the couch and smiles.

There is something about that COUCH at your local coffee shop isnt it?

I tried to understand all these years what exactly is the matter with that peice of furniture that it attracts us teens to it sooo much...how everyone of us is just wanting to sit on it...and how every one just keeps on staring at the people sitting on it....for them to leave...so that you can jump on that comfy cushion...and find your spot to lay down...

ha ha....apparently....memories cant be made with a coffee had over a table and chair...it just has to be on that couch!

move over chairs...that couch is here to stay...

Not that i want to conclude anything from it...just a point i made....

:)

The past few days have been awesomely cool...work pressures...lessons learnt....people missed...new beginnings...Im glad there is so much that happens and that doesnt happen in my life...

[the above line is a "contradiction" dedicated to someone i am coming to know of lately...to someone i feel i already know...and to someone i will know for a long long time...! :)]

I asked a friend the other day that if it was my last day in this life time....what is that one last question you would like to ask me...?

Her answer was soo good....that it still puts a smile on my face when i think of it...

Thank you "baccha"... keep the smile on...

:)

Take a step to change it. See the difference.

When you are caught in a routine you look for ways to break it...it may be at small levels...short intervals...but you need those small breaks...

I have been away from blogging too long...most of my posts come out of strained disappearances...trying to remind people i exist...

I thought of this many times...to realise and accept if my life has lost the essence of surprise/novelty...if i have nothing going on around thats worth noting or writing down...

NOPE.

Thats not really the case. That cannot be the case. Nobodys life can really remain like a circular loop. It does break.

...and in all honesty...i have concluded that how much ever i crib about my routine...it really doesnt stay that much of a routine really...may be...i am always focusing on the "wrong" things...

So as I was saying...in these small bursts of "breaks" from routine...there is one conversation i would remember for a long time...something I would not wanna miss out on noting down.

We sat in that smoky place that day.He did not seems weak or ill. Thats the best part about knowing Ravi, he is always full of Life even if he is dead sick ("dead sick" is a bad word to use) and down.

Smoked up, He still managed to imbibe a great deal of positivity that day.

In the smoke I let go of a lot of things I was holding on to for a long time... and came to understand how focusing on the wrong things doesnt help.

"You are where you are because you are not doing anything about it.You are in your present situation because you are staying that way. Take a step to change it. See the difference."

The step has been taken.

In a mind which has 100 thoughts and ideas every 5 mins...The right question has been asked.

The answers might take a while, but I can see the changes already around me.

Thank your friends. Thank more for friends who carry so much positivity with them.

On being special...

I have got into endless conversations on being famous...being rich..known...and "someone abt whom people talk about"...

Have a look around you...there are freaking soo many people...you somehow think you are different from them...that there is something about you that will make you known and famous...

You even dream about it...almost always...the context may be different...the profession might be different...the situation may differ even...but you do see yourself famous...the one celebrity amongst the already rich...

I have always wondered that if everyone thinks the same...what defines you becoming famous...? Its not what you do and what you dont...its...i think... the timing at which you do it...and yes ofcourse...how well and differently you do it...

The ideas are always there...every single person around you has them...but not everyone of us use them...

I frequently find myself in such day dreams honestly...and i see that...everyday...when i see a famous celebrity/businessman....I imagine myself being there...about how different I would be in his/her place...with/around him/her...

And if everyone around me is having the same thought...may be i am no different...theres nothing special about me...no super powers there either...nor is the celebrity any different from me...it was just about the timing...the timing that he/she was "there" to be famous...

Maybe I am special...maybe I am not...let TIME decide that...

For now...i need to stay grounded...and just chill a bit i guess....

I don't see myself being special; I just see myself having more responsibilities than the next man.

People look to me to do things for them, to have answers.

Tupac Shakur

One broken Leg...and a lota memories...

You meet a lot of people in your life daily. Its funny how instantly you like or dislike some people...and somehow your first impression of a person always remains...

There are times in your life...when you feel if only you "like-minded" people were put in one room...with loud music...and were just allowed to let loose...!

Where has all that "connection" gone these days mann...

Living life like a sad lost bird seems boring day by day...

Met a girl sometime back...and would like to keep her in memory....not because I know her very well...i actually dont even know her at all...!

But some how...for the short time we met....and for the time she carried that broken leg of hers (which is perfectly fine now i hear)...it was one of those few moments when you simply love the person in front of you...to a start of good friendship...

I dont know if i would ever meet her really....ever again....but i wish her luck...less broken legs...and lotsa fun in life.

I read this thing recently...about how two people meet...and how its like...both have been always searching for each other all this while...

...and theres this joke....about how when you meet "the one" and you tell him/her "Where the hell have you been all this while! I was searching for you..."

...and then the other person says "Im soo sorry dear....but i came here as fast as i cann...I too am tired of all the running!"

makes you feel that way sometimes right....that you are running to get somewhere....to meet someone...tired as you may be...wait a while....its all worth it!

Lazy fast life!

The week passes by these days...without meeting me...sitting down with me for a while...just...always in a rush...

Cant believe time is running so fast...seems like yesterday that it was the thing I did which actually was a year back...

Sundays are lazy days...

I put on my sandals and moved out...somehow trying to carry it off....sometimes you just dont care about the way you look...especially on a lazy day like today...

The mention of my sandals is important for the blog today...something about it i need to remember...

Also goes on record... the fun weekends I have had in the past one month, the careless spending of money, my new BlackBerry Storm 2 and the pathetic gym workout!

Its ironic how u find your days lazy and still feel that life is moving a bit too fast...

A loose, broken and "not-blogged-for weeks" post

...Sand in your palm...

I think God made Sunday to be lazy. Its true.

Sometimes you just dont feel like getting out of bed....you are half asleep...thoughts running through the mind...restless ramblings of everyday life...but you just dont wanna get up...
Let life pass by...

I finally got up from bed by evening (that too coz my parents got scared that i might be sick to sleep whole day...and i was forced to get up..) and decided to go out for some fresh air...
Friends meeting up is a good thing...sometimes you dont have much to talk about...but you still have a good time...thats how its always been with us...and touch wood to that!

I am a bit bored and restless these days...mainly because I dont know where is life headed from here...I mean...Ill be 26 soon...and at that age...i had thought I would achieve a lot...

I know I am not doing bad for myself...but its not that good either...its not 'complete'...

I was browsing through the pages of a book this afternoon...and I remembered what it was like to be a child.
I specifically dont have many memories of my childhood...nothing really worth mentioning or talking about...but thats exactly what made me think at that point of time...that ill make something out of my adult life...like...Ill be "something" when i grow up...make someone proud...that life...i feel...is still not there...


I am confused about a lot of things recently...what to do...how to behave...you dont wanna get too attached...you care...but u think the person wants you away...giving space...not giving space...the simple risk of hurting yourself more than the other person...the crazy call of expectations...gets your mind boggled.

Today, while talking to friends, I realised that the only thing that changes is the way you live your life...like...from vada pavs to forks and knives...rest things simply remain the same...its only how you look at things.
Whats with people and their attitudes? I mean...you have money...big deal...does it really matter at the end of the day?
...and a friendship which grows above money survives...

One of my friends got his wedding called off this week...I dont really know what the story is...but it seems the girl now has second thoughts about marriage...
I just feel ts good that it happened...at least....things will be clear now on whether the relationship is truly stable enough for marriage...

You just know it. Think. Dare to do it.

...Smoke...

Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it, because nobody else will.

Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says: "You're nowhere near ready". And the other half says: "Make her yours forever".

Blehh

I dont quite like what i am doing... I dont quite do what i like...
I try to stay aloof but i cant...I try to come close but i cant...
Life seems a series of consequent paradox of "can and cant" and "do and donts"

I tried real hard this week...to prove to myself that I can make the best of my situation...if life is giving me lemons...as they say...lets make a lemonade...
In my case though...i did make the lemonade...but it just wasnt "sweet" enough...

I dont think anyone reading this would really understand what I am trying to say...or may be they will...(consequent paradox there...again!)

I feel okay honestly...about the fact that how much ever business you do...you still are seen as just another employee...and your presence and absence means nothing to anyone...

Its somewhat like loving someone...ummm...you love a person selflessly sometimes...to the extent that what ever they do or dont do hurts...but doesnt really matter to you...you still feel the same...

I think that is a good thing...that is real affection and care...

I did give it my best shot...and I am happy about that...

I need a break...need some love in life i guess...bored of the routine and worthless effort....

Btw...Have you noticed how soo few actually understand what you are saying or feeling?
Aaahh....only if it was easy to find someone you can talk aimlessly...its getting difficult day by day!

guts to leave your job and that person to make you smile...

I came home today and considering I have exams from this Sunday ...after running out of excuses for NOT studying...i got me my today's excuse... "Omg...I havent blogged for days now!"

Work life seems to be getting really messy especially considering you have to deal with a lota politics in a government organization...and at a place where your "tongue" or your relatives or you-ready-to-have-an-affair with your boss matters more than your performance.
I am not fretting....hell no...I have NO problem what and how others do what they do...its just that...dont pull down others of their competencies and growth.

I know...i know...its the same everywhere...and if you dont like it...leave...

Maybe that is a better option to do...leave you stupid job and run a freee life...do something you enjoy doing...
But honestly...DO I HAVE THE GUTS TO DO THAT?

I think of this question every morning...and I find reasons....
"i dont have a plan...i need support....i need partners..."

The days are passing by...and I know that all the above questions in reality...are all answered...with equally frustrated souls are just about waiting for that ONE day when the bubble bursts and we finally say the word "Lets do it!"

"Your success story 'starts' the day when someone "not-worth-deserving-success" makes you fail. True Story"

Amidst all this frustration in life...you always have some people in life who just simply make your day...I mean...when you look at them...when you think of them...you just cant ignore to smile...

You look at them...and you wonder....how can someone be so full of happiness...not happy mind you...but happiness...for you...so much to give...

He/She always has the right things to say...always has something or other to talk about...
You can "feel" it when he/she is sad about something wrong around him/her...not necessarily sad...but something off beat somewhere...
My point is...you can really FEEL life in his/her eyes...You just know that "moment" when you look at him/her...hard to describe...


He/She knows the best of you....and makes you wanna dance...

Seriously...some people can really bring the best in you always...

To friends who have found such people...God Bless...Keep the smile always...

:-)

"Among those whom I like or admire, I can find no common denominator,
but among those whom I love, I can: all of them make me laugh,smile and happy."