When the Internet was discovered by a 16 yr old...

I was wondering today...about how things are changing...i mean...you are aware of the change happening around you...but now its like...someone just put the car of life directly into top gear...and you are just speeding away...!

There were so many instances today which got me into that "should I do this or not" frames...
Strange isnt it....how it hits you one fine day....


I look in the mirror and i dont see that 16 year old boy anymore...
I remember those days...and the way things used to be...much simpler than now...a bit slower and carefree than now...
I mean...the top discussion i remember having at that time...around the year of 2000 i think...when we were just figuring out what the internet really was...and what exactly was this thing called "hotmail"
Our hang out discussions were related to how we could do something cool with the internet and i think back at that time...we were planning to start a website that was like a directory of all the things you would need in the town you lived..like details of hotels...shops...etc...

And today...in 2009...I can virtually LIVE on the internet...!
Was just reading about BING and Google Wave...taking communication to a different level now...

The thing with the internet age is that you dont feel the need to go back at any point of time..i mean...who wants to use a bulky desktop when you hav a laptop now...or use the 2 mb hotmail when you have a 7 Gb+ Gmail...which is soo unlike real LIFE...You always want to go back in time when it comes to your LIFE!

Strange...but true...

And I am 24 now...my discussions revolve around career options...money...people getting married...how i will be married...love...and still pretty much internet...but in form of Facebook,Twitter and Orkut...

You think about those days gone...and you laugh over it now...but you would give anything to live that time again ,wont you?

ZooZoo Dumb

So we live in the "ZooZoo" world now...and apparently everyone is talking about the new Vodafone ads that O&M has craftily done...wiping out the "pug" campaign altogether...sheer work of genius...must say...

What surprises me is that every success story has something or the other going wrong with it...As they say...nothing can be 100%...you always leave some gaps...

The company got a PETA award it seems for removing the dog off the campaign and introducing the new characters...I dont see the point in this story...when PETA says that some of the dogs where abandoned after the "fad" for these pugs went out...and they would like to thank Vodafone for completely removing the ads and spreading the message that there are alternative ways to make advertisements without using animals (As if we dint know that...!)
Plus...with the "pug" ads out...wont ALL the dogs be abandoned now since the fad is completely off ????

How senseless can these people be...just trying to cash in on the campaigns' success and trying to get some attention!

Now..let me tell you...I love Vodafone...have been using its service since the "MaxTouch Orange" days...and i simply adore the brand..(admit it..it has class!)

But with steps like these...they are really not doing all that good a job...

I recieved a message from Vodafone today...and it went on like this...

"FREE STD!! Now get 49 mins of STD to any phone in the country absolutely free for a monthly rental of only Rs.49. To activate sms ACT 49 to 111(tollfree)."

Now...when my STD rate is Re. 1 ....how dumb can you be to activate this service????
Dont they think twice before sending such offers to customers?

Sanely drunk...and career options of my prospective wife to be...

Was sitting with some friends for dinner the other day and about half a drink of vodka got one of the guys to start talking...
(Its interesting what all topics you can touch in this world when you are "slight" drunk...u know..not the "talli" phase...the lighter times..you know whats happening around you and you are not simply blabbering irrelevant stuff...i think you can have some of the best conversations of your life in that phase...!)

"You know...Everyone knows drinking too much affects your liver...its bad for your health...but still we drink...its like we wanna prove whoever claimed it that he was wrong...so CHEERS to that! Lets prove him wrong...!!"
And he raises his glass...up high...

"Are you sure it was a HE who claimed it and not a SHE?" said another friend raising his glass....

Ignoring to comment on this...the first guy went on again...
"You know what...I hope i get married to a DOCTOR...I mean...wont it be great to have a doctor in the house itself...no medical expenses!! Damnn....I hope i get married to a doctor!!"

And that put me into a thought process...


If i had to choose a person i would spend the rest of my life with based on her career/job...here are some of the top contenders...

• A DOCTOR: Naaaa....marrying a doctor is not a good thing i feel...(unlike my drunk friend)...mainly because...you wont really save on medical bills...coz you hardly fall that "gravely" sick in your young age...and if you plan to marry a doc considering the "medical bills"advantage for OLD age...then might as well get one of your kids into the medical field..that way...by the time he is grown up...you are almost dead...and ready to be his guinea pig for all the medical illnesses...the longer you are alive..the better a doctor he has grown out to be!

• A SOFTWARE ENGINEER: this one cud be cool...Now...i think this kinda girl will understand me ...i mean...she is tech friendly...career friendly...used to long working hours...and would definitely be smart enough...Plus i think...being an Engineer myself...and hating the "techincal" side of it...she could get a chance to change my mind abt it! (Now that will be a healthy fight to have!)
  

• A FASHION MODEL/ACTRESS: Now now...i don think ANY guy would deny that this is his ultimate dream bride...so is mine...i mean....JUST IMAGINE...! (and i would leave the rest for imagination...)

• A MBA GRADUATE : This one could be cool...since i myself have an MBA degree..but only if she earns a lot...atleast 4-5 times more than me! (Yes....im not those insecure-guy-about-his-wife-doing-better types...i welcome increased income instead...) Also since...it is argued that MBA's are responsible for ruining the present economy and pulling it to recession...i think me and wife can tactfully device new plans to ruin the economy more...collectively! (Ha ha ha...one more thing...my life would be a whole mess of budgets,strategies and aimless research!)

• A FINANCIAL ANALYST : Now i think this would be a great person to marry...a person who understands numbers...mainly because i dont! (ohh...i soo dont!) To top this....if the girl is one who has working knowledge of the investment sector (u knw....how these so called "investment plans" and "insurance schemes" have soo many fine prints you dont know of and will never know of...!) I mean...i came to know recently that you can earn more insurance premium just by deciding a right date to start the plan! So...if u have a finance expert in the house...Now thats something...afterall its MORE money in you pocket!

PS:- I dont intend to hurt the sentiments of any of the professionals through this post and this may please be taken as lightly and in good humour as far as possible...
Plus...a major criteria which i haven't mentioned in any of the above is that you first have to immensely beautiful! So...nothing professional there anyway...
:-P

time will tell the story..

If you did one right thing...say...a good deed...you would probably remember it for the rest of your life...try not to spoil that moment..keep it in your mind...and let it remain as perfect as it made you feel at that time...

Was out of net for the past 3 days...and since "web" occupies a large part of my life's schedule these days...I was feeling a bit lost...I still dont get people who dont feel the need to be connected...i mean...in these times of "impatience" as they call it...how can you not be "online"!

Anyways...I have come to realize that everything in this world happens in a predefined mesh of sequences...and your actions and reactions are a direct reflection of everything that you are supposed to do...
You would better understand this concept if you have seen "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
I mean...ever wondered why you got up at the time you got up today...or why did you take a cab when you could have taken a bus..why you wore red over blue today...small things like these..trivial things that form critical factors to a holistic story of your life...

I have realised that how much ever you PUSH for things to happen...they will not...unless you are meant to have it...or unless its the time for you to have it...
By streching the mesh...going after the same thing like a spoilt child of 3 years who just wants to have the toy sports car...you are just frustrating yourself...little realising...that its just a toy car...something that you will not even want when you are 15...by then probably you would be running after a cricket bat!

I think the best part of loving someone is that you didnot work towards getting that person in your life...and even as things change...from wanting a toy car to a cricket bat...to a new mobile phone..and then to a brand new car...the feelings for that person have remained the same...
In the end...whatever you have...and you dont have...doesnt matter...when you know you love that person irrespective of all these trivial things...

I have been waiting all my life for my story to unfold...every day a bit closer...I dont know how it will end...or where it will end...but i do know...that my Life has something good to offer...simply because...if it was bad...or whenever i felt it would end badly...Life has always proved me wrong in the end!

A big SMILE...Because I can...!

When Jerry Seinfeld was asked why he wanted to shelve down a descent and plush bungalow and build a new one for himself more bigger and better looking...costing him almost double the amount...his simple reply to that, with a faint smile, was "Because I can."

I like those three words..."BECAUSE I CAN"...highlights the thin line between what you want in life..what is necessary...and what you can actually achieve...

Life has generally turned slow these days...and my final publishing of this post today after a good 11 days shows my height of laziness...
But i like SLOW...idle time...a stage of self contemplation and peace...

Anways...finally got out of the house today and had some fun with friends...a loud dinner...and a looongg drive through the night..

Was just thinking today,while helping a whining friend recover, about how people say things like "we met...met again...and then 'one thing let to another'...and stuff happened"
I never got this statement called 'one thing let to another'
I mean...how can u just say it...everything that you do and dont do is in your control...always...you just cant say that things got outa hand....its like giving an excuse for the sins YOU committed...
Makes me wanna tell them...how come people like me never come across this 'one thing let to another' syndrome...Its because we know where to get ourselves involved and where not to...!
I mean yeahh...sure...i am tired for love to happen to me...the RIGHT kinda love...the "makes your world go round" kinda love...but i atleast dont regret doing anything stupid...
But i dint tell him all this (i think is should hav!)...just sipped my cold coffee...and stared at his sad face...


Was taking a ride alone in the bus today...something about the music playing i think...was remembering some good times...and how wonderful things can be...but as they say..."the first step towards being happy is to stop expecting things"

I think most of our sorrows are a twisted tale of unfullfilled expectations...Good things will happen...believe me they will...but give them the right time...

I am glad that after 11 days of trying to publish this post...I am finally hittin the publish button tonight with a big smile on my face...

To more good times and unexpected happiness ahead...a big CHEERS!

Incomplete: The Begining...

Havent blogged in days...and its not like i have been studying continuously or have been busy with something...but its just that when there are exams round the corner...you just seem to be blocked...
Theres always that "exam" thing hovering over and over...


Finally burst the bubble where i couldnt take it anymore...i mean commonnn...who studies 14 days before the exam for just one subject!
So then...this is enough....i need a bit of relaxed time...

Attended a college friends engagement the other day...its amazing to see two people who complete each other come together...especially when you somewhere care for them...
Its an awesome feeling...hard to describe...nice to experience though...

It also reminds me of one of the worst regrets i have in my life...
I can never change NOT attending my best friends wedding...and what ever i do...however "not favorable" the situation was...I can never change the fact i was not there...anyways...

The music is playing right now...and the problem is that with every song...I feel a rush to stop writing...which ill be doin right now...and continue this post later...

(If this seems incomplete to you...then wait for the next post...more "incompleteness" follows...)

...more...

I think the best part of growing up is letting go...of all the things you ever wanted...for the want of newer things...and better ones...and that excitement of getting it finally ...
Of course....you dont always get what you want...but...the way i see it...

"I think for the most part....if you are honest about what you really want...
...life gives it to you eventually..."

And the logical explanation for this is that...how much ever you are sad about losing some...its always that...your later part of life...ends up in smiles...so basically....life always gives you something better!
The idea is to remember this every time...

The one other thing i have learnt over the years is that you are solely responsible for all the decisions you make...
And i think I owe my parents a lot for raising me the way they did...never in my life have i been refused to something...I would be warned of its necessity and use...and whether i really needed it...but if i did want anything...i would very well get it...
This freedom has somewhere taught me to weigh everything i want in life...and if it really would be worth it...

Well...that "want" reminds me of the eyes i have set on the Nokia 5800....


Have been drooling over the piece right from when it was launched and have been desperate to lay my hands on one of my own....
Finally on the verge of buying it....almost i think...

The problem with guys is that they would never be satisfied with their gadgets...and its always that need for "more"....

This need though has always been a part of my life...
I was wondering over a point that one of my friends very well pointed out the other day...
"Why cant we be content with what we have....?"

But i think that is exactly the reason we are not monotonous...or aimless in life....the need to get "more" is what drives us i guess...
I mean...I get one thing...i could utilize it....be happy with it....and be content...
But nope....we look beyond...of what more can be done...what is "less" in what we have....

That is the also the exact reason why I am what i am...and where I am....with all the things i have...and all the things i dont have....

But i do plan to do some things differently now...nevertheless unsatisfied...but the search for "more" will be on...ALWAYS...

Exams...WORTHLESS...and its over now....

The final exams for getting a "worthless" MMS degree (I mite be too harsh here....okk....its wasnt all that worthless..it did do a bit of value additon...but a larger devalued payscale post MBA degree took away all that value which was added..okk...still doesnt qualify to be called worthless!!) are on...and writing the papers is more of a formality...where you just cant sit through all the 3 hours of the time alloted!

I came out about 45 minutes early today...and was sitting by the steps...just...sitting...

Peace...and then a sudden rush....people all around...10 different talks going on simultanoeusly...you try to be in every conversation...and get a gist of none in the end...people calling you from all directions...and the last thing evryone is talkin about is the "difficulty" level of the paper...The highlights of the talks are who took how many supplements...and who came out first...who was sitting idle through the paper...

Was just glancing around at everyone sitting at the steps...
"People everywhere... Where will all this go in a few days... I mean meeting people after a long gap for the exams was a nice thing...to see evryone again...but how long does it last from now...hardly days to go..."

And then you see the rush disappear slowly...back to the haunting slience on the floor...
Two years of your life with explainable and unexplainable memories....seriously....WHERE DOES IT GO??

Funny ramblings,serious complaints,mindless chatters,irritating gestures,that "at peace" feeling....and then the slience...idle...doing nothing at all...

"There is one piece of advice, in a life of study, which I think no one will object to; and that is, every now and then to be completely idle - to do NOTHING at all."

You walk away from the college and you feel....It wasnt that "worthless" after all....

Filler post...an unecessary yet important update...

I have been wanting to blog for last 2-3 days...you know...had one of those moments when you say to yourself.."Oh my God...that is totally going in my blog!"

But for some reason...have stopped myself from doing so...Somewhere....I think it was the gap where the news had to simply sink in...and saturate itself in my mind...before i could actually write it down and confirm it...


Soo yes...Im PLACED...finally!!!
Was a difficult ocean of choices to make...but then...in this time of what everyone refers to as "recession" i think i made a descent tradeoff...

Oh yaa...forgot to mention...Ill be working for this firm below...



So then...Finally blogged it...

And ever since the placement...had a lot of "This is sooo going in my blog!" moments...

A nice morning stressed playing badminton in the heat...something about us engineering friends never changes...
We were just discussing how of all the people we have known in our lives....only the friends from Engineering are still in touch...and best of friends...
"Our priorities have definitely changed in the past few years....but we have known how to handle them and adjust to keep our friendship the way it was..."

And then there was the movie...

(The only motivation to watch this one was because the Director title read Nagesh Kukunoor...)
It is such an irritating and pathetic movie that im actually going to blog about it!!!
I mean...the movie is soo bad...that its not worth even going and sleeping through in the theaters...
I was so frustrated that wanted to throw something on the screen in anger...and when all i found in my hand was my mobile which was not worth letting go for such a bad and sick movie...we bought a bunch of popcorn...finished it as fast as we could...and threw it right at the screen...
Too bad though it dint actually reach the screen...but fell in between a couple who i think were checking each others dental cavities...mouth to mouth...poor chaps...cant afford a dentist fee i think...
I dunno why i am writing all this...but then...just trying to show you a "picture" of how bad a movie actually was...Both Thumbs and middle finger down to Nagesh Kukunoor (You really made Hyderabad Blues dude????)

Anyways...So then...as i was saying...Life seems relaxed for now...and i have been back to my senses somehow...and even though this post was just a "Ohh i got placed!" reminder...more of the "sensible" blogs will follow...

...steps...banter...coloured hair...small talk...

She was taking the stairs...I saw her from the passage below...
The moment was sudden...if i would have continued being in my thoughts, i would have almost missed her...

She looked at me...And tried not to react....just a faint smile....thats it...as if to wait for my reaction...
I moved up the stairs...closer to her...

I gazed at her...and said a faint "HI"...almost unheard...
She smiled again...

She looked different...beautiful...but different...coloured hair...golden highlights...still amazingly pleasant to look at and adore...

I was supposed to be angry with her...for not keeping in touch...and this time i was sure of not letting all that go so easily...

"The hair looks good...suits you....but never thought you would do something with your hair...considering you love it soo much!"
(Now this....was supposed to be my "fun joke conversation starter"! damnn it...i suck at this!)

"Yeha...just tried it cause my best friend insisted..." She said.

"Where are you these days yaar! I forgot the last time i spoke to you...werent you supposed to reply??"I asked, in a firm and staunch voice.
(I guess...i thought getting straight to the point was "the thing to do" then...since we dint have much to talk about otherwise...)

And then...it was back to normal...our childish arguments...the friendly banter...it was all back..

"Damn it...thats always the case,isnt it...i can never be angry with you!" I grunted,trying to stop her from playfully hitting me.

"NOPE....and thats the best part" She giggled.

The steps of the stairway started making a noise...as if they couldn't stand our argument...Mom was coming downstairs...

She gave us one look and said, "You both are at it again...Go upstairs...everyone is looking for you..."
And she kept moving downstairs....

We both looked at each other...smiled and started taking the steps up...

Me: "So....caught the new movie...?"
She: "You din give me any..."
Me: "You never asked or called..."
She: "Ohh....don start again...!"

Yeah....Dont start again....lets just stick to the small talk...