Thursday, December 24, 2009

emotions,weddings,affairs

The frequency of my posts on the blog have become scarce...and I realised today that I am simply running away from a certain things and responsibilities these days to fulfill and adhere to things that dont really matter in my life...

The new year is coming close...and dunno why...but I have a staunch feeling that it is going to be a very good year...and a positive one at that...

I dont feel very "christmasy" this year...and that is surprising...because this is generally my favorite time of year (After June of course...rains and birthdays...! )
I guess people these days dont really value holidays anymore...the days go by worrying about one thing or the other...and the festival goes by as just another "break day"

I sometimes wonder what is happening to us...as "humans"...I mean we have strong emotions...they are getting more and more "limited" and constricted day by day...

Hopefully the New year will bring n good emotions and endless opportunities for growth.

I came to know a lot of good things this week..something which I want to make a note of...
A girl and a boy I know found out that they like each other...and I think that is the best thing to happen to anyone...to simply KNOW that you like someone...

I know a lot of people, including myself, who cant decide the degree to which one can like/love someone...and what exactly "defines" a relationship.

On a loosely related note.. "500 Days of Summer" is a must watch movie this season...especially if you are a guy...

I feel bad that i dont meet a lot of friends as occasionally as before,especially the ones whom i really wanna meet...sit down and simply chat on endless and argue on meaningless discussions...but everyone has 24 hours in a day...and I cant be everywhere all the time...
I have let gone of a lot of things...but some people I just cant let go of...and i I see to it that I am in touch with them and know what they are upto...

I want more of something...I want less of other things...but thats the way life is...you cant balance everything...

Watching people in love getting married is fun...its like...people have completed a mission or so...and are now entering a new one.
To all the people who got married this month (and believe me...they were in lots!!!) I wish them the best...

A because-of-work-stressed-out girl told me yesterday,"Prasad, why dont you have an affair...its much easier thing to do these days...and its not that complicated as it seems to be"
I looked at her,smiled, and said, "Thats the problem...it is easy to have an affair...i agree...but it is very very difficult to have an affair with the right person!"

Lets simplify things than complicate what seems a simple thing to do.

Off to Goa today...much needed break...lets blog when I get back...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

hectic and meeting good hearts

I finally sit on my bed lazing around wondering why I am leading such a stressful life...
The past one month has been so fast and torturous that the only thing that kept me going, doing the job that i do, (and this might sound funny..but it isnt) is recession and that there are no other jobs in the market.

I was passing through the pages of a magazine the other day and i read a quote of some businessman i really do not know or remember the name of and he said "Every job teaches you something..You only realize it later..."
I agree...Every experience is a blessing...and ill remember that...

I met some very good people in the last one month...amidst all the confusion and mess...I think i still made very good friends.

I have a lot of people telling me that I have a very good heart...and I never really understood what exactly they meant by that...only until I met someone with one...
Its almost unbelievable that in these times of selfishness and politics...there can be someone who is this damnn sweet!

Some memories just keep coming up all your life dont they...small trivial things..you sometimes wonder how such tiny moments make up for so much of your thought process...

Amazing isnt it...
Small ones are what are more important...than large random experiences...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

travel,love and a stuck rickshaw

I have too much to say...but cant really fix up my mind on what exactly to write...
Hence Ill just stick to putting down some random statements...for the memory of this month...

' I think it all always start with a smile...notice the children playing in and around you...and notice the smile they give you when they see you...Innocence at its best i say... '

' Had been away for a few days for work...Mumbai to Delhi to Calcutta and back...Loved Delhi...Hated Calcutta...so all in all...a balanced trip...
Traveling to places alone can be fun...the self contemplation helps you in a way... '

Noticed this hand-drawn rickshaw in Delhi...reminded me of someone...or rather...something that is related to it...and i smiled...(and yes...was singing "Aaj Din Chadeyaa" all the way!)



' Was just thinking during the tour about how some people and their thoughts grip you constantly...and if attachments are anything to be believed...you can never part yourself from remembering atleast once during the day... '

' How do you really decide...??? I mean...I like her....yes..you can even call it love...but then...i 'love' a lot of my other friends too..how do i know...if i love her that much that i wanna marry her?? okk...so she might get someone soon...fixed/arranged or something else...but her deadline for a relationship isnt quite the urgency for me to decide if I wanna get into a relationship...and most importantly...If ever someone really wants to be tied down to me...why would she wanna be with me...she could get ANYONE she wants under the moon (under the sun even!)
If it had to work out...it would have right...naturally...
How does one draw the line...about...what YOU really want? '

' NO...The answer is not "You just know it!" '

'Why cant they just put signboards saying "This is the one for you" Would avoid a lot of confusion...especially when there is a thin line between friendship and love...'

'I like work...and i hate it toooo...'

Monday, October 19, 2009

Street Lights to the "Girl i wanna marry"

Have had a wonderful week...festive mood really gets you..doesnt it?

I love to stroll the streets alone...especially during the night...




I see the yellow street lamps lighting up the roads and reflecting the beams all around...I open the bus windows...to feel the wind...and my mind wanders...
Aimless thoughts...dreams...people...hopes...and the smile on the face...

Was just wondering the other day...how..it just doesnt matter when things change around you..your school...the place you live..your job...it doesnt really make a difference...
What DOES matter is when PEOPLE around you change..relationships around you change...

When I see my close "about to get married" friends (girls)...I wonder what and how to react...how should our relationship change...mine and her....it goes from being naughty,bindass , shameless and changes to pure formal talks...distant and aloof chats...and a mere mix of "Hiyas and Hellos"

I cant in the first place decide...How do you know if you wanna marry someone...spend the rest of your life with...(and don gimme that "you just knw!" thingy)

I mean...You LOVE your friends...you like the concept of love...you dream of a relationship...friendship and all that...but how do you finally decide...whether YOU really wanna go ahead and marry this person...Who would really be STUPID enough to bear me for the rest of her life...
And when you yourself are not sure...how do you make a commitment...?

Its not a 'trial and error' thing for me...I need to be very sure about it...and generally...when I am sure about it...I dont think the girl is even remotely interested!

Anyway...watching friends getting married is fun...its like striking off your "prospects" list (every guy does this...but not ONE will admit it!)

Oh well...CHEERS to the girl i wanna marry...and until she finds someone...i guess its better to just sit and watch...

"Mein reh bhii naa paaun,mein kehe bhii naa paunn....
bole bina hii kaise tujho sunaaii de...!!"



Tuesday, October 06, 2009

a cup'a tea


Its good to know that sometimes...even small things can make you happy...
Had a stressful day at work...came home late...and had a cup of hot tea...Cant tell you how relaxing it is...good music and tea...best combo ever!

I was asked by a friend about whats is up with me these days...and i replied,
"Cried yesterday...laughed today...in short...same old same old..."


I get a feeling that how much ever things are bad...there is something good in it for you...maybe a lesson...an experience...an opportunity...

I will look back at these frustrating days and tell myself...
"It was all worth it...like that cup of hot tea.."

(More on love,marriage and jobs in posts to come...have to update life on a lot of things...)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

...day dreams...

I havent wanted the trouble in a loong time...
but with you...the 'trouble' doesnt seem so "TROUBLING"

video

Monday, September 21, 2009

...craziness...

Most people dream...I virtually LIVE in my dreams...
A lot of people tell me i am "filmy" at times...over expecting and under estimating consequences of situations and things that I do or are to be done.
(this discussion mainly started from the latest trailor of a bollywood movie...where people are flying...things are falling down...and everything is "over the top"!)

I ,however, simply feel that Life is...after all...one hell of a fantasy...!
everyday, you dont know what is going to happen...and where is it going to go...

Its a story which is unfolding every second of your life...then , why not add some "music" and "special effects" to it in the process...

I ask people this one question always...
"When you look back at your life...how many situations can you say...you have done/experienced based on which you can write a book or make an interesting film on your life...?"

If your answer....is that you hardly have any such situation...then....just give a thought to how boring your life was...and is!

I always think that one should do something funny sometimes...something "out of the way"....something that "happens only in movies"...
Just try...and see..how closely knit the movies are with real life situations...

You just make a story...Life will take care of the movie to be made...

Attended training at IDBI Belapur last whole week...away from work...
Met some amazing people in the process..."like minded fools" is what i call them...most of them...working at the right place in the wrong profiles...and still trying to figure out how to keep going...
I realised that the people i met at my workplace...some of them with whom i instantly connected...some with whom i keep meeting again and again...are all a part of the larger movie of my life...and somewhere....something is shaping up...

You meet some of the best people at the worst situations in your life..
I have tried not to be attached to anyone lately...and remain as aloof as possible...Sometimes though...some things are just meant to happen i guess...
From a girl who broke her leg...to the guy i dropped down at Nashik...its all there...right in front of you...and still you dont know where to place it...

Havent spoken to a lot of friends in the last week...no contact at all with some...Time passes by...and sometimes you feel the other person should try too...
I wanna see...how many years and till what time of my life each relationship and friendship I have finally remains...

Not all of them last afterall...do they...

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

It will be my day...someday...

So I finally tried what i had to...and did what i needed to for getting myself a satisfied work profile...and that hasnt turned out in my favour still...
But atleast i tried...

I dont think anyone is actually happy with the job they do...there is always something missing...something lacking...
I am not frustrated (still!)with what I do...its just the feeling that you can do some more productive and contributory work somewhere else... and you know what you are good at...and you just feel life shouldnt be soo unfair not to give you that opportunity at least once...

So you try...the best to get what you deserve...so you fall....but the effort is on...and so...it will all fall in place some day...
I am so sure about it...that i write it down...

We will see...'some'day....'my' day....

Monday, August 31, 2009

So...I met an old man today...

"I met an old man today...he came over to me and started inquiring about buses for his grandson who was to come from delhi for a few days and was to frequent a place for work..."

I dunno why...but i do wanna complete this story...yet dont feel like putting it down...I guess the incompleteness of this story will remain a memory for long...

So...I met an old man today...

I wonder how people think the way they do...I dont like people who take advantage of others for getting their work done...
i guess though...the problem with me is that i think too much from the heart...and i work like that...think like that...and feel like that when it comes to 'people'...

I do things from the heart...but somewhere i dont regret it...because i come clean for myself by the end of the day...and that really is a good feeling to have...
I can proudly say that I have not duped anyone...hurt anyone knowingly...or taken advantage of anyone till date for my self gain...

When i say i LOVE you...i do...with all my heart...
....and when i say i dont like someone...I DONT...with all my heart...
i really cant fake it for long...


So...I met an old man today...

Monday, August 24, 2009

twisted

I have been caught up with something for the past 2 weeks...and it had nothing to do with work being "hectic" or anything...it was more of what i want work to be like and where i want it to head...

I have put a lot into it...its like..if things dont come to you....give it your best shot and you go to it instead...
If it works out good...i think i deserve it...if it doesnt...i guess...it was just not meant to be...and then i can let it go saying that maybe i am not that talented to work in that specific field...
Now,Because i have put so much thought to it...that i dont think it could be better than this...it is probably one of the most important things in my life...simply because it will prove to me if there really is something called as "getting what you deserve" in this twisted life...

Life is seriously twisted...(hmm...i like that word...)
Think 4 years back and compare your life with what it is now...just remember the people around you then....and those now...
Strange isnt it...how people around you change so often...not all...but most...
I firmly believe...that somehow...somewhere...you know in your heart always the people who are going to stay with you always and forever...

I mean think about it...going away from certain people is so easy...while with some...it just seems impossible...and it has nothing to do really with how much the other person cares about you...

Just realised from a 'shock' that i got a few days on hearing a friends wedding date...that life in the next 1-2 years is going to change so drastically...
I mean...just hold that thought...and think about the people getting engaged or married around you!!

Its scary...how everything will change...the priority will now be their 'better half '...and all your friends' lines are constantly busy coz they are on the phone all the time!
You cannot talk to your female friends the way you used to...coz now "they are with someone else" and you really dont want to get the guy jealous from your friendship with the girl...
and your guy friends now have just one topic to talk about...their girlfriends/engagement/marriage!

Change is welcome...but it scares the shit outa me to know...that i am still the same amongst all this change that is happening...or is it twisting somewhere....some place i am not looking maybe...i do not know...

Thursday, August 13, 2009

In between Books and a dinner with my Professor


Had taken my car to work today...love driving it here and there...its fun to have that confidence to drive...
Reached home early as I didnt have to wait for the slow bus for hrs...and hence decided to run through a mall nearby...

Went through CROSSWORDS to check out the latest books...
I love being in between books for some reason...going through the covers...handpicking some...
I am not a voracious reader as such...but i do like collecting books...

Its amazing to go through what other people have written..and how they have written it...its like taking a walk through someone else's life...

As i was passing through the "pages of thoughts" spread all over...I realised how much i miss reading...
Work seriously takes so much out of your life...and reading is just one of the things i miss...

I think i need to get back to a lot of things i really want to do...

Met a professor for dinner a few days back...
Having dinner with him wasnt really the "viva" we had thought it would be...I think i have never enjoyed a dinner outing more with an elder...(and also my professor at that...!)

Sometimes you are in so much awe of certain people that you feel the need to be perfect in front of them...and not screw up one bit...
But it was nothing like i had expected...was probably one of the best time I have had recently...

He talked about life back then...the way children are growing up in recent times...and pretty much everything that has been keeping life "going" till now...

"You guys cannot dare say that you have frustration/regrets...you seriously dont know what exactly is frustration"
There is always soo much to learn from him...
His thoughts about love ( just a "four letter word" as he puts it) are clear...and he says commitment is the answer ...its the only path to real love...
...i cant agree more...

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

About a girl...

Its always about choosing sides isnt it?
You are either this side or the other...there is no road "in between"....and its always about how long you can take it...
Choose whether you want to be friends...choose whether you want to be enemies....choose whether you want love....choose whether you dont want love...choose whether you want this/that job...

In the end...your decision changes so many things around you...I mean..i never imagined myself to be where i am...and it makes you really think that it really is all predefined...

Was writing a few pages of a character for my book...about this girl...someone who is a definite inspiration from my real life...and while writing about her...i realised how every little detail...about her...is doing wonders to my character...

Cute...smart...assertive girl...who lives life by her own terms...is happy with what she has...knows not to follow the "rat race"...also where to draw the line...and do exactly whats she wants to do with her life....her OWN life...

The point here is...that...somehow...even when writing about her for a "story"...a novel...I can change the circumstances of her fictitious life...the situations...but i cant shake her character...!

Her character and personality always remain real...and i think that inspires her decisions...and i think i love her for exactly that!
Its great to be lucky to have someone like this in your life i must say...their awesomeness sure rubs on you...!

Well...anyway...back to the real life again tomorrow...for more stories yet to convert to fictitious pages of a novel...

Monday, August 03, 2009

Listening to it a lot lately...

A great song after a looooong time...a must hear!
I wont describe it...just listen to it once and decide for yourself...

Saturday, August 01, 2009

Time after time

I came home early today...checked my mails...and then just laid on my bed...blank...

Weekends are something i really look forward to...but there i was...almost numb...I guess i just needed some time for myself...
I sat like this for about an hour...not doing anything...just watching the blue sky through my window and enjoying the peace...

Its good to have time for yourself...and i recommend it for everyone...it would surprise what a few moments for yourself can do for you...
I am a kinda person who needs people around...but this one hour i spent with myself...was probably the best time i spent during the week...


"Be your own best friend and don't forget to wink at yourself now and then."
- Diane von Furstenburg

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Mental madness - Part 2

Like i said before...when i reach the bus stop...its a completely new world...

The thoughts change...
I look at the road...my eyes looking the distance for the Bus to come and my ears listening to the music playing on the headset...
I stand there...generally thinking about the people i care...

What they must be doing...what is going on with them...which is then followed by replies through messages to people who had called...
I generally dont talk to anyone once Im out of work...just dont feel like it...

Honestly...that is just what i say to myself "I dont like to talk to anyone..."
Somewhere...i do miss coming out of work...and not having someone whom i would like to call...
(ohh yes...there is definitely someone i do wanna call everyday...but no one has given me that right to...its not a good thing to throw yourself on people now is it...)

I feel good about people who have their better halfs...you can see love in parts..here and there...and my mind ignores not having that "secured" feeling by divulging into others problems i guess...

"You know...the problem with you is...that you care too much about other people...treating their problem as your own..."

All I replied to that rather irrelevant statement made by a friend was...
"Really?? I never noticed that...but thats me i guess...i dunno if its a good thing or bad...but then...i love being me!"

What is strange is that you know so many people in your life....but isnt it a bit wierd that you constantly think about only a few of them...
I sometimes dont find it fair...because...there are a lot many people who actually care about you...but you are drawn to the thoughts of only a few...

"Strange is the mind...wild...and wilder are the thoughts that drive the mind..."

My MBA final result is out btw...and it feels good to know that now you are finally an MBA! (I really dont know how much that degree is worth right now...but its a goal achieved...)

I feel the wind in the bus...and i hear the sounds saying...there is a long way to go...

Friday, July 24, 2009

Mental madness - Part 1

...how so many things happen in just one day...24 hrs of your life..each moment has a different emotion...each has a different tone...

I work at a BANK...
I see rich people...people for whom investing is a passion...a game they play everyday...a means to grow...and have fun with...
And then i meet the poor people...for whom money is means to an end...just to survive...to pass one more day without starving...

I look at eyes...each has a story to tell...riches...rags...its all there...

I go through a lot of mental madness (if i can call it that...) through out the day at the bank...It is tough (and irritating at times) to fool the rich....to make them shell out their pockets and ironically...at the same time keep the trust of the poor...

Sometimes i meet people who just wanna talk...it seems as if they want a shoulder...and you put on a smile...try not to get too involved...and move away...
...at times...the rich try to get "too involved"....

I do wander at times...about what is happening...where are things really going...and each moment about how i feel....sometimes lost...sometimes frustrated...and sometimes excited...

What is strange is that...I dont see the outside world once i enter my branch doors...for another 12 hrs...(thats half a day!)...the time passes with lives of people from different worlds...

When i get out...i wait at the bus stop...and my eyes keep looking for something...my phone keeps waiting...
(But thats a different world...and i talk about it in the next post...)

Sunday, July 12, 2009

...life still in mumbai and being 17 again...

Long time no blog...
Actually...since work has started...have been too busy to sit down and write...and with saturdays working...there has been little time that i have got for myself...

One good thing that has happened is that I have been in Mumbai all along..and have still not been sent to my place of posting...and i would like it to remain that way...nothing can replace the life in Mumbai...so just hoping that whatever little luck i have...remains...and the evil stays away...

Have got some...and have lost some...just hoping...ill get that "100%" atleast once in my life...bored of being stuck at 99...

Was watching 17 Again today...and gave a thought on how almost everyone of us lives in his/her past...
Its always about what had happened...and how good or bad it was...and how and what you could have done to change it...
How much ever we say to ourselves that "Stay in the moment"....it almost never happens now,does it?

What is a relief is the fact that....when you do think of the past...and you think about how things have changed today...You might not like the present...you might crib...but then...put a little more thought to it..and think about it closely...
I am pretty sure you will realise that TODAY is better...fuller...and content...

That lost job...that love which never happened...that freind who fought...that money lost...that exam you failed to crack...
It was bad..i agree...but then there is something which has replaced it...and its for the better...

I think the problem with life is that it is really easy to attract negative thoughts about a situation you are in...wish there could be something which we could do about that...

I shut down my laptop in the afternoon (that happens rarely in my life!) and took up a magazine lying around on my desk for a long time...
One of the articles was talking about how teenage romances never last...and how most adolescent life is affected by break ups and "love problems"...

That just put a smile on my face...and my mind said to me...

"We are soo over all these things rite...not a teen anymore...why does all this seem childish to us now? What has really happened to us?"

Monday, June 29, 2009

Figuring out


It is now slowly sinking in...suddenly i find myself lone and missing a lot of people...
Work hasnt even started yet...and i am yet to go away from home permanently...and i already feel as if my heart is being pulled out...its a pain hard to describe...

I guess...its mainly because i am so used to staying in "this" life...that the change that is up ahead...is something that I dont want to accept...nor do i want to get myself outa the comfort zone i have been in all these years...

Yes...i am excited too...but i think...losing out on a perfectly good life...people around you...nearby...is something i am not prepared for..

A friend who has been away from home told me this the other day...
"You will really start valuing your present life once you go away from home..."

Now i know what he meant by that....cause that "value" bug is hitting me slowly...

One other thing that is bothering me... is that I am now beginning to see LOVE going away from my reach...
(was it ever in my reach...i do not know...)

I am a bit dazed...in love (i think!)...and still figuring out my emotions...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

...Changing attachments...satisfaction...and a bit...

I was wondering today about how Life changes so fast...about how things just happen when they happen...and DONT happen when they are not meant to happen...
You deal with it...you enjoy it...do whatever you wanna do with it...and it just moves ahead...

Its like...Slow down LIFE...i need time to sit and think for once!!

Even when you think your life is going slow...and there is nothing to do...just sit and think for a while...and you will find that there is actually so little time for all the things you really want to do...You might not get up and right away do it (laziness at its peak!) but you still have a lota things at hand...

My life is about to change drastically...soon...and i am here sitting and thinking...when did this all happen???
It was just a while ago that i left a perfectly good job at Godrej to join MBA...and its already over...and here i am...back again...doing something else...doing something different...

Was thinking about the people i met over the past two years...how some got attached to me...and how I got attached to some (Believe me...these are two different things!)

There are some people i met in MBA...for whom...i feel...that how much ever i do...is LESS...
They deserve so much more...and better smiles and happiness...and i could go to any extent to give them that one brisk of happiness...

It is said that you will never get as much satisfaction from your own successes as you will...from the ones you get when people you love achieve something...
True...very true...and i talk by experiencing this very satisfaction...

But its funny...sometime ago...we used to meet everyday..spend like 15-16 hours of the day together (not always tho!)...and now...i dont think ill see half of them frequently...some of them never again in my life!

I have always wondered...why do you meet people with whom you are eventually loose contact with anyway...because not many of the people you care wanna be in touch with you...
(Ask me...I myself dont know if wanna be in touch with a lot of the people who care for me!)

Attachment is a weird thing...it can make or break your day...
Simone Weil said this once..."Attachment is the great fabricator of illusions; reality can be attained only by someone who is detached."


I know what I can do to you...how wonderful I can make your life...and give you what you truly deserve...
but all this comes with an "IF"....
"IF" YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE...
Else..all that i do...is simply something funny...something unnecessary...something stupid...

...Its upto you...Please open up a bit...live a bit...with me...if not anything...Ill surely make you smile a bit...

(The above words...I say to myself too...for the people who are attached to me and i behave as if i dont care...its funny...how everything in life works both ways!)

Thursday, June 18, 2009

B'day contrasts... AND WE 'TWIST' !

  • 12.10 am 18th June 2009
Ahhh...the birthday is here...time to get more OLD...
Its funny you know how birthdays become something "you are excited about and look forward to" to something that "reminds you that your are getting OLD!"

Surprisingly...it doesnt feel like its my birthday today...i mean...i don really feel that excited about it as i should be...
...maybe because i have been having so much fun lately that it is just passing by....or may be..its just something else..i do not know...

I know one thing for sure though...that i am having the TIME OF MY LIFE....and that i am happy...

  • 11.35 pm 19th June 2009

Its beyond question...this was one of my best b'days ever!!!
I am having so much fun right now...that i dont know where and with what to start penning it down...

Got my posting for work...a place called DAHANU ,about 3 hrs drive from Mumbai (where i presently stay)
Now the exciting thing about Dahanu is that its kinda a "weekend getaway" place for the people of Mumbai and so come to think of it...working at a tourist spot seems like holidays 24/7 to me...lolzz...
Hoping it will turn out to be good...first time will be away from home...

The funny thing about Dahanu is that the entire city/town/village (i don really knw wat to call it!) has just TWO Cyber Cafes!!! (Yes...u read it right!)
When i read that on wikipedia, a part of me "suffocated"...coz i am a person who virtually "breathes" the internet...
Will have to look for broadband data cords....

And since I will be leaving home in about a week..i am on an AWESOME shopping spreee....buying things as if im going away to another country all together...and I'M CRUISING IT! ("Im lovin it" sounds old and Mc Donaldy now..."cruising it" is the new "IN" word!)

Having been meeting up with some great freinds here and there...and what excites me is that these days im always "on the move"!

Plus have got some amazing b'day gifts...you know...its not always what someone gave...its who gave and with how much heart...

One of the other highlight of this week was this random conversation i had with a girl in the Bus the other day...
We were speaking for about 30 minutes...and the best part of it was that by the end of it.. I did not care to take her number (that would have made the whole thing "cheesy" i think) and we just wished each other the best for the future and parted ways...letting the moment remain genuine enough forever...

I read somewhere that every person has a moment in his/her life...that feels like a dream...something that maybe you will never experience again...it might come in some other form...sometime later....but the experience wont be the same...and soo...im savouring the experience of this dream...(TOUCHWOOD raised to 100 for that!)

"And it doesnt stop there...

...I wont make it stop there..."

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

the wait for the dream and a wish

So the wait is finally over...will be joining work soon...
I am actually very excited about the job...and the new experience...Its not my first job...but somewhere i feel that good things await at this place...

Have been trying to enjoy the last few "lukhha" days left...living out just about anywhere and everywhere that i get a chance...

What gets me about life is that you never tread the path you planned out for...You always live a life which is different from what you wanted or expected...It may be better or worse (I however like to believe that it always gets better eventually even if it is at its worst right now)

I am spending some of the best days of my life with friends...some things and events i will remember for a very long time.


Something i did not plan on doing has happened...something i wanted , i dont have...but whatever something i have right now is of value..in some small way or the other...and its all good..and i am happy...

I make a wish for a few people before i go to sleep sometimes...Some people i care about...I might never tell them that...
Its a good way to bring in positivity in the life of your friends i feel...
Today...before i sleep...i wish something for myself...and with all my heart...i hope it turns true...

To all your dreams that might never come true and would definitely turn out to become something better...ALL THE BEST!

Thursday, June 11, 2009

All that she said...

Its strange...but I had completely forgotten how beautiful it is to really care for someone..with all your heart...
It really feels amazing i tell you...it hurts too at times...but its one of those "No pain No gain" kinda things i guess...

Somewhere far far away...
a guy cried today for a girl...a guy, who never thought girls even existed before he met her...and things just changed for him after that...
Sadly this guy is a friend of mine...its sad because there is nothing much I can do to help him...Its the pain each one has to carry when you care for someone...


Tune joh naa kaha,mein woh sunnta raha
Duur jaata raha , pass aata raha...
Khamakhaan bewajah, Khwaab bunntaa raha
...
Tune joh naa kaha,mein woh sunnta raha


Somewhere nearby...
I heard a girl speak to me...more like... shout at me ...for the foolishness and childish pranks i have been playing lately...She made me realize a very important thing today...
"You are not 18 anymore!!"

The way she said it...hit me big time...Yes...its high time i come out of my dreamy world...get real...and get out of the hopelessly romantic illusions i have about this thing called LOVE....

I guess it is just hard for us guys to accept that you cannot make a girl care for you like you care for her...
Was telling this to someone the other day...
"You do things for her...and she will only reciprocate if she really feels like it...else its just another thing that happened just another day..."

But then i asked her...in between her shouts..."What do you do when you genuinely care for a person...?"
"Just shut up and keep your feelings aside! Thats the only way out...else you will just be used..Is that what you want?" came the shrewd reply from her.

All that she said made soo much sense...and it was all true...

I wonder what i would have done without a certain few people who are around me...They love you so much that they wont mind shouting at you...hurting you...and telling you the reality...just to help you out!
Thank you for being there always...

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Namastey London all the way...

Dont go by the strange title of this post...it actual plays a very important role in our lives these days...really a very important role...

You know how they say...there is always a LOVE STORY happening somewhere...its like...you will never be out of ideas for making a bollywood movie mann...! lol

Ok...back to the movie Namastey London...

I have a friend...and hes in love....and like any love story...there IS a problem...
The girl in question is 3 years elder to him...and even if that can be dealt with...He is not sure if the girl is at all interested...

I sometimes feel its not fair that girls have all the power when it comes to Love...or at least i have not met a situation which works the other way round...
A girl can really decide whether to make or break a guys life mann...now thats really HUGEEE if you ask me...
And knowing that they have this amazing POWER...they really like to play with it...dont they? (Damnn the girls!!)

I mean...I know of guys who have been approached by girls....I myself have been approached by girls...but guys keep it simple...a "NO" is really a "NO"...and thats the end of it...
They dont keep you guessing like girls do...I think...half of a guys time goes in contemplating "What the hell does she mean by that?"
And only experience can teach a guy what to conclude from a "NO" or "May be" or a "I dunno" that a girl gives him...(and these are the words you will hear...not "frequently"...but like...ALL THE TIME!!)

So yes...We are decifering yet another girl and her "reactions"and trying to understand whether she is really interested in the guy or not...coz...you know...its a life changing decision for him...
At 24...getting into a relationship with a girl who is 27...means...dreaming of a wedding and of kids going to school !! (Im sure you know what i mean by that...you are in it...and then there is no way out!)

Ohh yaa...Back to the movie Namastey London...

We were discussing this one day...and we found that this movie is so tactfully made for all the people (read foolish idiots!) who have LOST in the game of love...

There is even a dialogue in the movie which Akshay Kumar says "haan...woh line...joh pyaar mein haar jaate hain , unka dil rakhne ke liye likhhi gayii he..."
LOL

And now...when ever we discuss anything related to LOVE or just plain wanna have fun with the topic of LOVE...we keep reciting the movie dialogues...in our own "heart broken" way...
Some of our favourites are...


"Ishq dii meri mitra pehchaan gii,mit jaayen jadon zidd appnaan dii..."

"Jahaan pyaar hotaa he , wahan naraazgii nahin....Ummeed hoti he..."

"Jab hum dono bhoodhe ho jaayenge...aur mein London aaungaa...yahan aake mein tumhe phone karunga...toh tum mujhse milne jaroor aana...kyunki mere liye tabhhii yeh jaannaa zaroori hoga...ke tum khush toh honaa..."



LOLzz
:-D

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I have had a pretty good weekend...and i would like to keep the "good" feeling all the way...
Right from the funny thing where Dad gifted my Mom a Laptop for their 30th Wedding Anniversarry (I think its cute in a way...but it sure was a strange gift!) ...to the fun i had with my friends...and to the people i made happy (i think!) for their special day ...Its all been good...
TOUCH WOOD!

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Ruthless chain

When Donald Trump was asked recently whether he would sacrifice his integrity and character and stab someone in the back or walk over someones trust to get his business done...he answered it with a smile and simply said, "No Comments"

He then went on saying that even though he might never admit it...he has done pure business at times...not bothering about anything else...simply because that is how you get ahead in this world..

I guess that is how it is in Business...you have got to be ruthless all the way...and push people out of the way...
Something that i think i have to realise and act upon in days to come...it always was NOTHING PERSONAL...JUST BUSINESS...!
I dont really agree to this...i mean...you do get personal in relationships and whether you like it or not...every time remaining aloof isnt possible (It amazes me however how some people i know do it with complete ease...thinking of nothing but themselves all the time!)

Have been wondering about how you can just be arrogant and self centered and still get away with it...and i have come to a conclusion that it just doesnt matter...you might loose out on some good people...people who care for you..but then...it wont really affect you in the long run anyway...

Was talking to a school friend about some people i knew back then...
I have known and been friends with people i really cared about...but they never bothered to keep in touch...i tried my best....but eventually...it doesnt matter to them...nor to me...

Strange it is...how someone who hurts and doesnt value friendship while it is still there...might never know how good it could ever have been for him/her...


But thats the way it is....someone does it to you...and you knowingly/ unknowingly do it to someone else...its like a chain...

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Missing someone..and I know not who...


CAN MILES TRULY SEPARATE US FROM FRIENDS? IF WE WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE WE LOVE, AREN'T WE ALREADY THERE?
- Richard Bach

Friday, May 29, 2009

When the Internet was discovered by a 16 yr old...

I was wondering today...about how things are changing...i mean...you are aware of the change happening around you...but now its like...someone just put the car of life directly into top gear...and you are just speeding away...!

There were so many instances today which got me into that "should I do this or not" frames...
Strange isnt it....how it hits you one fine day....


I look in the mirror and i dont see that 16 year old boy anymore...
I remember those days...and the way things used to be...much simpler than now...a bit slower and carefree than now...
I mean...the top discussion i remember having at that time...around the year of 2000 i think...when we were just figuring out what the internet really was...and what exactly was this thing called "hotmail"
Our hang out discussions were related to how we could do something cool with the internet and i think back at that time...we were planning to start a website that was like a directory of all the things you would need in the town you lived..like details of hotels...shops...etc...

And today...in 2009...I can virtually LIVE on the internet...!
Was just reading about BING and Google Wave...taking communication to a different level now...

The thing with the internet age is that you dont feel the need to go back at any point of time..i mean...who wants to use a bulky desktop when you hav a laptop now...or use the 2 mb hotmail when you have a 7 Gb+ Gmail...which is soo unlike real LIFE...You always want to go back in time when it comes to your LIFE!

Strange...but true...

And I am 24 now...my discussions revolve around career options...money...people getting married...how i will be married...love...and still pretty much internet...but in form of Facebook,Twitter and Orkut...

You think about those days gone...and you laugh over it now...but you would give anything to live that time again ,wont you?

Thursday, May 28, 2009

ZooZoo Dumb


So we live in the "ZooZoo" world now...and apparently everyone is talking about the new Vodafone ads that O&M has craftily done...wiping out the "pug" campaign altogether...sheer work of genius...must say...

What surprises me is that every success story has something or the other going wrong with it...As they say...nothing can be 100%...you always leave some gaps...

The company got a PETA award it seems for removing the dog off the campaign and introducing the new characters...I dont see the point in this story...when PETA says that some of the dogs where abandoned after the "fad" for these pugs went out...and they would like to thank Vodafone for completely removing the ads and spreading the message that there are alternative ways to make advertisements without using animals (As if we dint know that...!)
Plus...with the "pug" ads out...wont ALL the dogs be abandoned now since the fad is completely off ????

How senseless can these people be...just trying to cash in on the campaigns' success and trying to get some attention!

Now..let me tell you...I love Vodafone...have been using its service since the "MaxTouch Orange" days...and i simply adore the brand..(admit it..it has class!)

But with steps like these...they are really not doing all that good a job...

I recieved a message from Vodafone today...and it went on like this...

"FREE STD!! Now get 49 mins of STD to any phone in the country absolutely free for a monthly rental of only Rs.49. To activate sms ACT 49 to 111(tollfree)."

Now...when my STD rate is Re. 1 ....how dumb can you be to activate this service????
Dont they think twice before sending such offers to customers?

Friday, May 22, 2009

Sanely drunk...and career options of my prospective wife to be...

Was sitting with some friends for dinner the other day and about half a drink of vodka got one of the guys to start talking...
(Its interesting what all topics you can touch in this world when you are "slight" drunk...u know..not the "talli" phase...the lighter times..you know whats happening around you and you are not simply blabbering irrelevant stuff...i think you can have some of the best conversations of your life in that phase...!)

"You know...Everyone knows drinking too much affects your liver...its bad for your health...but still we drink...its like we wanna prove whoever claimed it that he was wrong...so CHEERS to that! Lets prove him wrong...!!"
And he raises his glass...up high...

"Are you sure it was a HE who claimed it and not a SHE?" said another friend raising his glass....

Ignoring to comment on this...the first guy went on again...
"You know what...I hope i get married to a DOCTOR...I mean...wont it be great to have a doctor in the house itself...no medical expenses!! Damnn....I hope i get married to a doctor!!"

And that put me into a thought process...


If i had to choose a person i would spend the rest of my life with based on her career/job...here are some of the top contenders...


  • A DOCTOR: Naaaa....marrying a doctor is not a good thing i feel...(unlike my drunk friend)...mainly because...you wont really save on medical bills...coz you hardly fall that "gravely" sick in your young age...and if you plan to marry a doc considering the "medical bills"advantage for OLD age...then might as well get one of your kids into the medical field..that way...by the time he is grown up...you are almost dead...and ready to be his guinea pig for all the medical illnesses...the longer you are alive..the better a doctor he has grown out to be!

  • A SOFTWARE ENGINEER: this one cud be cool...Now...i think this kinda girl will understand me ...i mean...she is tech friendly...career friendly...used to long working hours...and would definitely be smart enough...Plus i think...being an Engineer myself...and hating the "techincal" side of it...she could get a chance to change my mind abt it! (Now that will be a healthy fight to have!)

  • A FASHION MODEL/ACTRESS: Now now...i don think ANY guy would deny that this is his ultimate dream bride...so is mine...i mean....JUST IMAGINE...! (and i would leave the rest for imagination...)

  • A MBA GRADUATE : This one could be cool...since i myself have an MBA degree..but only if she earns a lot...atleast 4-5 times more than me! (Yes....im not those insecure-guy-about-his-wife-doing-better types...i welcome increased income instead...) Also since...it is argued that MBA's are responsible for ruining the present economy and pulling it to recession...i think me and wife can tactfully device new plans to ruin the economy more...collectively! (Ha ha ha...one more thing...my life would be a whole mess of budgets,strategies and aimless research!)

  • A FINANCIAL ANALYST : Now i think this would be a great person to marry...a person who understands numbers...mainly because i dont! (ohh...i soo dont!) To top this....if the girl is one who has working knowledge of the investment sector (u knw....how these so called "investment plans" and "insurance schemes" have soo many fine prints you dont know of and will never know of...!) I mean...i came to know recently that you can earn more insurance premium just by deciding a right date to start the plan! So...if u have a finance expert in the house...Now thats something...afterall its MORE money in you pocket!

PS:- I dont intend to hurt the sentiments of any of the professionals through this post and this may please be taken as lightly and in good humour as far as possible...
Plus...a major criteria which i haven't mentioned in any of the above is that you first have to immensely beautiful! So...nothing professional there anyway...
:-P

Monday, May 18, 2009

time will tell the story..

If you did one right thing...say...a good deed...you would probably remember it for the rest of your life...try not to spoil that moment..keep it in your mind...and let it remain as perfect as it made you feel at that time...

Was out of net for the past 3 days...and since "web" occupies a large part of my life's schedule these days...I was feeling a bit lost...I still dont get people who dont feel the need to be connected...i mean...in these times of "impatience" as they call it...how can you not be "online"!

Anyways...I have come to realize that everything in this world happens in a predefined mesh of sequences...and your actions and reactions are a direct reflection of everything that you are supposed to do...
You would better understand this concept if you have seen "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
I mean...ever wondered why you got up at the time you got up today...or why did you take a cab when you could have taken a bus..why you wore red over blue today...small things like these..trivial things that form critical factors to a holistic story of your life...

I have realised that how much ever you PUSH for things to happen...they will not...unless you are meant to have it...or unless its the time for you to have it...
By streching the mesh...going after the same thing like a spoilt child of 3 years who just wants to have the toy sports car...you are just frustrating yourself...little realising...that its just a toy car...something that you will not even want when you are 15...by then probably you would be running after a cricket bat!

I think the best part of loving someone is that you didnot work towards getting that person in your life...and even as things change...from wanting a toy car to a cricket bat...to a new mobile phone..and then to a brand new car...the feelings for that person have remained the same...
In the end...whatever you have...and you dont have...doesnt matter...when you know you love that person irrespective of all these trivial things...

I have been waiting all my life for my story to unfold...every day a bit closer...I dont know how it will end...or where it will end...but i do know...that my Life has something good to offer...simply because...if it was bad...or whenever i felt it would end badly...Life has always proved me wrong in the end!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

A big SMILE...Because I can...!

When Jerry Seinfeld was asked why he wanted to shelve down a descent and plush bungalow and build a new one for himself more bigger and better looking...costing him almost double the amount...his simple reply to that, with a faint smile, was "Because I can."

I like those three words..."BECAUSE I CAN"...highlights the thin line between what you want in life..what is necessary...and what you can actually achieve...

Life has generally turned slow these days...and my final publishing of this post today after a good 11 days shows my height of laziness...
But i like SLOW...idle time...a stage of self contemplation and peace...

Anways...finally got out of the house today and had some fun with friends...a loud dinner...and a looongg drive through the night..

Was just thinking today,while helping a whining friend recover, about how people say things like "we met...met again...and then 'one thing let to another'...and stuff happened"
I never got this statement called 'one thing let to another'
I mean...how can u just say it...everything that you do and dont do is in your control...always...you just cant say that things got outa hand....its like giving an excuse for the sins YOU committed...
Makes me wanna tell them...how come people like me never come across this 'one thing let to another' syndrome...Its because we know where to get ourselves involved and where not to...!
I mean yeahh...sure...i am tired for love to happen to me...the RIGHT kinda love...the "makes your world go round" kinda love...but i atleast dont regret doing anything stupid...
But i dint tell him all this (i think is should hav!)...just sipped my cold coffee...and stared at his sad face...


Was taking a ride alone in the bus today...something about the music playing i think...was remembering some good times...and how wonderful things can be...but as they say..."the first step towards being happy is to stop expecting things"

I think most of our sorrows are a twisted tale of unfullfilled expectations...Good things will happen...believe me they will...but give them the right time...

I am glad that after 11 days of trying to publish this post...I am finally hittin the publish button tonight with a big smile on my face...

To more good times and unexpected happiness ahead...a big CHEERS!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Incomplete: The Begining...

Havent blogged in days...and its not like i have been studying continuously or have been busy with something...but its just that when there are exams round the corner...you just seem to be blocked...
Theres always that "exam" thing hovering over and over...


Finally burst the bubble where i couldnt take it anymore...i mean commonnn...who studies 14 days before the exam for just one subject!
So then...this is enough....i need a bit of relaxed time...

Attended a college friends engagement the other day...its amazing to see two people who complete each other come together...especially when you somewhere care for them...
Its an awesome feeling...hard to describe...nice to experience though...

It also reminds me of one of the worst regrets i have in my life...
I can never change NOT attending my best friends wedding...and what ever i do...however "not favorable" the situation was...I can never change the fact i was not there...anyways...

The music is playing right now...and the problem is that with every song...I feel a rush to stop writing...which ill be doin right now...and continue this post later...

(If this seems incomplete to you...then wait for the next post...more "incompleteness" follows...)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

...more...

I think the best part of growing up is letting go...of all the things you ever wanted...for the want of newer things...and better ones...and that excitement of getting it finally ...
Of course....you dont always get what you want...but...the way i see it...

"I think for the most part....if you are honest about what you really want...
...life gives it to you eventually..."

And the logical explanation for this is that...how much ever you are sad about losing some...its always that...your later part of life...ends up in smiles...so basically....life always gives you something better!
The idea is to remember this every time...

The one other thing i have learnt over the years is that you are solely responsible for all the decisions you make...
And i think I owe my parents a lot for raising me the way they did...never in my life have i been refused to something...I would be warned of its necessity and use...and whether i really needed it...but if i did want anything...i would very well get it...
This freedom has somewhere taught me to weigh everything i want in life...and if it really would be worth it...

Well...that "want" reminds me of the eyes i have set on the Nokia 5800....


Have been drooling over the piece right from when it was launched and have been desperate to lay my hands on one of my own....
Finally on the verge of buying it....almost i think...

The problem with guys is that they would never be satisfied with their gadgets...and its always that need for "more"....

This need though has always been a part of my life...
I was wondering over a point that one of my friends very well pointed out the other day...
"Why cant we be content with what we have....?"

But i think that is exactly the reason we are not monotonous...or aimless in life....the need to get "more" is what drives us i guess...
I mean...I get one thing...i could utilize it....be happy with it....and be content...
But nope....we look beyond...of what more can be done...what is "less" in what we have....

That is the also the exact reason why I am what i am...and where I am....with all the things i have...and all the things i dont have....

But i do plan to do some things differently now...nevertheless unsatisfied...but the search for "more" will be on...ALWAYS...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Exams...WORTHLESS...and its over now....

The final exams for getting a "worthless" MMS degree (I mite be too harsh here....okk....its wasnt all that worthless..it did do a bit of value additon...but a larger devalued payscale post MBA degree took away all that value which was added..okk...still doesnt qualify to be called worthless!!) are on...and writing the papers is more of a formality...where you just cant sit through all the 3 hours of the time alloted!

I came out about 45 minutes early today...and was sitting by the steps...just...sitting...

Peace...and then a sudden rush....people all around...10 different talks going on simultanoeusly...you try to be in every conversation...and get a gist of none in the end...people calling you from all directions...and the last thing evryone is talkin about is the "difficulty" level of the paper...The highlights of the talks are who took how many supplements...and who came out first...who was sitting idle through the paper...

Was just glancing around at everyone sitting at the steps...
"People everywhere... Where will all this go in a few days... I mean meeting people after a long gap for the exams was a nice thing...to see evryone again...but how long does it last from now...hardly days to go..."

And then you see the rush disappear slowly...back to the haunting slience on the floor...
Two years of your life with explainable and unexplainable memories....seriously....WHERE DOES IT GO??

Funny ramblings,serious complaints,mindless chatters,irritating gestures,that "at peace" feeling....and then the slience...idle...doing nothing at all...

"There is one piece of advice, in a life of study, which I think no one will object to; and that is, every now and then to be completely idle - to do NOTHING at all."

You walk away from the college and you feel....It wasnt that "worthless" after all....

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Filler post...an unecessary yet important update...

I have been wanting to blog for last 2-3 days...you know...had one of those moments when you say to yourself.."Oh my God...that is totally going in my blog!"

But for some reason...have stopped myself from doing so...Somewhere....I think it was the gap where the news had to simply sink in...and saturate itself in my mind...before i could actually write it down and confirm it...


Soo yes...Im PLACED...finally!!!
Was a difficult ocean of choices to make...but then...in this time of what everyone refers to as "recession" i think i made a descent tradeoff...

Oh yaa...forgot to mention...Ill be working for this firm below...



So then...Finally blogged it...

And ever since the placement...had a lot of "This is sooo going in my blog!" moments...

A nice morning stressed playing badminton in the heat...something about us engineering friends never changes...
We were just discussing how of all the people we have known in our lives....only the friends from Engineering are still in touch...and best of friends...
"Our priorities have definitely changed in the past few years....but we have known how to handle them and adjust to keep our friendship the way it was..."

And then there was the movie...

(The only motivation to watch this one was because the Director title read Nagesh Kukunoor...)
It is such an irritating and pathetic movie that im actually going to blog about it!!!
I mean...the movie is soo bad...that its not worth even going and sleeping through in the theaters...
I was so frustrated that wanted to throw something on the screen in anger...and when all i found in my hand was my mobile which was not worth letting go for such a bad and sick movie...we bought a bunch of popcorn...finished it as fast as we could...and threw it right at the screen...
Too bad though it dint actually reach the screen...but fell in between a couple who i think were checking each others dental cavities...mouth to mouth...poor chaps...cant afford a dentist fee i think...
I dunno why i am writing all this...but then...just trying to show you a "picture" of how bad a movie actually was...Both Thumbs and middle finger down to Nagesh Kukunoor (You really made Hyderabad Blues dude????)

Anyways...So then...as i was saying...Life seems relaxed for now...and i have been back to my senses somehow...and even though this post was just a "Ohh i got placed!" reminder...more of the "sensible" blogs will follow...

Friday, March 27, 2009

...steps...banter...coloured hair...small talk...

She was taking the stairs...I saw her from the passage below...
The moment was sudden...if i would have continued being in my thoughts, i would have almost missed her...

She looked at me...And tried not to react....just a faint smile....thats it...as if to wait for my reaction...
I moved up the stairs...closer to her...

I gazed at her...and said a faint "HI"...almost unheard...
She smiled again...

She looked different...beautiful...but different...coloured hair...golden highlights...still amazingly pleasant to look at and adore...

I was supposed to be angry with her...for not keeping in touch...and this time i was sure of not letting all that go so easily...

"The hair looks good...suits you....but never thought you would do something with your hair...considering you love it soo much!"
(Now this....was supposed to be my "fun joke conversation starter"! damnn it...i suck at this!)

"Yeha...just tried it cause my best friend insisted..." She said.

"Where are you these days yaar! I forgot the last time i spoke to you...werent you supposed to reply??"I asked, in a firm and staunch voice.
(I guess...i thought getting straight to the point was "the thing to do" then...since we dint have much to talk about otherwise...)

And then...it was back to normal...our childish arguments...the friendly banter...it was all back..

"Damn it...thats always the case,isnt it...i can never be angry with you!" I grunted,trying to stop her from playfully hitting me.

"NOPE....and thats the best part" She giggled.

The steps of the stairway started making a noise...as if they couldn't stand our argument...Mom was coming downstairs...

She gave us one look and said, "You both are at it again...Go upstairs...everyone is looking for you..."
And she kept moving downstairs....

We both looked at each other...smiled and started taking the steps up...

Me: "So....caught the new movie...?"
She: "You din give me any..."
Me: "You never asked or called..."
She: "Ohh....don start again...!"

Yeah....Dont start again....lets just stick to the small talk...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Meeting the good people...

I think the people who tell you that "you will get a job soon...very soon...You deserve better..." know themselves that they are lying to you...and that they really cant do much about it..
I think these good people too have reached the heights of their optimism and they must be out of words now to tell you...except saying "just hold on...a bit longer...it always has to end..."

I know of friends who just stop talking when i start whining about the present job scene and some even hang up the phone! (LOLzz)
Honestly, i can understand...I too am at a state where talking about the same thing again and again just doesnt seem good...Its as if you are out of topics for conversations with friends...
I mean...comeon...agreed...NOT having a job is all on your mind right now...but its not fair to always dump that load on your friends...everytime..
(i know all the ideal things that i am writing down right now...but as soon as this is over...ill be back to calling my friend again and whining jobs...jobs and more jobs...or maybe not...dunno...!)

Met some really good people today...they value your qualification...understand what you have put in these years of study and experience...and I am just glad that i met them...knowing that "goodness" still exists somewhere...
I dont mean to generalise...but i think it is only this "goodness" that takes you ahead in life...slefishness and jealously leads you no where...it might get you your first break...the second maybe...it might even get you to far ahead than that...

But give it just one little thought....When you will look at your life from there...you wont be able to live at peace anymore...and will just plain die of frustrating guilt...and it will slowly start eating you up from inside...

No wonder...people who take the selfish path....end up creating a mess of themselves in the end...

Back to the good people...


Notice this...All the top managers you will meet in your life...the "real" successful ones...are always soft spoken...and the "understanding" ones...and they will impress you just by their grace and awe...and thats what it is...you have to be a giving person to get that kinda respect in life...

I have come across amazingly shocking selfishness in the past few years...
Yes...it hurts me that these people generally get away with everything...But in the end...its just the same old story of guilt and internal conflict i guess...that makes them see their end...
I am not guessin it...I KNOW IT!

Imagine...10 years down the line...
What do you choose...a series of guilty thoughts about how you ran over people to get where you are...
OR
A satisfying feeling of peace knowing you have helped others all the way...

Actually....its a choice you have already made...so all the best with it...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Hope...has a new meaning...



For what it's worth: it's never too late or too early to be whoever u want to be.

There's no time limit, stop whenever you want.
You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing.

We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it.
And I hope you see things that startle you.

I hope you feel things you never felt before.
I hope you meet people with a different point of view.

I hope you live a life you're proud of.
If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Thoughts in a meaningless conversation

"You know....its like....Dont believe anything until you truly have it...Just let it be in your hand for sure...Feel it...savor it...touch it...only then act on it...!"

I did not really get what that sentence meant in a conversation about...believe it or faint...A CHEESE SANDWICH!

I guess somewhere he was trying to talk on a completely different level which i did not understand...or amybe i was just too busy enjoying my sandwich...

As he spoke....more and more...i drifted away...
Was thinking about this person i know...and about why people behave the way they do...about how...when you feel so close to a person and the person cant feel that way for you...the level of friendship isnt the same...
And then i realised that even i do the same with a lot of people...i am close...but then i stay aloof...i care...but i refrain...
I guess its about self protection...somewhere not letting yourself hurt too much...How i wish life would offer the same level of closeness in friendships to everyone...and we then might not categorize people into BEST friends and GOOD friends...

I then suddenly got back to the conversation with this person...
"I never got where I thought I wanted to go, but I always have got a great story...."

Now that was a good line i thought as i got a sip of my coffee...
"Yeah...i like the idea of how everyones Life is actually a movie in the making...it has everything...Drama...Emotions...Love...Romance...Horror...I wonder still...why cant we just eat a popcorn casually while living it through...like we do while watching movies..." I said.

And then...the guy started talking about something to do with this new movie called Twilight and about vampires and stuff....enough reason for me to drift away again...

And I again thought of the same person i mentioned earlier....about the time we spent...and i realized...if she would be a part of my life (not in a romantic way....let me be clear...but just for the sake of a great friendship...something like...wat you call a "BEST friend"...) say...anytime in the future...now that would be a great future to look forward to!!
I dunno the end...but i sure know the journey to the end would be great...

I still hate the fact....that level of BEST friendship doesnt always happen both ways...it has with some...it just abruptly ended with others...and it sucks that it is that way...!
I wish we had a LOCK...or a METER...where we could decide the level of friendship and care beforehand...when you meet the person for the first time...and it be the same forever...no more...no less...

"Are you in this world??? Helllooo!!!" ,He called me out...
"Yes...yes of course Im here dude...What were you saying again...?

"I was saying....how much CHEESE do you eat in a week?"

Huh....back to a meaningless conversation and more drifting away....

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Infosys...Silence..Blogging...and What else?

There are some weeks in your life...When you just have nothing to say or talk about...You are just there....doing your thing....or maybe not doing anything (Like my case these days...) and Life is just rolling...

And the phone conversations cover the same topic...
"So....whats up these days?"
"Nothing re...the usual...what else?"

And you think...When will these days pass...they do of course eventually...but the time till that moment comes when you have a phone call that says...
"Heyyy...I have some news!!"
That moment is what you crave during this lurking sad phase of life...(okay...Sad is a harsh word...would BORING and Lifeless be a better substitute?)

Apparently...had one such conversation today...

Was telling my friend...who is an employee of Infosys...about how todays newspapers are flashing the news about Infy hiring about 20 thousand freshers even in this crisis period...and that too with a 8% salary hike than previous freshers!
"I cant understand mann....all other IT companies have freezed recruitment....how can Infy afford to do this?"

And then came the analysis...
"They are cuting down our salaries...they wont remove people...they will hire more freshers...and bring us and them to our salary level now...Also...they are planning to increase the hirarchy structure wherein getting promotions will take longer...So...Basically...what the most "ethical" company in India is telling the media is just half truth....to generate hype...but they are doing more than just hiring...they are reducing other costs in its place..."

"Hmm...Clever people" I said to myself...
After all...In this country...playing with words is all you need to make lotsa money...meltdown or no meltdown...

You know...there are some people in your phone book or your messenger list....whom you wanna call or chat...even though there is absolutely NOTHING to say...
Strange it is....how you miss even the silence in such relationships!
:-)

Was thinking about how i have inspired many people to turn to blogging...and about how it has helped them...I think its great that people write...its always good to have your story written down somewhere...
Someday when you are old...you can refer back to these memories...and may laugh,cry or just plain ponder over it...about how life has turned out...and was it really meant to be this way always...

I feel that every guy/girl in this world has a great story to tell..and each one has an equally interesting tale...its all about how well you can actually LIVE it!
(If this line doesnt make sense to you right now....don worry...remember it....it will soon make sense... )

So....tell me...WHAT ELSE?
:-)
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