Monday, August 31, 2009

So...I met an old man today...

"I met an old man today...he came over to me and started inquiring about buses for his grandson who was to come from delhi for a few days and was to frequent a place for work..."

I dunno why...but i do wanna complete this story...yet dont feel like putting it down...I guess the incompleteness of this story will remain a memory for long...

So...I met an old man today...

I wonder how people think the way they do...I dont like people who take advantage of others for getting their work done...
i guess though...the problem with me is that i think too much from the heart...and i work like that...think like that...and feel like that when it comes to 'people'...

I do things from the heart...but somewhere i dont regret it...because i come clean for myself by the end of the day...and that really is a good feeling to have...
I can proudly say that I have not duped anyone...hurt anyone knowingly...or taken advantage of anyone till date for my self gain...

When i say i LOVE you...i do...with all my heart...
....and when i say i dont like someone...I DONT...with all my heart...
i really cant fake it for long...


So...I met an old man today...

Monday, August 24, 2009

twisted

I have been caught up with something for the past 2 weeks...and it had nothing to do with work being "hectic" or anything...it was more of what i want work to be like and where i want it to head...

I have put a lot into it...its like..if things dont come to you....give it your best shot and you go to it instead...
If it works out good...i think i deserve it...if it doesnt...i guess...it was just not meant to be...and then i can let it go saying that maybe i am not that talented to work in that specific field...
Now,Because i have put so much thought to it...that i dont think it could be better than this...it is probably one of the most important things in my life...simply because it will prove to me if there really is something called as "getting what you deserve" in this twisted life...

Life is seriously twisted...(hmm...i like that word...)
Think 4 years back and compare your life with what it is now...just remember the people around you then....and those now...
Strange isnt it...how people around you change so often...not all...but most...
I firmly believe...that somehow...somewhere...you know in your heart always the people who are going to stay with you always and forever...

I mean think about it...going away from certain people is so easy...while with some...it just seems impossible...and it has nothing to do really with how much the other person cares about you...

Just realised from a 'shock' that i got a few days on hearing a friends wedding date...that life in the next 1-2 years is going to change so drastically...
I mean...just hold that thought...and think about the people getting engaged or married around you!!

Its scary...how everything will change...the priority will now be their 'better half '...and all your friends' lines are constantly busy coz they are on the phone all the time!
You cannot talk to your female friends the way you used to...coz now "they are with someone else" and you really dont want to get the guy jealous from your friendship with the girl...
and your guy friends now have just one topic to talk about...their girlfriends/engagement/marriage!

Change is welcome...but it scares the shit outa me to know...that i am still the same amongst all this change that is happening...or is it twisting somewhere....some place i am not looking maybe...i do not know...

Thursday, August 13, 2009

In between Books and a dinner with my Professor


Had taken my car to work today...love driving it here and there...its fun to have that confidence to drive...
Reached home early as I didnt have to wait for the slow bus for hrs...and hence decided to run through a mall nearby...

Went through CROSSWORDS to check out the latest books...
I love being in between books for some reason...going through the covers...handpicking some...
I am not a voracious reader as such...but i do like collecting books...

Its amazing to go through what other people have written..and how they have written it...its like taking a walk through someone else's life...

As i was passing through the "pages of thoughts" spread all over...I realised how much i miss reading...
Work seriously takes so much out of your life...and reading is just one of the things i miss...

I think i need to get back to a lot of things i really want to do...

Met a professor for dinner a few days back...
Having dinner with him wasnt really the "viva" we had thought it would be...I think i have never enjoyed a dinner outing more with an elder...(and also my professor at that...!)

Sometimes you are in so much awe of certain people that you feel the need to be perfect in front of them...and not screw up one bit...
But it was nothing like i had expected...was probably one of the best time I have had recently...

He talked about life back then...the way children are growing up in recent times...and pretty much everything that has been keeping life "going" till now...

"You guys cannot dare say that you have frustration/regrets...you seriously dont know what exactly is frustration"
There is always soo much to learn from him...
His thoughts about love ( just a "four letter word" as he puts it) are clear...and he says commitment is the answer ...its the only path to real love...
...i cant agree more...

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

About a girl...

Its always about choosing sides isnt it?
You are either this side or the other...there is no road "in between"....and its always about how long you can take it...
Choose whether you want to be friends...choose whether you want to be enemies....choose whether you want love....choose whether you dont want love...choose whether you want this/that job...

In the end...your decision changes so many things around you...I mean..i never imagined myself to be where i am...and it makes you really think that it really is all predefined...

Was writing a few pages of a character for my book...about this girl...someone who is a definite inspiration from my real life...and while writing about her...i realised how every little detail...about her...is doing wonders to my character...

Cute...smart...assertive girl...who lives life by her own terms...is happy with what she has...knows not to follow the "rat race"...also where to draw the line...and do exactly whats she wants to do with her life....her OWN life...

The point here is...that...somehow...even when writing about her for a "story"...a novel...I can change the circumstances of her fictitious life...the situations...but i cant shake her character...!

Her character and personality always remain real...and i think that inspires her decisions...and i think i love her for exactly that!
Its great to be lucky to have someone like this in your life i must say...their awesomeness sure rubs on you...!

Well...anyway...back to the real life again tomorrow...for more stories yet to convert to fictitious pages of a novel...

Monday, August 03, 2009

Listening to it a lot lately...

A great song after a looooong time...a must hear!
I wont describe it...just listen to it once and decide for yourself...

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Time after time

I came home early today...checked my mails...and then just laid on my bed...blank...

Weekends are something i really look forward to...but there i was...almost numb...I guess i just needed some time for myself...
I sat like this for about an hour...not doing anything...just watching the blue sky through my window and enjoying the peace...

Its good to have time for yourself...and i recommend it for everyone...it would surprise what a few moments for yourself can do for you...
I am a kinda person who needs people around...but this one hour i spent with myself...was probably the best time i spent during the week...


"Be your own best friend and don't forget to wink at yourself now and then."
- Diane von Furstenburg

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