The situation is pathetic...I am just watching people with lesser scores getting in amazing colleges...Some through money...some coz they are teh respected and lucky "reserved" candidates [No offence intended :-p]

I am being some what rude to people these days....
and thats only because i want to avoid answering the same lame questions again and again...

"So....what next? You think u will get admission...?? Where are the chances??"
"Why the hell are you leaving your job when you dont have a confirmed seat at MBA ??"
"Why dont you better try next year??"


Damn it...Just two words...B U Z Z OFF!!!
I have more important things and even more troubles and worries to take tension about!

God...!!! How i wish this phase ends fast...someone plz press the FAST FWD button!!!

Damn...

No mood to blog these days....
Hell lot tensed about certain things...and least bothered about a certain others..!!

Damn...this lifes so messy...The whole life i have been struggling with this word called "MERIT"
Bloody...where is the place for merit in India...

No no...Im not fretting...thats what losers do they say...
A winner makes his way through...creates his own path...excels in all difficulties...
i just laugh at these sentences now...
Whatever...have learnt to take things as they come and as they are...
If i lose out at life...ill just blame my LUCK and screw my DESTINY...
LOLzz...

Okk...so if thats settled...i can tell you other things...
Me enjoying last days at Godrej....will never forget this place!!
I cant tell you the fun we have at this "work" place....
and it will be equally hurting to leave this wonderful place....

On other things...

There are people...i cant quite understand or interpret their attitudes...and i am not thinking much about it either....
Though i do wish things were more clear..and things were certainly not the way they are right now...
Someone define "patience" to me...is it synonymous to "being in love"??
If yes...then im very very bad at patience...which equals to me being bad at love...
(LOLz....i hav no idea wat im talking about...)

damn ....this messy life....

Walking in the rain...

...I walk through the drizzle...The wind is blowing across...the music playing loud...

"Aasmaan ko bhi ye haseen raaz hai pasand
Uljhi uljhi saanson ki aawaaz hai pasand
Moti luta rahi hai saawan ki badliyaan...

Baahon ke darmiyaan do pyaar mil rahe hain
Jaane kya bole mann dole sunke badan
Dhadkan bani zubaan..."

and then there are those faint memories of her...
People walking by me...but all i can see is the faint picture of my memories...almost lost....fazed out...but still there...very much there...
I dunno what it is about this weather thats making me think of her...
Or what is it about her thats sooo "always there"...The insecure feeling in my heart when i think about her...and what we could have been...

I try to avoid the foolishness...try to keep myself occupied in aimless conversations with friends...trying to enjoy the moment...
Feel the moment...the drizzle washing away all pains...the smell of first showered land killing all evil...
The picture starts fading out...bringing a smile on my face...

We walk on...feeling the freedom this weather has given us...Its perfect...
.....
.......
..........And then i look back again..........

"Did i leave something behind???"

...I walk through the drizzle
................................................The wind is blowing across
...............................................................................................the music playing loud......

A sign is all i need...

There are times in everyones life when we have to make life changing decisions...
I am on one such stage of my life right now....

As they say...Too much good happening in life is also a challenge...
:-)

I am very sure what i want to achieve in life...and also what i want to do...But somehow...right now...I NEED A SIGN...!!!

Coz destiny has played with my dreams...and made me lose most games of life...and somehow i have lost confidence in myself somewhere...

But i need to rise...comeback...and win the finals now!!
Just gimme a sign..and ill make my best move...

:-)

Wats in a NAME??

At a training session today...we were asked to jot down in points what all should we consider while buying a house for yourself.
These points had to be further divided into "Must haves" and "Negotiable"
something like...
Budget(for the house) is a "must have"...and something like School nearby the house is "negotiable".

We all had it done discussing in groups...and everyone had almost got in all the must haves and negotiable points.
Mr.Joseph Raj asked if there was anything else u want to add to this list...and then after a moment of silence came a voice from somewhere...

"Sir,I think i would also consider if the building in which im buying a house is Earthquake resistant."

We all looked at him and burst out laughing!!
What the hell was this guy saying...earthquake resistant...how does that matter???

And then came what was one lesson we all had to learn...Mr.Joseph stopped us...
"Its a very good point...If you happen to be living in some place like Surat...this will play a very imp role..."
"Just because you are restricted to your surroundings...dont you ever curb anyone else's thoughts...You could be the biggest loser if you do so..."

The guy continued...
"People...I have done Civil Engineering...If you dont know...let me tell you...this is a very imp criteria...for any house you buy...esp business hubs...and also...that a building can only be earthquake RESISTANT...never can it be earthquake PROOF...If someone says its earthquake proof...they are just taking you for a ride..."

I looked at him and realised...
Yes...Its better to accept sometimes that the person in front of you might know something better...something useful...that you could never imagine...

Mr.Joseph concluded his session today by saying...

"Remember always...Youth is POWER...No matter what you do...wherever you are...you will always remember the time of your life between 20-30 yrs...
So utilize it well...Go ahead with your dreams...The time and opportunity might never come back...!!"


Now thats something to think about....
WHERE DOES YOUR NAME GO FROM HERE...WHO WILL REMEMBER YOU TEN YEARS FROM NOW??
:-)

The Stranger...

Have you ever noticed...that there are some people in life...some relations...that can never be defined...

I have known people...they are not just acquaintances...coz they knw quite a bit about you...
they are not "friends" coz they don know enough abt you...
But still...they play such an important role in your life!!

You are walking on the road...you are sitting at a coffee place...you are at work...there are so many people who go unnoticed...
and then there are some...who just come into your life...almost suddenly...

Who are these people...and why are they there???
They could be easily replaced by someone else...or may be not...I dunno...too complicated...

Found this poem the other day...Read it fully and try to get what it means...its too good...

The restaurants on hot spring evenings Lie under a dense and savage air. Foul drafts and hoots from dunken revelers Contaminate the thoroughfare. Above the dusty lanes of suburbia Above the tedium of bungalows A pretzel sign begilds a bakery And children screech fortissimo. And every evening beyond the barriers Gentlemen of practiced wit and charm Go strolling beside the drainage ditches -- A tilted derby and a lady at the arm. The squeak of oarlocks comes over the lake water A woman's shriek assaults the ear While above, in the sky, inured to everything, The moon looks on with a mindless leer. And every evening my one companion Sits here, reflected in my glass. Like me, he has drunk of bitter mysteries. Like me, he is broken, dulled, downcast. The sleepy lackeys stand beside tables Waiting for the night to pass And tipplers with the eyes of rabbits Cry out: "In vino veritas!" And every evening (or am I imagining?) Exactly at the appointed time A girl's slim figure, silk raimented, Glides past the window's mist and grime. And slowly passing throught the revelers, Unaccompanied, always alone, Exuding mists and secret fragrances, She sits at the table that is her own. Something ancient, something legendary Surrounds her presence in the room, Her narrow hand, her silk, her bracelets, Her hat, the rings, the ostrich plume. Entranced by her presence, near and enigmatic, I gaze through the dark of her lowered veil And I behold an enchanted shoreline And enchanted distances, far and pale. I am made a guardian of the higher mysteries, Someone's sun is entrusted to my control. Tart wine has pierced the last convolution of my labyrinthine soul. And now the drooping plumes of ostriches Asway in my brain droop slowly lower And two eyes, limpid, blue, and fathomless Are blooming on a distant shore. Inside my soul a treasure is buried. The key is mine and only mine. How right you are, you drunken monster! I know: the truth is in the wine. By

Aleksandr Aleksandrovich Blok

Feeling at home...

Was talking to Varun today over the phone...
He was telling me how he was supposedly bored and frustrated of his training at Infosys,Mysore and how he just wanted to come back to Mumbai...the sooner the better...

He was telling me how worst it is to stay away from home...how he misses Mumbai and its flavour...

I just listened...tried to console and show him the positive sides of being at Infosys
(i HATE Infosys tho..all stupid branding goin on...i dunno...mayb coz i din make it to one of the "best" IT firms in India today..)

But i couldnt help wondering...Here I am...trying to get out of this place...this ROUTINE...I would love the change...a new place...a new lifestyle...
Im kinda fedup of this mess....

Ahh...different perceptions...different views....different people...

Some things change every once in a while... Some things never change... Those which never change though...become ROUTINE...

Music & Lyrics....edited.

She commented on my previous post...and i somehow cudnt keep it just as a comment...

Hence it comes in the front page...read on...

Misha said...

LOVE!!!!!!!!! a VIRTUAL WORLD........a world i lived in once.....believed in once, BREATHED it, SLEPT it, WOKE up wid it, ATE wid it, DRANK wid it, my left wz wid it my right wz wid it, top wid it, bottom wid it, it was wat defined me as a person the most important purpose of my existence, the reason God gave life to me......until the day he told me that hez gonna hafta take all that away....my breaths, my sleep, my food , n drinks, and all that i ever knew existed in that world!!!! it was not until that day that i realised that wat i was living for the past five n a half years, wat actually a bubble, which he just pricked wid a needle in one go and "POP" it bursted, and my entire world fell apart and i HIT rock botom!!!!! wn i rmmbr those days, it still sends a shiver down my spine even to this day, although its been almost a year now. i wake up in the middle of the nigh screaming in fear, coz my mind still thinks he is there, and while sleeping i still live in that virtual world of LOVE, i make myself dream about those intense times of being madly in love, but somehow even while sleeping, the reality strikes and my dreamz take a disasterous angle and have me scream and wake up in a pool of tears!!!!! takes me almost an entire day to believe that "it was just a dream and is over....now now, thats okay.....i'm fine....." :)

wat is TRUE LOVE???? there was a time it used to be my religion, i worshiped this word but now i feel i'm an atheist and u'll hear me say things like LOVE IS JUST A HORMONAL IMBALANCE, ITS JUST AN OVERDOZE F THE SAME PERSON, ITS JUST A STATE OF MIND!!!!!!!
what does SOULMATE mean if not that wat i thot it did????? if it doesnt mean that, then i'm certain that its JUST A MYTH!!!!!!!!!!! :)

n yes prasad.....COMPLEXITIES of the so called NORMAL LIFE, are way too COMPLEX to comprehend!! :)

herez a piece f my poetery that i rote jus yesterday!!!! :)

"GET OVER IT......MOVE ON!!!!"
It was all I ever breathed, ate, drank, slept, woke up, each night and each day.......
Until the day he came to me and took them all away..........
Paralysed I felt inside out that day when he was gone.......
All everyone ever told me was....
"Get over it....Move On!!!!!"
They all were hurt cz they loved me too but did they kno wat that means......
Taking a fish outa the water and askin her, to grow lungs it seemed!!
Did not kill me, chopped my limbs off and just left me there..!
I would not even care to see the hunderds of ppl who would still care!!!!!
If the wound wz skin deep, it sure would heal and i would reach my goal........
But the dagger dug into my flesh went ryte upto my soul!!!!!!!!!!
Its been a while it should be over.....technically YES I should say..................
but it still stays lik "a crushed flower that never blooms but leaves the perfume on the hand it was crushed on".....all through the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel at times i'm almost there......so close to the dawn.....
but then something happens, it all goes away and all everyone still says is "Get over it....Move On!!!!!"

-------By MISHA!!!!!! :)

P.S: Prasad sweetumps....u cn use ne f my pics whenever u feel lik!!! :) Nethin for u dear frn f mine!!!! love U!!!!! :)

...Music & Lyrics...

I am having some pleasant images in my dreams these days...
Things that i somehow wanted to happen in the past...The funny thing is...they appear to go on so smoothly in my dreams...as if everythin was alright...and some how...meant to be! It just appears perfect...!!

I cant argue the fact that i miss her...but i also know that somehow...somewhere i have accepted the truth and i am ok with moving on...
Just don get it tho...the answer to the question,"Why is it this way and not the other?"

I was discussing with my friend how we like to rush to outcomes rather than waiting...The insecurity of a loss bothers us so much that we loose confidence over everything we do...
We just want to know what lies on the other end...And we have developed this attitude only because of reasons known to us...and however hard we try...we have become so insecure that this might last a lifetime!
It has somehow become a part of me...

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end ...

(The credit for the above beautiful pic goes to my friend Misha...May her newly found passion for photography remain alive always...so that i keep gettin such sweet images for free!!
LOLzzz)

...9 to 5...

With a pile of 300 résumés on his desk and a need to pick someone quickly, my boss told me to make calls to the bottom 50 and toss the rest.
"Throw away 250 résumés?" I asked, shocked.
"What if the best candidates are in there?"
"You have a point," he said. "But then again, I don't need people with
bad luck here."

-- Becky Horowitz

I have always contemplated over the fact that if i have come to this world to do something...to live something...
will it be as simple as doing a 9 to 5 job??
(And those who are presently working...even if you are getting a 50k per month package...just think over this!)

Thats just plain "hard to digest" material for me...and its worries me sometimes...
They say...Its only until you realize what you want from life will u be happy and satisfied...

The word "happy" reminded me of these lines....

You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something
themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want
something? Go get it. Period."

I have this friend and senior at office...He is in 2 minds about leaving his present job for a higher pay package...and he has no probs with his present job except the moolah...
I think this situation comes in everyones life...its like leaving ones second family...for...money!!
The decision is obvious though...we work for money rite...

But somehow i dont like the concept of "working for money"...
Make the money work for you...

I think...each one of us has this ability...to make money work for us...
But what most of us lack though...from the quotes above...is either the right amount of WILL...or just plain old right amount of LUCK!

The point is...
Its not if you get there...its whether you tried...
else of course...you still hav your 9 to 5 job!
;-)