Wednesday, November 02, 2016

Fall down and get up again.

You will fall down a hundered times but you will gather the courage somehow and from somewhere to get up again. You will not give up. You will fight. Because it's not the end yet and you have a long way to go.

I have been missing out some opportunities back to back in the last year but I know there is something greater waiting. And I will sit down at times and fret over why things are not working out for me, I will not continue trying. Because that is who we are, that is what makes us.

If I have been true to my talents and to my work, life will work out. Eventually. I will wait for that date.

Yes I will.

Sunday, September 04, 2016

Walk ahead.

No matter what can't stop time. You have to move. As I look back at the last few months, I realise that maybe some things in life you need to just accept as is and then look ahead. The reality of life is that some questions don't have answers. Some things that happened to you were meant to in that exact sequence and maybe ended to make way for larger, more happier and fruitful things in life.
I miss my mom. There is nothing that can fill in the void that her loss has put in my heart and I have to live with some unanswered questions - why she was taken away so early and seemingly before she could have lived a fuller life,why her, why not someone else, is  cancer really that random?

I may seem like I am not trying to find the answers to unanswered questions going ahead in life but know this...this has changed me a bit. Change, hopefully is good, as they say.
It better be.

Wednesday, June 01, 2016


While I gather the motivation and time to come back to writing, while I try telling myself all is not lost...that you are busy because you are working what you like and what you do best, you can crack yourself up on this :

Thursday, February 18, 2016


As I watch her desperately grasping for each breath my heart reduces my belief in God. Each unjustified struggle that she makes to survive makes me angry, angry that God really can be so cruel. A woman who struggled all her life for her family and for her children, not bothered about her own self is now lying there, still struggling. All she asked was some peace. Everything else was for others. I can't watch you like this Mom. I really can't. And I am sorry that I stand before you completely helpless. All I have is tears and increasing anger. 

Sunday, January 17, 2016

The tough days

Life is complicated,agreed. People tell you about ups and downs but only life teaches you how to deal with it. No one can prepare you, no one can hits you and you yourself need to deal with it.

I am sure everyone of us goes through these cycles...things we said, things we did not say, things happening around us we wished would never happen, things that have happened and we wished the outcome would have been different. 

This present phase of life is stuck between happiness and sadness, lingering and being pulled from both sides. It's a weird phase to be in. 

Wish Mom gets better.