...Wishlist 2038...

I dont know why....but i have always hated the month of MAY...
No specific reason as such...but i have always wanted the month to just pass as soon as possible....somehow i dont find good things happening to me in the month of May every year and its more of a desperate wait for JUNE to come...
June has always had a lot of hustle and fun with birthdays,anniversaries,school reopenings,friend visits....and of course the rains!

Was down with fever and cold today and so skipped work...
Dunno why...the summer job is seeming more like a formality to me than anything else and im not specifically gaining enough interest in what i am doing...
I am learning a lot...no doubts abt that...but there is something missing...maybe that right amount of motivation is lacking...

Was thinking about the things i need to do...about the urge to start earning again...about how things in college are goin to change now...and how i will have to face it...and in this process of foolish thoughts...i went to sleep...!!!
Havent slept this much in a day in my entire life i tell you !!!


I am thinking of making a wishlist for my birthday this year...and i am planning to include in it the things i might possibly never get in this life time...
I was thinking that since BLOGGER has started this option of writing something down and posting it at any specific day/time in the future...i will make this wishlist...and keep it for posting on say... 18th June 2038...By then ill be close to 53 years...and hopefully would have "lived" my life...atleast tried what i wanted from it...

My friend asked me the other day...
"If say...every year...God gave you one option of changing things the way they are and having it your way...what would you ask for this year??"

I gave him a blank stare...for i did have an answer to that question...
but i dont think its worth wishing for things that did not happen...Life doesnt work that way...
But it will definitely go in my wishlist!
:-)

...The bond that remains always...

I cant believe the rate at which people are getting married these days...its like a "thing" you have to do at this age!! (Well....its not an obligation as such....for some it happens naturally...and thats the best thing to happen to you if you fall in this category!)
Good for them i say...But still i cant get over the fact that its a bit "sudden" for me...maybe i should get used to it now...hearing about people around me tying the knot...to live happily ever after...
:-)

I cant understand how it all happens...I mean the primary reason you marry is because you need company in life...The ones you have...relatives,friends,etc wont be around for long...and primarily because you need someone to support you and be with you all the time...
And there it is...you decide who it is going to be in such a short time....most of which is pretence...
It will never work for me i guess...i just cant do it....

Having a lot of fun these days...hanging out almost every evening and meeting up with old friends...
Its nice to keep in touch with a few people...and i am glad i chose to keep contact with them for this long....



The photo on the left was clicked by Rahul about a year ago when he had visited Europe...

Varun (on the right) clicked it last week when he had gone to the same place this year...

Its decided now for us...we might go separately...but we have to click a photo at this place in this very pose...
Its the "thing" we just have to do for this circle of friends...
I dont know when ill do it...but i just hope i do it some day...

I like the friends i made at Engineering...We may live miles apart...but we are always there for each other...and we cant "stay" without each other...

If your life was a story....

"As Harold took a bite of Bavarian sugar cookie, he finally felt as if everything was going to be ok. Sometimes, when we lose ourselves in fear and despair, in routine and constancy, in hopelessness and tragedy, we can thank God for Bavarian sugar cookies.

And, fortunately, when there aren't any cookies, we can still find reassurance in a familiar hand on our skin, or a kind and loving gesture, or subtle encouragement, or a loving embrace, or an offer of comfort, not to mention an uneaten Danish, soft-spoken secrets, and Fender Stratocasters, and maybe the occasional piece of fiction. And we must remember that all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtleties, which we assume only accessorize our days, are effective for a much larger and nobler cause.

They are here to save our lives.
I know the idea seems strange, but I also know that it just so happens to be true.
And, so it was, a wristwatch saved Harold Crick."


This movie has so much to telll...and it grasps you every minute...i always thought what it would be like to be a part of a story...what if you knew everything is decided....
this movie is a must watch!

alone and a cup of coffee

Was sitting with a friend at a coffee shop yesterday...
I was busy going through the menu (I dont get this sometimes...you visit the place so often...u know the menu "in and out"...you have already decided what you are goin to order...but still you will go through it...again and again!!!)

well...He saw this girl walk in...He looked my way and said..."Look at her....she is beautiful mann...but i bet she has a geek boyfriend who doesnt even know how to talk properly...this always happens..."

I looked at her...(yupp...one pretty lady she was...)
"Why are you complaining suddenly....she is happy with her bf...and you dont stand a chance with her...let her be...and stop wasting your time thinking over something you can never have..."

He gave me a stare...and i guess that was the end of another senseless conversation at the coffee shop.
Somehow...Every guy always thinks he can be a better boyfriend to a girl than her present bf..
LOL

Cant help thinking these days about the way things have changed...about how things could have been different...about people i could have never met...
Some people you meet so regularly these days...could never have been a part of your life at all...

I mean...i never make genuine attempts to go and talk to people....but i realized...by the end of the day...each new place i visit...i do make an acquaintance...
and i guess it happens to all...

Was thinking about how i have been waiting for things to change again...and was remembering old days...missing a lot of people...and making a lot of calls...

Have been alone at home a couple of days...and though i really like the freedom...i do get bugged when i have no plans for the day...
Spoke to a couple of friends who are away...reasons ranging from job to studies...and it made me realize how they must be spending their everyday...
same office...same work...and coming back home alone...with hardly anything to do...

I wished i could do something for them...sometimes...yes....talking on the phone for a long time helps...

Cant wait...

I am sitting here today...11:15 pm...alone in the house...and just feeling the lack of company...Not that i want anyone to be around me right now...because i am enjoying the peace of being alone (You dont get peace at staying alone very often...so might as well enjoy it whenever you feel "good" about being alone!)

Somehow...i wished it rained...I cant tell you how much i am missing the rains!!!


I just love the drizzles...it makes you wanna dance...it makes you feel touched and cared...aahhh!!

I was telling Harry the other day of how i am tired of staying true and positive...about how hoping that better things will come only frustrates me more now...not that i would like to change anything specifically...because i would like to believe (how much ever I wont like to accept it...) that whatever you get is always close to what you deserve...
But i dont know why..I dont get this feeling....and why do i feel that somewhere...Life has been too unfair...

I am happy about a lot of things...A lot of new things bought (which includes our new CAR!)...about friends who will be coming down...about friends gone and still call to know how i am...About the new summer job and the urge to prove my worth again...about JUNE (which is my fav month!!!)

But i dont feel all that happy somehow...and that feeling doesnt go away...it might fade a bit...but its still there...

Right now...Cant wait for the rains to come!!!!

I cant wait to walk down the road...in the rain...and feeling the showers...

The story has to end...

An incomplete conversation is like a story which has not ended...the end has many possibilities and unless it is discussed fully...you will never know the end...and you will just keep thinking about what’s coming next...what will happen...what can happen...will it be good...will it be bad...

Arrggghhh...A conversation left incomplete is irritating for me...It just bugs me when something cuts a discussion and its left...with a lot of question marks...

I don’t know why...I need to complete what has started...so that there is no room for possibilities and “now what will happen”

May be its one of those “things” weird about me..i can postpone the temptation to complete whats started...but I cant change the fact that it does irritate me when talks are left...just untouched...

“Most of your decisions are half chance...so is everybody elses... ”

Dont let things go so easily...because the good times of the past wont come back...and the good times of the future are not worth letting go...

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose, only time?

Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your life flies, only time?
And who can say why your heart cries
when your love lies, only time?

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be ,in your heart?
and who can say when the day sleeps,
and the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart.....

Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose, only time?
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time?

Who knows? Only time
Who knows? Only time

Sometimes...you just do some things that you just need to do...stupid things...
You know how it will affect you and how it might just change things for worse...but as Harry says...
"You are not better without doing them anyways..."

Sometimes...Life should not make any sense...just let things happen...do what you feel like doing...whenever you want to...

Dont expect anything...and be good and true to yourself...
Somethings you really wanted may not be yours...but what you have is also good enough...

"Sometimes when things seem too easy to be true...they are too easy to be true..."


Exams finally done...getting into summer jobs...excited about the new change...hopefully Life will be good...
"Something big is waiting to come...."

Let this space be blank...

The happy end...

I think i am quite in control of myself...but sometimes you just cant handle yourself...and then you just freak out...
Being back to "normal" and changing moods is easy for me...but this was the longest i have ever been freaked out...
I am glad that i am back...

Had a great evening with friends the other day...it felt really nice to be pampered again...like old times...and was genuinely missing some people...

I think with the stressful life thats on...you need someone around you all the time...else you will just be lost in your thoughts...which is definitely not worth it...

Saw RACE....
Katrina Kaif looks sooo ammmmmmmmmmmmaaaaazzzziiinnnngggg....!!!
Gosh...was telling a friend the other day...She is 23...I am 23....IMAGINE!!!! i still have a chance!!!
LOL

Sometimes...stupid meaningless conversations also help...

"You have seen hindi movies right...in the end its all ok...the hero and the heroine should meet...and then there is happily ever after..."

My reply to this amazingly profound statement was...

"Yeah....but life is not a movie..."

And then came the reply which ill remember for the rest of my life....

"I agree dude....but Movies are inspired from real life they say....so it has to be true somewhere.."

And he just smiled...
Come to think of it....it does make some sense...

aaahhh....the wait for the perfect ending....

Somethin's coming...

I am loving this morning...sitting at home...relaxing...not thinking much...and it feels good...
Dunno why....but i wont forget this day for a long time...its been nothin gr8...or exceptional that happened...but just...its one of those days...

Watched "That thing you do"
There is something about the beats of the song....makes you wanna dance...

"you... doin' that thing you do
breaking my heart into a million pieces
like you always do
and you... don't mean to be cruel
you never even knew about the heartache
I've been going through
well I try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing you do..
I know all the games you play
and I'm gonna find a way to let you know
that you'll be mine someday
cause we could be happy can't you see
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you
and keep you here with me
cause I try and try to forget you girl
but it's just so hard to do
every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot girl
but I know one thing's for sure
it's the love I haven't got girl
and I just can't take it anymore

cause we could be happy can't you see
if you'd only let me be the one to hold you
and keep you here with me
cause it hurts me so just to see you go
around with someone new
and if I know you you're doing that thing
every day just doing that thing
I can't take you doing
that thing you do"

I know of a friend who plays this song for his girl all the time...i must agree...its one of the most amazing songs...
Every couple should have a song...

:-)