...For all its worth...

I raced my car as fast as i could...it was past 12 am through the night...the roads only reflected the yellow lights...

The music was loud enough...the conversations went on and off...and me and my friends were headed to his place...not really knowing exactly why we were going there...

He had called some time back...only to say that he again had a fight with his dad...so he couldnt meet up...
His voice cracked into a teary sound...
"He has given me 8 more days to move out..."

We told him we were coming...simply because we couldnt leave him like that...

We reached the narrow lanes to his house...and we sat down...on a circle of benches...
Dark hot night...all five of us on different benches...and we just looked at him in silence...

I wondered where and how these things lead up to...Love can ask so much from you at times...
A guy torn in between a girl and his family...

We had soo much to tell him...so much to "shake" him up...tell him that he has changed..and even after doing everything he can...we cant see him at peace with himself...

I looked at Varun...and he spoke...
"So...your dad wants you to move out...are you sure you dont have a choice? cant this marraige wait longer...? do you really want to go against and away from your family? Is this all worth it?"

We asked and he explained...the discussion went on ranging from priorities to ego issues...

I wonder if anyone had thought we would be like this...discussing marriages and parents...from what started 8 years back with journal entries,diodes and transistors...

What bothered us...the soul reason we were there at his place till 2.30 in the night...was one simple reason...
"We do not want to lose the friend we had made 8 years back...and we only want his peace...nothing else matters...nothing else is worth it..."

yes...8 years of friendship...and some things never change...

People ask you if its worth going against your parents, who have raised you and given you so much, for a love that is new and uncertain...
I think honestly...there is really no answer to this question...coz in this case....only TIME can tell you what is right or wrong...and its worth...


I wish you all the luck my friend...and I hope when I read this post a few years down the line...I can say to myself...
"Hmmm....it was,It was really worth it after all..."

Life in Slow Motion...

It has been a busy week...

First...THANK YOU God for keeping my Boss to us...!! (I know Zari Ma'am how much you wanted a change...but we idiots need you more!! )
There are some people in your life...for whom you feel like working...not for anything else....but just because you respect them soo much that you cant let them down....

And with that...Job is still the same...but it continues...day by day....

Too much on the mind right now....

Lotsa love problems going on in peoples life (when does it stop mann!) with people suddenly "wanting" to marry or are being "forced" to get married or some of whom "loosing" out on the whole marriage thingy...

Funny thing is ... I am just running from one friend to another...sorting out things which i feel are sometimes more complicated that you find yourself at a stage where you wonder "why the hell do these people wanna get married!"

But i guess...if its worth fighting for...they should do it...you just get one chance at these things...never let yourself remain with that "what if" feeling...

You know what you want always...you just ignore it thinking there might be an easier way out...

Easier said than done i guess...

Well...no more deep thoughts on this...

I hope they move on...I hope they sort out their marriage...I hope parents agree...and I hope things fall into place the way they should be...

I was joking the other day....about how true love should not be soo difficult...
you know...it should be like that "Life in Slow Motion..."
The wind blowing....the dry leaves...girl walking...guy walking from other side...

Damnn Yash Raj...they seriously made it sound so funny...
:-D


LoL..sometimes Hindi movies can really suck!

...less words...

I have lots to write down about this week...but no motivation nor energy to actually sit down today and start...

So ill just end it today...short and sweet...

Just wanted to say...to the people around me...

I hope you find your answers..and I hope you make a good decision...I may or may not be there...
You can always find problems with any decision you make...but you cant let that stop you...Sometimes our best decisions are the ones that dont make any sense at all...

You are the person who has to decide.
Whether you'll do it or toss it aside; you are the person who makes up
your mind. Whether you'll lead or will linger behind. Whether you'll try
for the goal that's afar. Or just be contented to stay where you are.

Let it go...

We were evidently short for staff today...so I was actually caught up with a lot of things at the start of the day...
Its amazing how your mind is occupied when you are busy doing something or the other...

As the day progressed...the load reduced...and the headache from summer cold began to rise...and I dripped into the sick mode...

As i sat there...in the cabin...I called him up...and it sank in...
About how Shafi has lost the one he held the most dearest...and how difficult it is for him right now...at this point to still not loose grip of himself and keep sane...
I realised that the whole point of going after something that was never his...was...literally what he said it was...
"I just want to meet her one last time..."

It is that simple and straight sometimes...and how much ever life will be unfair...one thing never changes...No one replaces you in anyones life...and that enough is a thing to smile about...

I am always confused about these things...I mean...what exactly is love...if it is not this exact thing...

Love is not the fear of letting someone go...
but also the power within you to let someone go...

What matters are those aimless conversations...and words that went unsaid...also the things that were simply understood...and the time you spent...and also the times you did not spend...and the feeling that even when you are not around...you are still there....

True Story.

..Better Together..

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart,
our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart, like
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, It's always better when we're together
Yeah we'll look at the stars and we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight,
But I know that they’ll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things
for tomorrow night you see
that they’ll be gone too,
too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
With only two,
Just me and you,
Not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
We'll sit beneath the mango tree, now,

Yeah It's always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

[MmmMmmmmMmm, Mmm MMmmM]

I believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when I sleep
Hey now, and when I wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time,
There is no, no song I could sing
and there is no combination of words I could say
but I will still tell you one thing
We're Better together

and...Im getting married soon...!

I cant help but think and only reconfirm the fact that whatever is happening in Life right now...the moments that pass by...are all meant to be this way....

The place you are...the people you are with...the things that have happened to you...and the things that are still to come...EVERYTHING is written...

Three friends at Cafe Coffee Day sit and wonder if things were different and if some choices had messed up here and there...would they have ever sat there like that...would they even know each other...

I know that everyone gets this feeling at some point or other when you think about relationships around you...

But my point here is short and sweet...

Even if you are planning something...you will still have...by the end of the day...only the people who are meant to stay...around you...

There are levels to friendship...but if you think that level is decided by you...you are wrong...

I am around you for a reason...and no one can replace me...

(No wonder...these days... people realise it only AFTER im gone away from their lives...)

Well People Keep Repeating, that you will never fall in love. When everyone keeps retreating, but you can't seem to get enough. Let my love open the door, let my love open the door, let my love open the door to your heart.

But I know why are you reading this post...you wanna know more abt the blog title...

So yeahh...parents have given their deadline...(now I seriously know how girls feel abt it mann...!)

Mommy dearest : "You either tell us whom you wanna get married to...if you are in a relationship with someone...that makes my job easier...else I really want you married by June next year max...so I start searchin by August..."


I wonder if that was some sort of a dhamki I should be afraid of...and just tell her a girls name to save her the whole gruesome trouble of finding a girl for me...(seems an impossible task to her anyways...she told me later...)

So yeah...I guess...Its time to get tied down...

Married...me...her...ummm....weird....too fast...

someone elses Wife...!

The last one week has been pretty fast...not hectic.... (I dont qualify for people who really "work"....so hectic is not a word i think i am qualified to use...)...but fast...

We give so much pressure on the financial year ending that all people are bothered about...is... where is the money coming from...
Strange how much importance MONEY has in our lives...that everything else takes a back seat...

Anyway...the year ended well...not that it makes any specific difference to my life right now...but its worth a mention...

And yes...there was a party...there was an aimless laughter...and a walk on the roads laughing it out even more...
and then there was shopping...and even more shopping...
CARD swiping in and out...as if it was my sword of honour...to save my land from the evil...
....and also there was this movie called Clash Of the Titans...from where the "swiping of the sword" analogy came from...

Its good that the day ends in a smile...

Me and Shobhit were talking today...and I told him about how important it is to have some clue about whether the person you like equally liking you back...some hint...else it just screws things up...and he pointed out a nice thing...that...whether the person likes u back or not...you still share the same feelings...so why not just be...and accept the fact...
It works both ways....you give people who love you a chance...and expect people you love to love you back...

Anyway...that topic came up from all the engagements and marriages happening around...its as if thers a RACE going on....on who will be the FIRST to post couple pics on FACEBOOK...
(...btw...and a big "woooohooo" to the people who won already!)

But yeah...People are getting married Prasad...accept it...your friend will now be someone elses Wife/Husband...

Its still ok with guys...but it gets soo awkward with your girl friends...I mean....its like..."I know her better than you dude...so back off!!"

Shobhit: "okk...whom exactly are you worried about getting married...coz you are not sayin this for all your girl friends who are getting married...be specific..."
Me: " I do not know...but its just bloodyy bothering me right now...!"

And then we slurpped on our pizzas...and got into the typical "guy-thinking" mode...
(...and Prasad now thinks of a solution of how he can avoid his close friends from becoming someone elses wife...!)

The great business of life is to be, to do, to do without, and to depart.
-Viscount Morley

Laughin at urself...and undergoin trainin...

Its fun to make people laugh...it does feel good...

Someone told me once that the greatest gift you can give yourself is the ability to make fun of yourself.

I dont think i am really good at it...i mean...i generally do have a lot of ego issues...and self insults in front of unknown and strangers is strictly a NO NO till now...though I am learning not to get bothered by people around.

I think its ok to make people laugh around you over something stupid that you do now and then...
People might not realise the level at which you care for them...but at the end of the day...if you can make them smile...you have done your part..

Seriously...at this point of time...i dont know what is the LARGER picture of it all...but as long as I have the people around me...and as long as things are going fine...lets just have a good laugh...!

Irrelevant people mite just think im stupid...what matters to me is only YOU smiling...
(If you are a part of my "YOU" group...you would know it by now! )

Days in IDBI are fun...mainly because I am just not thinking about where it is going and how is it gonna shape up...(those thoughts only haunt the nights...!)

I have come to realise lately that I did miss out on a lot of fun things...expecting more maybe at times...and wanting the "right" things...
I still have my priorities in place...but after 25 years of life...i think...in the end....nothing matters...

I care...i love...i respect...i envy...and life is still the same...maybe only better....

Came across this CALVIN strip today...and it suddenly made me remember of how girls "train" guys...directly or indirectly...
I mean...im not complaining...we guys do need a looott of training...! :-D

Not failure, but low aim is a sin.

It must be borne in mind that, the tragedy of life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal.
The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.

It is not a calamity to die with dreams unfulfilled.
But it is a calamity not to dream.

It is not a disaster to be unable to capture your ideal,
But it is a disaster to no ideal to capture.

It is not a disgrace not to reach the stars.
But it is a disgrace not to have stars to reach for.

Not failure, but low aim is a sin.

Dr Benjamin Elijah Mays
1894-1984

A wife i never had and aimless conversations.

Had an interview today...

And the most funny part about the whole interview conversation was that...When i was asked to talk something about my family...I told them about my dad...then my mom...and then i said something stupid...

"So...thats about my Dad and my mom...and then there is my WIFE...."

(that just came out by itself I swear...i am very much single and looking!)

The guy looked at me and said...

"Ohh...so you are married...?? What does she do?"

I looked at him...almost wishing i could run out of the room...without having to correct the blunder i had just made...

"Umm...NO...im very much single...that just came out of no where...Im sorry...", I said.

The rest of the interview went fine...but I wish i could take back this slip of tongue.

Awkward funny moments, something to blog about today.

I always wanted to be somebody, but now I realize
I should have been more specific

Suddenly yesterday I felt a staunch hitch of loneliness at night...I dunno what and why it was...but i just felt lost and aimless...for that one brief moment...

And that is when i realised that how ever good or bad things are going in your life...it always remains a tad tiny "incomplete" unless you have someone to talk to...

I quickly moved my google talk friends up and down...looking for someone i can just talk something stupid to take my mind off...

It does help....not thinking about things that bother you...but instead worrying about others problems...

No one was quite free yesterday I think...or they had already had their "talks" for the day...

I still said Hiyas and Byes and some random things to people (which i dont think made sense...) and then, after finally realising that no one was really interested in listening to me...i logged off...