Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Away from life and love...

Life has suddenly become slow these days....
Had taken a break with friends...freaked out in Goa...and had a really good time...

When you are on a vacation...you are just away from this world...
away from all worries and tensions...thats what vacations are for afterall...arent they??

I dunno how many of you hav tried this...
But try listenin to the waves of the sea sometime...just look at it come crashin to the shore...

(This is a pic i took in Goa...its totally "untampered"...yess....the BLUES are real...look at the beauty of nature!)


Suddenly...a song of the sea starts playin in your mind...and you loose track of everythin around you...the "loneliness" is divine....

Loneliness
It is cold today
Indeed the rain is falling and I am alone.
Thoughts of life and love,
meaningless to anyone but myself.
I am alone.
They watch me, their eyes not knowing,
knowing nothing of what they see.
I am but another creature, alone.
They scurry on the surface, unaware,
unaware of the life below
when you are alone.

Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow,
but a time of solace, of deepness
never to be shared, never to be understood.
They can never reach the place where I am
And I know I will never reach the place where they are.
I know I don't want to reach that place.
True happiness is here, unmisted.
Unmisted by smiles or laughter,
unmisted by the joys of company.

To find true happiness,
to know if one is truly happy,
he must be happy alone.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Its all about the EGO!

People change...or atleast your perception about them does change from time to time..
Two peeople can be the best of friends for sometime...and then...their friendship just drifts apart...

I hav been seeing this goin on between some of my friends lately...and sometimes...the bitterness is so much....that you just cant do anything about it...
and the best solution comes out that...Yeah...let them hate each other for life...

Friendship comes from the heart...If its true and if its meant to last...small fights wont burn it into ashes...But yes...only if its meant to last...

Else...its just a clash of EGO's !!
No one is right or wrong...But then...it comes down to a matter of each ones self respect...

Me and my 2 best friends hav had fights...but in the end...after everythin...We know we will still be best friends...NO MATTER HOW BAD A FIGHT WE HAVE....
Thats FRIENDSHIP for you i think...

I think...anyway...Friends are not supposed to last all your life...they are there with u for a particular phase...
Notice ur phonebook or speed dials....they change after sometime...regularly...in months...years...

Sure...you will always have a good feeling abt certain friends...occassional Hellos wll also happen...
But then...Things wont remain the way they were...

Same is the case with LOVE i think...thats why people fall in and out of realtionships so often...
LOVE or FRIENDSHIP....Both needs a lot of workin upon...to come to the level where 2 people understand each others EGO's and are unaffected by it...

Monday, June 05, 2006

...JO JEETA WOHII SIKANDER...

So engineering is over...and i cant be more glad it finally is...

Life moves on now...and i dunno whether to laugh or cry over this...But life after engineering for me is....COMPLETELY BLANK!!
sure i hav plans...and big dreams....but right now...at this very moment...life is not quite "secured" as it is for others...and its freaky and a hell lot scarryy!!!

Ppl around discussing joinin dates at companies...others on with their visa enquiries and US dreams...
ME...sittin around...watchin them...and thinkin..."what abt me??"

Somehow things in Engineering didnt quite "happen" for me....i wonder why...
I din do anythin wrong...i KNW i din do anythin wrong...

I wonder how things work in this world of ours...
Lemme just analyse things here...
More than 3/4th of electronics in my college reads from MY notes!
Now...i dont take credits for making them or anythin...coz i just copy whats dictated...
my point is...if they read from it...it HAS to be good right...which has to imply that the writer has to b good enuf...
Look at me...not even in the top 40 in ELEX!
I wonder wher the days hav gone wen i was among the top 7 in my class...What did i do wrong here in engineering?

Dont tell me i didnot study enuf...coz i knw i tried my best...i knw and remember the days when i hav slept for less than 5 and a half hrs even when i was down with a freakin migraine...

I know a guy in elex...lets call him AB....
Now...AB is a guy who has things happenin for him...happenin is actually an understatement for him...He has things rolling for him...
And the worst part is....He freakin likes to boast and flaunt around...
Oh GOD! its soo irritating and frustrating....
Studies...Achievements...gals...the guy has a golden spoon on everything...
I am not jealous...no way...but i never boast around so devilishly...
Still things keep happenin for such guys...
and what do i do...
Keep listenin to his flaunts ...what else can i do...
yes...i feel like shoutin at him sometimes to STOP...and just get lost...but i cant do it...

ohh...I wonder what i did wrong...
Somehow...things just dint do right...Did i screw up??Nope...Life screwed me up....

Life dint understand what i wanted from it i think...nor did someone whose name i wont mention...
Ahhh...Life COULD have been so good...

Well...
I told Sanjai this when we were discussin abt AB and his irritating nonsense...
"JOH JEETA WOHII SIKANDER..."
He is thw winner now...he has every right to do as he wants...



But u knw what....The RACE of life hasnt finished yet....
:-)

Thursday, May 18, 2006

The urge...

dunno why...
had decided wont blog till exmas are over...
but today had this sudden urge to write something so...

First paper over today...din go that well...so not in the right mood...
:-(

Lets see what other papers hav to offer...

Thursday, March 30, 2006

A question with no answer...

It will be over in two and a half months...
The last two and half months of college...

And after that...i dunno...maybe i'll never see her again...
This gal that i like so much...will be gone...
You say you will try to be in touch...but it hardly happens...i knw it....
And it hurts...to know that...its gonna be over...

Harry: "Comeon...forget abt her...Get over her...I mean...seriously..."
Me:"Its not that easy man...and plus...i really dont want to...i really really like her..."
Harry:"Well...thats for HER to realize..."

Hmm....it sure is...its for her to realize....
So...what shud i do....just let her go?

Well...i am not thinking abt it...just watchin what happens next...
Lifes good...But it would defintely have been better with her...
:-)



Dilbar mere dil mein kya hai
To jo ise sun leti...
Mere sang jeevan ke kitne sapne to boon leti,
O meri dilrooba tu ban shama...
Aur phir dekh ja jalta hua parwaana...

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I have my exams coming up...so i might not be blogging much...
Anyway...i think i need a break...
Like one of my friends told me...
"Your blog is becoming too SAD day by day...life is sad enough yaar...cheer it up a bit.."

So...yeah...me taking a break...maybe till then...the broken heart will be healed...
:-)

Wish me luck! i need a lot of marks this time....for a lot of things!!!


Sunday, March 26, 2006

The change is coming....

Me and my friends were hanging out at the mall yesterday...
I have a friend who will be gone to the US by August...

"So...just 4 months and you are gone yaar....after that...things just wont be same...Nothin around will be same...We might never meet again...."

The friend replied...
"We still got 120 days!!! "

Yeah...everythin is gonna change...hopefully for the better...
Like one of my prof said the other day..."the only thing consant in life is change."

What Comes Of Tomorrow

To know the joy of a dawning start
Standing there beside your friend on that road to paradise
We say farewell and weep
Knowing they must also compromise
And so we hold them close and whisper in their ear
Please take with you these memories.
Then from the eyes,
Your tear.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

There are times in your life when u want to be left alone...Not because you are sad...but just because you want to get away from the "routine"...
I am tired of all the insecurities in life...

Someone told me once..."whats the fun in living a life where you knw whats in store for you tomorrow...its the risk of life that makes it worthliving..."

Maybe 10 yrs frm now i might agree to this....but not now...
Definitely not now...

Risk
There are no guarantees
Life throws things at you
You can catch or miss them
But they will come, ready or not

I always looked for the real thing
Never trusting in the possibility
Risk-taking not my forte
Staying safe at all costs

Even playing it safe is not certain
Safe has hurt me
Zero risk gets zero gain
Sometimes playing it safe costs you more

It has me,
In not fighting the battle
you may lose the war
In not believing in a dream
You may never sleep peacefully again

So let go of the fear
Reach out for the flame
So what if you get burned
Better that then numb for life

Better to remember passion and joy
Along with the pain and tears
Then to have no memories worth
Remembering

So to hell with safe
I am going to gamble and bet
Until I win back everything I lost
And my life is what it was meant to be

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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

2 and a half hrs at the coffee shop...


Life moves fast...real fast i tell you...
Sometimes you move ahead...sometimes life races you ahead...
But the best thing to do sometimes is to STOP...SIT down somewhere and TALK...



with whom you ask?
With anyone who matters to you...
why you ask?
Coz thats the only way to come in pace with life...

After all...what is life without your friends and loved ones walking with you...

I dont know what life holds for me tommorrow...but i know one thing...i knw everything i need to knw before i face tommorrow...
Atleast i think i do...
:-)

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Fall In Love...

By Pheonix

The lip is sealed

But the faint smile
And the lowering eyelids
Do give it all away.

Listen, if you have the ears to,
Hear in the clamour of the bangles
The secret behind the glow
The secret she doesnt say.

The spark that sits in her eye
Blushing and gleaming with dreams
The noise of the wind that
In her bouncing hair, does sway.

The fresh colour on her face
The vibrant spring in her step
Makes it all too obvious
It's not just any other day.

Feel the energy that emanates
Feel the positive vibes
Of her infectious exuberence
That'll make u exultant anyway.

She leaves, but her aura doesn't.
Her warmth stays back to haunt
Her unsaid words then lead you to believe
Everyone should fall in love, someday.

One just knows when someone is in love...Do whatever you possibly can...But it just shows on your face...YOU ARE IN LOVE...
And know what...It feels gr8 to knw that YOU are bitten by the bug called love...
:-)


Friday, March 03, 2006

I am so damn pissed off right now....
I hate the ppl who show on their face that they have no problems with you...Talk to you with that pretty smiling face whenever they meet you...
But are ignoring you whenever they get a chance...

Damn you...If you dont wanna talk to me...i am fine with it !! Just bloody say it on my face...
And then see if i care a damn...

Stupid ppl...You care with all your heart for them and all they hav for you is PRETENCE!!


Ohh...How i hate it!
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