...about priorities...

I cant help but think how things have changed after i have completed my engineering.
I have no idea where life is taking...and thinking abt it and trying to sort things out only baffles me more.
I spoke to her today...and i instantly felt the "change".
Its not the same.
The distance could kill evrything and i have no control over it i guess...maybe cause thats how it is supposed to be.
But yes...its not the same.She maybe just a phone call away...but priorities have changed...maybe for both of us.
And honestly...i have no courage to discuss things...and thats because i myself am not sure about what i want!

I look at the people around me at my work place.And i have come to learn a lot of things about "living" life from them.I still cant digest the fact about how someone can run his family with Rs 6000 per month...and still be content abt it and enjoy his life...
I try to find out then....why am i not satisfied with my pay package...the best the industry gives for a fresher....abt 4 times more than most experienced contracters i am handling...and why cant i do something abt such nice ppl...help them mayb...
I have heard life is unfair...but what decides the level of unfairness???

Yes...i am learning a lot about life these days...just that...there isnt any inference to things...atleast not till now....

Life should be a song...


I cant believe what music does to you...
God should fit an ipod in evryones brain!
LOL

I havent been bloggin much these days i knw...
But i don hav much spare time these days...and nothin exceptionally "different" is happenin either...Also i am really really sorry for not visiting many of my favorite blogs for the past few weeks...

I get to meet all kinds of people on the job...and thats one thing i like about my job very very much!
Right frm the selfish money makers to the humble hard workers...

Life is unfair i agree...we just need to accept it...But sometimes i feel...Our payment system shud be exactly upside down...
The labourer's shud b payed maximum...Its a foolish thought i knw...
But accept it...the bigger post we get...the only thing that "increases" apart from our pay package is...our EGO!!

Think abt it...and respect ur juniors and servants next time they do something for you...
Coz its very easy to command...but its difficult to actually 'lead'....and commanding someone is not leadership...its lettin down the respect of your so called 'position' !

Got a nice 4 days off frm work coz of Diwali...
But somehow i like being at work than sittin at home...
My idle mind keeps pestering me all the time when i am at home...

All the insecurities keep comin back ...and they just arent ready to go!!!
Ironically...the biggest concern is abt my job...But atleast my work keeps me away frm thinkin abt it!!!

And nothin big happenin in these holidays either...
Damn...i think i hav bcome too much of a pessimist...or its just that God wants to live with COMPROMISE!!
Forget it...i cant wait to go back to work...

Anyways...Happy Diwali to everyone...
May God bless u all!!

My life has changed drastically this week...

i dunno wher evrything is goin...
be it...Love or Career...

But i hardly have any complaints right now...
All I knw rite now is...
Its WORK WORK and even more WORK....

And yeah...I will be workin over here....

:-)

Sunrise and Sunset...

I saw these two movies the other day,Before Sunrise (1995) and its sequel, Before Sunset(2004) ...
Both movies are critically acclaimed and were on my "to-be-seen" list for long...

And yes...Both movies are a MUST WATCH!
The story is simple...

Two strangers meet...and they talk...talk and talk!!!

...LOL...

What I liked abt the two movies is that while the first part deals with destined love...abt how two ppl met because it was just written somewhere for them to come accross each other and how they just click!
The sequel however...very convincingly contradicts the same....

I agree there is just too much "talk" in the movies and it might get a bit boring sometimes....actually...thats all that ther is to the the movies...endless conversation...

But the conversation between the two has a lot of depth...

Here are some of the quotes from both the movies which i just loved...
Do watch both movies if ya can get your hands on them...
:-)

"I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt. "
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"Sometimes I dream about being a good father and a good husband. And sometimes it feels really close. But then other times it seems silly like it would ruin my whole life. And it's not just a fear of commitment or that I'm incapable of caring or loving because... I can. It's just that, if I'm totally honest with myself I think I'd rather die knowing that I was really good at something. That I had excelled in some way than that I'd just been in a nice, caring relationship."
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"I know happy couples... but I think they lie to each other! "

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"I don't know, I think that if I could just accept the fact that my life is supposed to be difficult. You know, that's what to be expected, then I might not get so pissed-off about it and I'll just be glad when something nice happens."
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"You know what's the worst thing about somebody breaking up with you? Is when you remember how little you thought about the people you broke up with and you realize that is how little they're thinking of you. You know, you'd like to think you're both in all this pain but they're just like 'Hey, I'm glad you're gone'."

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"Memory's are a wonderful thing if you don't have to deal with the past."

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Jesse: You want to know why I wrote that stupid book?
Celine: Why?
Jesse: So that you might come to a reading in Paris and I could walk up to you and ask, "Where the fuck were you?"
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Celine: You can never replace anyone because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

I think i have learnt to control my feelings and behave...
At first...may be i used to expect a lot from people...and wanted things to happen...the way i wanted them to be...
Somehow i think this used to affect me a lot...emotionally...

And now i finally realised...You cannot ask ppl to behave the way you want them to...They will do it if they really are interested...And if they are not..then well...THEY ARE JUST BEING NICE...And then came the big thought...
Do i actually need someone to just be "nice" with me...??? huh...I don need ppl who just do things coz they wanna show how good they are...Or rather they do things just because i want and expect them to in a certain way...

Its just disappointing...very very disappointing...
But then...i think i have grown out of it now...

I think its high time for people who really want to do things for me be given a chance...
At least they are honest about what they are doing...

My freind told me once..."If something you do doesnt reciprocate...Its a waste of time..."
I dont think the problem with me is about people not reciprocating...They can be and are very good friends...But maybe i just dont need friendship anymore...

Rather somehow....I cant see myself on the same "level" as your other 'friends'...
It has to be something special...the sole reason bcoz it is frm my side...

Maybe i am expecting too much...but i just cant take it anymore...
So now...I am behaving 'NORMAL'...

...Pink Skirts...

There is something abt skirts...Oh yeah....
Me and my friends were hanging out at Mocha today...
And there was this gal in skirts sitting on the next table...

Ohh man...there is just that spark when a gal is in skirts.
Damn...wat is it abt skirts...They make a gal look so pleasantly cute...!!!
(Sexy...yeah...but i like the "cuteness" factor more...)

A word of advice for all gals out ther...If ya wanna impress a guy...Thers not a simpler thing to do...LOL...

...Its official...No guy can resist them...

[Of course...Wear one only if it suits you...and most importantly...if u carry urself well in them..else you will just make a fool of urself...!!
:-p]

Eternal Sunshine...

I just love these lines... They just touch the heart in some way...

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.

A lot of planning..going nowhere...

"I would give almost anything
if I could rewrite the present and future...
Cause in my heart I know that you

should be here with me"

I have come to a realisation in the past few days...
Somehow i dont think "PLANNING" is a good word...It must be removed from the dictionary as soon as possible..
...Its not making any good use of its meanin in my dictionary at least...

I am now begining to accept it...Evrything goes as it is meant to be...And i seriously have no problems with that...
but it would have been easier don you think if you had the map of life i your hands...
;-)

Well... I have decided now...No more..."i want this to happen...i want that to happen..."
Its now changed to..."ohh...so this is happenin....good..."

And that goes to everything i do in life now...Not that i have given up thinkin...But i am beginin to take things a bit more lightly...
It helps sometimes to remain cool i think...

I have been hearing a lot of Career and LoveLife outcomes of people around...
And believe it or not...Not one of them PLANNED where they are today...
careerwise as well as relationshipwise...

Strange still...We are required to PLAN things so often....