COMING YOUR WAY...

"The brightest of ideas and feelings are a complete waste if they have no takers..."

...The rain...

Well...finally got a net connection!!!
The rains are not ready to stop...Its been more than 28 hrs now...Its been pourin continously...
I am sittin at home with no cable,no phones,no electricity and net(untill now!),zero range on the mobile........
Life has become rural and really really dark!! Half of Mumbai is drowned i heard....
But it is still the best climate i have ever seen in 21 yrs of my life....

In a situation like this...wen you hav nothin to do but sit in the dark...wat do u do?
Thoughts started runnin in my mind abt the day that had passed by...and i started recollectin the day...

I was to recieve the CEO of Capgemini for a presentation he was to give in our college...
I stood at the gate ready to welcome him...I was ofcourse a bit nervous...i mean...comeon...we are talkin abt the CEO of a company here...
I saw his car enter the gate and all that was runnin through my mind was "Dont mess up...Dont mess up..."
The car stopped and He got out...i wished him good mornin and waited for him to speak...
He did speak...
"Can you please show me whers the REST ROOM??"

These were the first words of the CEO of Capgemini to me!!!
I couldnt help laughin( in my mind of course!)
It made me realise that however big u make it in life...YOU ARE STILL HUMAN!!!
And after this realisation...all my nervousness was thrown in the bin and i could talk to him as if he was just any other elder i would talk to...

Well..the darkness was longer than this thought...so i started thinkin abt...well...HER!!
(Wat else do you do in the most romantic climate ever!!)
And again i came to the same conclusion...
"JUST SHUT THE F**K UP...She doesnt hav to knw!!
If you ever tell her...you are gonna just screw up your life..."

PS:- I knw this post was a bit crappy and not "to the point" or somethin of that sort...But thats the state of my mind right now...I am sorry that i put you into readin this...
LOL

I need to take a risk....just need to...

RISK

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental
To reach out for another is to risk involvement
To expose your feelings is to risk
exposing your true self
To place your ideal, your dreams before a crowd
is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return

To live is to risk dying
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk failure

Yet risks must be taken
Because the greatest hazard in life is risking
NOTHING

The person who risks nothing
Does nothing
Has nothing
Is nothing

Self-realisation is harder than
Self Sacrifice

Author Unknown

...Miscommunication...

This had come in the mail yesterday...Its a must see...
I hav not kept the original size so it would be a bit hard to read...But its worth it!

Whers my Dancing Partner!!!

I wanted to "copy" this post long back...but it just got delayed...
I found this on Deez's blog ...Loved it soooooooooo much!!!
Read it n lemme knw wat u feel....

Finding a life-partner is just like finding a dance-partner.

You need to look for the same things in both.


Now let me explain....

The first and the foremost thing is to be in synch. Getting two human beings in synch with each other is probably the most testing of tasks. They have to move together, not necessarily in the same direction, yet always in a rhythm. They may be swinging to their own beats, yet they have to come across a couple who understands each other's rhythm and keeps together.

You have to be close together, yet keep up your space, and respect that of the other. No stepping onto each other's toes!! It's not really welcome.
And if you - by chance - happen to make that mistake, say sorry immediately, and you 'll be forgiven. The dance continues. But if you don't; well next dance will go to - obviously not you!

Now this one's not that important, yet if you both like the same kind of music - soft and light, or foot stamping and loud, or head banging rock - it will definitely give you a better understanding of each other's rhythm.
Even if your tastes don't really match, at least an effort to know the other's will be highly appreciated. And you will receive the gift of the same back.

Then, you need to respect each other's need to take a break, or to keep going on. Once in a while you need to do a little bit extra , coz your partner is so keen to jive on, on this particular number, or adjust a little and take a break with him/her when they are too tired to go on any more.

You need not be a great dancer to rock the floor, just need to get along well with your one partner.

I am gettin OLD!!!

...18th June...
Well...Being 21 isnt that freaky as i thought it would be....

Especially wen u get a Nokia 6260 as a b'day gift!!! {he he he he...Wat else do u need in life!!! ;-D}
Spent the whole day shoppin...(Its fun to empty your Dads pockets)
This was one of the better b'days...mainly bcoz this was one b'day i didnt spend studyin the whole day!!! (Most of my b'days come during exams...It sucks!!!)
On top of it....It RAINED today!!! (wooohoooo....I love the rains!!


On other things...
Well...wats up with Bloggers these days....Evryone is shutin down their blogs....Its like an Epidemic!!!
I am goin to miss some my best Blogosphere friends :-(
Come on ppl...Residents of Blogosphere dont giv up sooo easily...

I HAVE DROPPED BY AGAIN.....

Yes i am back...
Feels as if i hav entered a new world....FREEDOM at last!!!
Exams are strange...they really make BOOKS ur life for watever time they last for....Nothin else is on ur mind....except the fuckin exams!!
Ok....me talkin too much "exams" here....See...The hang over's still ther ;-P
I dunno...But I am some other person durin exams....

Question:
Wat are the prominent changes u see in me during exams?
Answer:
The most prominent changes u see in me during exams are as stated below:

{Use of standard question answer format is a direct effect of the hangover....don worry...its fadin away slowly :-)}

• I hav only 2 pairs of clothes durin exams....I dunno...sounds foolish...but i do beleive a lot in LUCK....so wear my lucky pairs all through the exam...
• I have a very specific place wher i go and sit if i happen to arrive early...this is not very intended....its just that my friends n I gather at a place in college...
  
• I am all sleepy and restless before the exam...this is natural i guess....
• If you are a gal...I wont talk to u b4 exams...I might just put on a light smile...that too if you come right in front on me and i hav no way to escape without interactin with u...Now...dont ask me y i do this...I just do it....I feel it would distract me in some way...
• If you are a gal i really really really ignore during exams....The reason is obvious frm pt no.2 :-)
• I have very specific timings during exams....6:45 am awake n 12:30 asleep...
• No PC till the completion of exams....(Fuck...ask me how to stay away!!!)

The conclusion drawn from the above points is that...well...i am transformed into a COMPLETE GEEK durin exams....its nice to slowly come out of it....
Will get a break for atleast 2-3 weeks before college starts again...

By the way....I think i am in LOVE again (I knw...this must be the nth fuckin time!!!)
But lemme tell you....this is diff...its more of "I Like You" love...And the best part is...
I wont be messin this up like i always...ohh... always....do...
Wanna knw y??
Coz she would never knw...
;-)

By the way...thinkin of buyin a new cell...goin thru the list of desirables...hav my eyes on this peice for now....
Its 2:05 am now....enuf writin for me....switchin to watchin TV...
Cya...