Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Incomplete: The Begining...

Havent blogged in days...and its not like i have been studying continuously or have been busy with something...but its just that when there are exams round the corner...you just seem to be blocked...
Theres always that "exam" thing hovering over and over...


Finally burst the bubble where i couldnt take it anymore...i mean commonnn...who studies 14 days before the exam for just one subject!
So then...this is enough....i need a bit of relaxed time...

Attended a college friends engagement the other day...its amazing to see two people who complete each other come together...especially when you somewhere care for them...
Its an awesome feeling...hard to describe...nice to experience though...

It also reminds me of one of the worst regrets i have in my life...
I can never change NOT attending my best friends wedding...and what ever i do...however "not favorable" the situation was...I can never change the fact i was not there...anyways...

The music is playing right now...and the problem is that with every song...I feel a rush to stop writing...which ill be doin right now...and continue this post later...

(If this seems incomplete to you...then wait for the next post...more "incompleteness" follows...)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

...more...

I think the best part of growing up is letting go...of all the things you ever wanted...for the want of newer things...and better ones...and that excitement of getting it finally ...
Of course....you dont always get what you want...but...the way i see it...

"I think for the most part....if you are honest about what you really want...
...life gives it to you eventually..."

And the logical explanation for this is that...how much ever you are sad about losing some...its always that...your later part of life...ends up in smiles...so basically....life always gives you something better!
The idea is to remember this every time...

The one other thing i have learnt over the years is that you are solely responsible for all the decisions you make...
And i think I owe my parents a lot for raising me the way they did...never in my life have i been refused to something...I would be warned of its necessity and use...and whether i really needed it...but if i did want anything...i would very well get it...
This freedom has somewhere taught me to weigh everything i want in life...and if it really would be worth it...

Well...that "want" reminds me of the eyes i have set on the Nokia 5800....


Have been drooling over the piece right from when it was launched and have been desperate to lay my hands on one of my own....
Finally on the verge of buying it....almost i think...

The problem with guys is that they would never be satisfied with their gadgets...and its always that need for "more"....

This need though has always been a part of my life...
I was wondering over a point that one of my friends very well pointed out the other day...
"Why cant we be content with what we have....?"

But i think that is exactly the reason we are not monotonous...or aimless in life....the need to get "more" is what drives us i guess...
I mean...I get one thing...i could utilize it....be happy with it....and be content...
But nope....we look beyond...of what more can be done...what is "less" in what we have....

That is the also the exact reason why I am what i am...and where I am....with all the things i have...and all the things i dont have....

But i do plan to do some things differently now...nevertheless unsatisfied...but the search for "more" will be on...ALWAYS...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Exams...WORTHLESS...and its over now....

The final exams for getting a "worthless" MMS degree (I mite be too harsh here....okk....its wasnt all that worthless..it did do a bit of value additon...but a larger devalued payscale post MBA degree took away all that value which was added..okk...still doesnt qualify to be called worthless!!) are on...and writing the papers is more of a formality...where you just cant sit through all the 3 hours of the time alloted!

I came out about 45 minutes early today...and was sitting by the steps...just...sitting...

Peace...and then a sudden rush....people all around...10 different talks going on simultanoeusly...you try to be in every conversation...and get a gist of none in the end...people calling you from all directions...and the last thing evryone is talkin about is the "difficulty" level of the paper...The highlights of the talks are who took how many supplements...and who came out first...who was sitting idle through the paper...

Was just glancing around at everyone sitting at the steps...
"People everywhere... Where will all this go in a few days... I mean meeting people after a long gap for the exams was a nice thing...to see evryone again...but how long does it last from now...hardly days to go..."

And then you see the rush disappear slowly...back to the haunting slience on the floor...
Two years of your life with explainable and unexplainable memories....seriously....WHERE DOES IT GO??

Funny ramblings,serious complaints,mindless chatters,irritating gestures,that "at peace" feeling....and then the slience...idle...doing nothing at all...

"There is one piece of advice, in a life of study, which I think no one will object to; and that is, every now and then to be completely idle - to do NOTHING at all."

You walk away from the college and you feel....It wasnt that "worthless" after all....

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Filler post...an unecessary yet important update...

I have been wanting to blog for last 2-3 days...you know...had one of those moments when you say to yourself.."Oh my God...that is totally going in my blog!"

But for some reason...have stopped myself from doing so...Somewhere....I think it was the gap where the news had to simply sink in...and saturate itself in my mind...before i could actually write it down and confirm it...


Soo yes...Im PLACED...finally!!!
Was a difficult ocean of choices to make...but then...in this time of what everyone refers to as "recession" i think i made a descent tradeoff...

Oh yaa...forgot to mention...Ill be working for this firm below...



So then...Finally blogged it...

And ever since the placement...had a lot of "This is sooo going in my blog!" moments...

A nice morning stressed playing badminton in the heat...something about us engineering friends never changes...
We were just discussing how of all the people we have known in our lives....only the friends from Engineering are still in touch...and best of friends...
"Our priorities have definitely changed in the past few years....but we have known how to handle them and adjust to keep our friendship the way it was..."

And then there was the movie...

(The only motivation to watch this one was because the Director title read Nagesh Kukunoor...)
It is such an irritating and pathetic movie that im actually going to blog about it!!!
I mean...the movie is soo bad...that its not worth even going and sleeping through in the theaters...
I was so frustrated that wanted to throw something on the screen in anger...and when all i found in my hand was my mobile which was not worth letting go for such a bad and sick movie...we bought a bunch of popcorn...finished it as fast as we could...and threw it right at the screen...
Too bad though it dint actually reach the screen...but fell in between a couple who i think were checking each others dental cavities...mouth to mouth...poor chaps...cant afford a dentist fee i think...
I dunno why i am writing all this...but then...just trying to show you a "picture" of how bad a movie actually was...Both Thumbs and middle finger down to Nagesh Kukunoor (You really made Hyderabad Blues dude????)

Anyways...So then...as i was saying...Life seems relaxed for now...and i have been back to my senses somehow...and even though this post was just a "Ohh i got placed!" reminder...more of the "sensible" blogs will follow...
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