Excuse 4 not blogging and Expectations...

...Exams ON...
and bored of it now...
soo many papers..NIL preparation....just dragging it....

Looking forward to better and happy days...
Life in MBA has been good...could have been better....great rather....but i guess i just over expected something from this course before knowing about it...


Expectations is a matter of huge debate...
Your life is a flow of expectations...expectations from friends...family...and its all about who is expecting more than the other....

I have learned from my recent experiences that expectations need to be reasoned out...
You cannot expect more from a person than he/she can offer...and thats the bottom line...even if it is not just...not valid in the situation...not practical...but then...thats the bottom line...and it ends there....
So better be ready for it when u know your expectations arent going to be fulfilled...be prepared...
You are not wrong...the expectations you hold are not wrong...just that...there always have to be ups and downs...

Well...too much of exam effect rubbing off i guess...
still 6 more papers to go...arrrggghhh!!

I am having this great feeling of positivity...i dunno why...
(definitely not bcoz of the exams!!!! LOL )

...Diwali lights...

Have had one of the best times in the past week...
the time passes....
..... memories remain....

I wish the time stays once in a while...just to feel the moment...

Missing people is worth it when they return...to give you a time of your life!

:-)

You gotta be "kidding"

Time just flies by...I remember telling myself once that i will give everything i do my best shot...

Had a presentation the other day...and I somehow wanted it to be perfect...
Just dont think it went upto the mark...
I dont want to blame anyone...its better people realise their mistakes on their own...if they dont..well...its their loss...
Somehow when the presentation isnt satisfactory...all the efforts just go WASTE...in a matter of seconds...
and thats exactly where it hurts!
must get used to it now i guess...

Had very less sleep yesterday...frustrated with mom and dad...its so difficult to keep everyone happy these days...and for now...i just chose to ignore...and let it be...

The village trip to Kashedi was an experience...and ill stick to the word experience...without mentioning good or bad...

This is the first time in my life i dint remove my camera for pictures on a trip...somehow...jut dint want any memories of this thing...but i know it has taught me a lot...about expectations and otherwise...

The trip also made me realise how shallow a thinking people can have...and how people can be plain JEALOUS...trying to pull a person down...without realizing that apart from acting like kids...they are just making a fool of themselves...
LOL...i just laugh at these people...they dont even know me...i wonder...what will happen to their jealousy when they actually know what i have achieved and my credibility...
LOLzzz


Anyways...there is more to life than all this...and right now...i am just tooo excited about it!!!

Welcome to each coming second....I am ready for you...
:-)

...fast fwd...

Life has geared up...Its become tough...irritating...frustrating...and all the words you can put in for me to tell you i am bugged!

Not that i hate it....but things are happening which i dont want to be a part of...because i dont really need them right now...
I know my goal...let me just achieve that...
I wonder how come the most supportive people create a block in your life...almost suddenly...not that they mean to...but it just happens i guess...and life is about living through these challenges...

Change is good...but it shoudnt be your destiny...
I have always got the things that i really want the hard way...and i have gotten used to it...
BUT I CANT COMPROMISE ON MY SUCCESS...i just wont let anyone take that away from me!

You try to be the best son...the best friend...the best colleague...the best social being...but then if you are loosing out on what YOU really need....its just not fair!

If this is destiny...i really dont need it right now...

A friend told me yesterday....
"When you are around...how can someone not open up..."
I smiled.

Glad that i am what i am...it makes me feel good about myself from the inside...

Just Lines...

Will: I didn't ask for this.
Sean: No, you were born with it. So don't cop out behind "I didn't ask for this".

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Lambeau: Sometimes I wish I had never met you. Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there....!

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Chuckie: Every day I come by your house and I pick you up. And we go out. We have a few drinks, and a few laughs, and it's great. But you know what the best part of my day is? For about ten seconds, from when I pull up to the car and when I get to your door, cause I think, maybe I'll get up there and I'll knock on the door and you won't be there. No goodbye. No see you later. No nothing. You just left. I don't know much, but I know that.

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Sean: You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.

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Sean: Do you have a soul mate?
Will: Define that?
Sean: Someone you can relate to, someone who opens things up for you.
Will: Yeah, Chuckie.
Sean: Chuckie's family, he would lie down in fucking traffic for you. I meant someone else who isn’t family....

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Lambeau: You're angry at me for doing what you could have done but ask yourself, Sean. Ask yourself if you want Will to feel that way, if you want him to feel like a failure.

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Sean: Oh, you arrogant shit! That's why I don't come to the goddamned reunions 'cause I can't stand that look in your eye. Ya know, that condescending, embarrassed look. You think I'm a failure. I know who I am, and I'm proud of what I do. I was a conscientious choice, I didn't fuck up! And you and your cronies think I'm some sort of pity case. You and your kiss-ass chorus following you around going, "The Field's Medal! The Field's Medal!" Why are you still so fuckin' afraid of failure?

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Knowing people...

Being a good person is hard i have heard...
I have always tried to be one...Dont quite know if i have been good enough...

Madhura always tells me i am a good boy...and she is pleasantly surprised of the fact that..even though i am an engineer...i am good..( dont know wats the relation tho...an engineer and being good...LOL...)

Well..I dont know...they say there is an evil in all of us...I have tried to supress it to the uttermost...thats all i have to say...
But i dont think everyone thinks i am good and noble...Not all can....there is nothin 100% perfect...and even i am HUMAN...NOT PERFECT!!

I have done things in my life i shouldnt have....and some of them have been definitely wrong in some peoples eye...
But primarily...they have deeds which i have found right and have believed in...
For me...What according to me is WRONG will always be WRONG....there is no substitute for it...same is the case with the RIGHT thing...

Varun told me the other day...

"Never ever REGRET about anything if you believed in what you did...Never say 'IF ONLY'...coz...what you do...you do it from the heart..."

That sentence has just changed the way i look at things....

Best thing to do...

I G N O R E

USED...THROWN

I see this beggar at the station everyday....Small kid of abt 12 yrs or so...People actually know him now...the regular commuters i mean...

No one really gives him any money...What caught my attention about this guy is that....people actually make fun of him everyday...they hit him...force him...tease him...
And all this guy does is ask for money....

Its soo frustrating...The feeling of being USED and THROWN as per convenience...even more irritating is the fact that you choose not to react...whatever the reason maybe...In this case of course...because the guy has no money...not much he can do to people...

GET OVER THE EVIL....EVERYONE HAS A SELF RESPECT...TRY AND UNDERSTAND IT...WHEN YOU MAKE FUN OF SOMEONE...YOU ARE LOWERING YOUR OWN IMAGE AND SELF ESTEEM SOMEWHERE....IN FRONT OF SOMEONE....


I have given few people a second chance in my life...and i have asked for one from a fewer ones...
They say that life is all about the strings you choose...I guess someone just chose the wrong one...and may be...things just wont be the same again..and maybe that is what is meant to be...or may be not...only time should tell...

I am happy about a good thing i did today...Gave a college friend a b'day gift i had promised her...and i feel sooooo happy abt it!!!!!
:-)

Time

too much work to be done...too little time...
i dont wanna think....but i cant stop thinking....ill die...
I make no sense...i know...but sense isnt to be measured anyways...
(WTF!)

LOLzzz

Its going to be a frustrating and tasking week...jammed with tests and submissions...
I am ready for it....it is a challenge in a way....but cant wait for it to get over...!

I am glad the situation at home is a bit better now...that has been irritating me even more all week...
College just seems messed up somehow still...and things arent quite clear...and it does bother me sometimes...but thanks to Saumya's blunt answers...I have learnt to take it in my stride!!!
LoL
I still hate it tho....coz it reminds me of my engineering days...and I soooo dont want to get back to all that...

People say i get too serious about things...I say...Cant help it...Thats the way i am...and its hard to change me now...
:-)

"You are alive. So LIVE."

A lot of things to look forward to....
Two of my very close friends...Soniya and Chikki coming back in December....cant wait to meet them !!!!!

...And then of course.....theres the big WEDDING!!!
Wooohooooo!!
:-)

Being "ME"

People are changing around me...They seem to have changed their priorities...or just maybe failed to understand what is right and what is wrong...

It will affect them...And I thought about it...whether i should adjust to this and just accept things...without reason...
Because if i do...I wont be myself....And I have let go of people influencing me...

I will do what i always have wanted to do...I REFUSE THE CHANGE...

I have always been there for my friends...and I always will be...because you cant change what you feel for a person as per situations and surroundings...if you do...then i think you never can be a good friend...

A friend from college had called today...and he told me his problem...I talked to him for about 20 mins and consoled him...
I knew somewhere that i am not in the mood to console and comfort someone else...but I am glad i did it...and I am even more happy that it came to me naturally...
Dont worry Amit...Everything will be just fine...

I am always there...hope this goodness returns to me someday too...somewhere find the need for it now...

"The search for the truth is the most important work in the whole world — and the most dangerous"