Saturday, November 26, 2011

What interests me....

The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living
I want to know what you ache for
And if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
For love
For your dream
For the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon…
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
If you have been opened by life’s betrayals
Or have become shriveled and closed
From fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
Mine and your own
Without moving to hide it
Or fade it
Or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
Mine or your own
If you can dance with wildness
And let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
Without cautioning us to
Be careful
Be realistic
Remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true
I want to know if you can disappoint another 
To be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
And not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
And therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
Even when it is not pretty
And if you can source your own life
From its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
Yours and mine
And still stand at the edge of the lake
And shout to the silver of the full moon,

It doesn’t interest me
To know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know of you can get up
After the night of grief and despair
Weary and bruised to the bone
And do what needs to be done
To feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
In the centre of the fire
With me
And not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
From the inside
When all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
With yourself
And if you truly like the company you keep
In the empty moments.

Oriah Mountain Dreamer, from the book “the Invitation”, published by HarperSanFrancisco, 1999.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

your thoughts...and the cupboard!

The good thing about having an off from work is that it definitely gives you a break from the routine.
So I am sitting at home...reading stuff....listening to music...and making plans for weekend getaways...
In between...just lying on the bed...thinking...

Have you ever noticed...when you are sitting you can actually "hear" your thoughts...each and every clear...not messed up...
You may be thinking about anything random...might even not make any sense...but it is still clear...
I somehow find peace in such thoughts...time is slow...and your thoughts know no boundaries or limits...

The free time also gave me a chance to clear up and arrange my cupboard...It was one of the "make your mom happy" things that I did (also because she was after me to clear up the mess for long now!)
(We Boys seriously have a 'thing' with MESS...dont we?)
I mean...I know my clothes are messy...but i do find whatever I want whenever I want it...dont I?
Anyway...after much hesitation and avoidance...I finally got going to arranging my stuff...and thats when I realised something...

As I started arranging my stuff...putting them into proper compartments...rows separating T shirts and formals...jeans and trousers...discarding things i did not need...I somehow felt better...
As if I had made things simple for me...
All of it was always there...and yess....I could find and wear anything I wanted always...even in time..
but this arrangement of things seemed better...simple...and easy...

Isnt it the same for all our thoughts?

You have sooo many of them all the time...messed up....lying there...crumbled...
You know you can tackle them...when you want and how you want...
But trying sitting down once....arranging them...hearing yourself...removing and discarding ones you dont need...and you see how you feel...
at peace...the world doesnt and only you and your thoughts do...

“We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. 

With our thoughts, we make the world.”

Thursday, November 03, 2011


So finally I got my Tattoo done...!
For all those who wanna does hurt a bit...but its really quite bearable...
I would describe it more like "very very high fever" at one single point on your body..

Loving it now that it has healed...feels great to have it just like i always wanted it..

 "I don't dream at night, I dream all day; I dream for a living."
On other things...some other time...soon....