a song...a walk...and a day off

Had taken the day off from work today...
I dont think i can ever be the "workaholic" kinds they talk about every now and then...of people who work 14-16 hrs a day...24/7 are in the work mood...and eat sleep and drink business...

Somehow...people say and believe that being that way is the way to the top...may be it is...may be it is not...
For me...Work is...well...W O R K....a four letter word...and it cannot replace L I F E (another four letter word! ) whatever may be the stake offered...

I value my peace...my sanity...and ill break whenever that line is about to be crossed...

Heard some good news today...about a colleague...and it made me feel happy...its good to know that nice people get their share of success once in a while at least...

Went for a walk today...alone...
...with head phones playing Ronan's "Its so easy lovin' you"

Standing here in front of you
You never looked so beautiful
With every breath you steal my words away
It's like seeing you the first time
Yeah that's the way I feel tonight
In you I've found a place I wanna stay
Wish I could freeze you in this moment like a photograph
You're the life I always wanted but never dreamed I could have

Felt the need to dance...sing....

Well...When you are 25 years old....you look around...and you give up that urge to dance and sing aimlessly on the raods....
(Ahhhh....growing up sucks!)

Called up a friend when i reached home...

Me: "Should i tell her??"
Friend: "aahhh....that question...the story of your life!"

I laughed.

..the picture..

I do not know why...but today a picture made me go back in time...and somewhere i did go blank into memories...
Its weird how this happens to you isnt it...you are sitting somewhere alone maybe...and something reminds you of someone...and that something could be anything....a book...a picture...a showpiece...anything...
And that someone...not necessarily may be someone important from your present life...just an acquaintance may be...
But that person takes you to that time you knew him/her...the time that revolved around him/her...and you start seeing a lot of things that happened then...and in your mind...you are simply LOST...

A strange thing happened today...was going through some random photos on facebook... and came across one...
That one photo made me realize something...a truth i had thought i could ignore all this while...
Something I cant accept at this point of time...maybe some other day...some other time...

I wonder when I look back at things that have "hit" me every now and then...i wonder if they would really matter in the long run...

The question still remains..."How do you really know if its 'real'?"

As they say...If you cant deal with the truth...if you cant deal with love...and if you cant deal with a Lie...let it become a matter of the past...

One picture...a lot of words unsaid...

truth and the love story

The new year has started..and it has been some great and sleepless 3 days...

Somehow...after 25 years of life...you kinda know whom you can count on to have a blast with...and I am sure every one of us has such people around them.

I was wondering the other day at work about how sometimes...you just lie on the face of people...call it a flatter/sympathy/'just being nice" gesture...
Sometimes you just say Yes to everything what a person is saying just so that he/she doesnt feel bad or you just want to avoid an awkward argument...

I wonder if we could just say the plain truth to people...it would reduce a lot of misunderstanding...and life would be much simpler...when everyone has to just "live with the truth".


Of course...life will then become less exciting...less dramatic...and quite boring at that...

The most affected would be the Service Industry of course...Flatter and Lies is the key to business for them...

Anyway...just a thought...

"When you want to fool someone...just tell them the truth"

Believe me...it works...

Coming back to the service industry...a customer once told me that it is a "thankless" job...and that you have to do everything...without expecting or considering what is the limit to which things you have to do...

Honestly...I always thought...knowing the person that I am...(or atleast one side of me is)...that being 'selfless' is just one of my qualities...and that I do it quite naturally..
I like helping people out...going to every extent possible...and that I would never tire out of it...

After working at a Bank...let me tell you one truth...
My selflessness is not infinite afterall ...I DID TIRE OUT OF IT.

I wonder if anyone cares these days anyways...people are too selfish to think about anything other than themselves.
Plus...if YOU want to be happy...somewhere...you have to make SOMEONE ELSE sad.

Its like the "every-films'-love-story"...which a 10 year old kid told me yesterday...
Guy likes a girl...guy is a good guy...girl is a good girl...but the the girl is "just not that into" the guy...eventually...if the girl wants to be happy...she finds another guy who makes her happy...leaving the first guy sad.

Its funny how "profound" kids talk these days..
:-D

emotions,weddings,affairs

The frequency of my posts on the blog have become scarce...and I realised today that I am simply running away from a certain things and responsibilities these days to fulfill and adhere to things that dont really matter in my life...

The new year is coming close...and dunno why...but I have a staunch feeling that it is going to be a very good year...and a positive one at that...

I dont feel very "christmasy" this year...and that is surprising...because this is generally my favorite time of year (After June of course...rains and birthdays...! )
I guess people these days dont really value holidays anymore...the days go by worrying about one thing or the other...and the festival goes by as just another "break day"

I sometimes wonder what is happening to us...as "humans"...I mean we have strong emotions...they are getting more and more "limited" and constricted day by day...

Hopefully the New year will bring n good emotions and endless opportunities for growth.

I came to know a lot of good things this week..something which I want to make a note of...
A girl and a boy I know found out that they like each other...and I think that is the best thing to happen to anyone...to simply KNOW that you like someone...

I know a lot of people, including myself, who cant decide the degree to which one can like/love someone...and what exactly "defines" a relationship.

On a loosely related note.. "500 Days of Summer" is a must watch movie this season...especially if you are a guy...

I feel bad that i dont meet a lot of friends as occasionally as before,especially the ones whom i really wanna meet...sit down and simply chat on endless and argue on meaningless discussions...but everyone has 24 hours in a day...and I cant be everywhere all the time...
I have let gone of a lot of things...but some people I just cant let go of...and i I see to it that I am in touch with them and know what they are upto...

I want more of something...I want less of other things...but thats the way life is...you cant balance everything...

Watching people in love getting married is fun...its like...people have completed a mission or so...and are now entering a new one.
To all the people who got married this month (and believe me...they were in lots!!!) I wish them the best...

A because-of-work-stressed-out girl told me yesterday,"Prasad, why dont you have an affair...its much easier thing to do these days...and its not that complicated as it seems to be"
I looked at her,smiled, and said, "Thats the problem...it is easy to have an affair...i agree...but it is very very difficult to have an affair with the right person!"

Lets simplify things than complicate what seems a simple thing to do.

Off to Goa today...much needed break...lets blog when I get back...

hectic and meeting good hearts

I finally sit on my bed lazing around wondering why I am leading such a stressful life...

The past one month has been so fast and torturous that the only thing that kept me going, doing the job that i do, (and this might sound funny..but it isnt) is recession and that there are no other jobs in the market.

I was passing through the pages of a magazine the other day and i read a quote of some businessman i really do not know or remember the name of and he said "Every job teaches you something..You only realize it later..."

I agree...Every experience is a blessing...and ill remember that...

I met some very good people in the last one month...amidst all the confusion and mess...I think i still made very good friends.

I have a lot of people telling me that I have a very good heart...and I never really understood what exactly they meant by that...only until I met someone with one...

Its almost unbelievable that in these times of selfishness and politics...there can be someone who is this damnn sweet!

Some memories just keep coming up all your life dont they...small trivial things..you sometimes wonder how such tiny moments make up for so much of your thought process...

Amazing isnt it...

Small ones are what are more important...than large random experiences...

travel,love and a stuck rickshaw

I have too much to say...but cant really fix up my mind on what exactly to write...
Hence Ill just stick to putting down some random statements...for the memory of this month...

' I think it all always start with a smile...notice the children playing in and around you...and notice the smile they give you when they see you...Innocence at its best i say... '

' Had been away for a few days for work...Mumbai to Delhi to Calcutta and back...Loved Delhi...Hated Calcutta...so all in all...a balanced trip...
Traveling to places alone can be fun...the self contemplation helps you in a way... '

Noticed this hand-drawn rickshaw in Delhi...reminded me of someone...or rather...something that is related to it...and i smiled...(and yes...was singing "Aaj Din Chadeyaa" all the way!)



' Was just thinking during the tour about how some people and their thoughts grip you constantly...and if attachments are anything to be believed...you can never part yourself from remembering atleast once during the day... '

' How do you really decide...??? I mean...I like her....yes..you can even call it love...but then...i 'love' a lot of my other friends too..how do i know...if i love her that much that i wanna marry her?? okk...so she might get someone soon...fixed/arranged or something else...but her deadline for a relationship isnt quite the urgency for me to decide if I wanna get into a relationship...and most importantly...If ever someone really wants to be tied down to me...why would she wanna be with me...she could get ANYONE she wants under the moon (under the sun even!)
If it had to work out...it would have right...naturally...
How does one draw the line...about...what YOU really want? '

' NO...The answer is not "You just know it!" '

'Why cant they just put signboards saying "This is the one for you" Would avoid a lot of confusion...especially when there is a thin line between friendship and love...'

'I like work...and i hate it toooo...'

Street Lights to the "Girl i wanna marry"

Have had a wonderful week...festive mood really gets you..doesnt it?

I love to stroll the streets alone...especially during the night...

I see the yellow street lamps lighting up the roads and reflecting the beams all around...I open the bus windows...to feel the wind...and my mind wanders...

Aimless thoughts...dreams...people...hopes...and the smile on the face...

Was just wondering the other day...how..it just doesnt matter when things change around you..your school...the place you live..your job...it doesnt really make a difference...

What DOES matter is when PEOPLE around you change..relationships around you change...

When I see my close "about to get married" friends (girls)...I wonder what and how to react...how should our relationship change...mine and her....it goes from being naughty,bindass , shameless and changes to pure formal talks...distant and aloof chats...and a mere mix of "Hiyas and Hellos"

I cant in the first place decide...How do you know if you wanna marry someone...spend the rest of your life with...(and don gimme that "you just knw!" thingy)

I mean...You LOVE your friends...you like the concept of love...you dream of a relationship...friendship and all that...but how do you finally decide...whether YOU really wanna go ahead and marry this person...Who would really be STUPID enough to bear me for the rest of her life...

And when you yourself are not sure...how do you make a commitment...?

Its not a 'trial and error' thing for me...I need to be very sure about it...and generally...when I am sure about it...I dont think the girl is even remotely interested!

Anyway...watching friends getting married is fun...its like striking off your "prospects" list (every guy does this...but not ONE will admit it!)

Oh well...CHEERS to the girl i wanna marry...and until she finds someone...i guess its better to just sit and watch...

"Mein reh bhii naa paaun,mein kehe bhii naa paunn....

bole bina hii kaise tujho sunaaii de...!!"

a cup'a tea

Its good to know that sometimes...even small things can make you happy...
Had a stressful day at work...came home late...and had a cup of hot tea...Cant tell you how relaxing it is...good music and tea...best combo ever!

I was asked by a friend about whats is up with me these days...and i replied,
"Cried yesterday...laughed today...in short...same old same old..."

I get a feeling that how much ever things are bad...there is something good in it for you...maybe a lesson...an experience...an opportunity...

I will look back at these frustrating days and tell myself...

"It was all worth it...like that cup of hot tea.."

(More on love,marriage and jobs in posts to come...have to update life on a lot of things...)

...day dreams...

I havent wanted the trouble in a loong time...
but with you...the 'trouble' doesnt seem so "TROUBLING"

...craziness...

Most people dream...I virtually LIVE in my dreams...
A lot of people tell me i am "filmy" at times...over expecting and under estimating consequences of situations and things that I do or are to be done.
(this discussion mainly started from the latest trailor of a bollywood movie...where people are flying...things are falling down...and everything is "over the top"!)

I ,however, simply feel that Life is...after all...one hell of a fantasy...!
everyday, you dont know what is going to happen...and where is it going to go...

Its a story which is unfolding every second of your life...then , why not add some "music" and "special effects" to it in the process...

I ask people this one question always...
"When you look back at your life...how many situations can you say...you have done/experienced based on which you can write a book or make an interesting film on your life...?"

If your answer....is that you hardly have any such situation...then....just give a thought to how boring your life was...and is!

I always think that one should do something funny sometimes...something "out of the way"....something that "happens only in movies"...
Just try...and see..how closely knit the movies are with real life situations...

You just make a story...Life will take care of the movie to be made...

Attended training at IDBI Belapur last whole week...away from work...
Met some amazing people in the process..."like minded fools" is what i call them...most of them...working at the right place in the wrong profiles...and still trying to figure out how to keep going...
I realised that the people i met at my workplace...some of them with whom i instantly connected...some with whom i keep meeting again and again...are all a part of the larger movie of my life...and somewhere....something is shaping up...

You meet some of the best people at the worst situations in your life..
I have tried not to be attached to anyone lately...and remain as aloof as possible...Sometimes though...some things are just meant to happen i guess...
From a girl who broke her leg...to the guy i dropped down at Nashik...its all there...right in front of you...and still you dont know where to place it...

Havent spoken to a lot of friends in the last week...no contact at all with some...Time passes by...and sometimes you feel the other person should try too...
I wanna see...how many years and till what time of my life each relationship and friendship I have finally remains...

Not all of them last afterall...do they...