Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Seriously speaking...NO accomplishments...


Some people are NEVER satisfied...some will NEVER agree to what you say....some others will NEVER accept that you can be right...some will only want you to get more irritated ..rest just cant accept that you could be better than them...it hurts them like a knife in the heart...

Oh My God ppl....!!!
Listen to me....Even I CAN talk sense sometimes you know...


Whatever mann...My life doesnt end on you...I have something more important waiting somewhere...
You were just my test of patience for that SOMETHING BIG...
And be damn sure....I WILL GET IT SOMEDAY!!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

...the struggle...

We always talk of people who struggle...about people who have had hardships in life and made it big...
Every great man...has a great story to tell...story of sacrifice,persistence,pain,hunger and suffering...before they made it big...

I wonder if in this unbalanced world,all those who suffer make it big...because....after all....suffering and sacrifice too are very relative and subjective terms...

I know of this guy at my workplace...18 year old...young guy who recently gave his 12th (HSC) exams...
He is a seemingly light hearted guy...always cracking up stupid jokes and fooling around...and the office people dont really mind him coz he is the youngest among the sales executive lot...

On his result day...I asked him what he plans to do ahead...
It was obvious that him doing a job was a necessity to support his family...the very reason he took up a job before even completing his graduation was evidence of this fact...

He told me that he dint really know...and he asked me about various options and its scope ahead...I was giving him all the info i could...
At one moment...he cursed his fate and his family...the tension spread all over his face...
He looked at me with a face which asked why was it so difficult for him to make a choice then...why couldnt he afford to leave the job and study like normal 18 yr olds...and i had no answers...

His result was out...and he scored a descent 62%...and this was a total one month of study before the exams...as he dint get time due to the job...

I did see him the next morning...He seemed really low....with the smile on his face gone...and the tension evident again...
I went up to him and asked what had happened...and he just turned away....trying to avoid looking at me...it was as if he was almost to tears....
I left him alone...and i went out...

After about an hour or so...i saw him leave the office...I called him...
"This is for you...Your result was out yesterday...I just thought you deserve something for your efforts..." I said removing the Cadbury Temptations from my pocket.

His face lit up with glee...He thanked me...hugged me...and I have seen him smiling, as always, after that...

Sometimes...You dont need money...you dont need luck....you dont need success...
All you need is someone appreciating you...and believing in what you do...

The Struggle
Have you ever traveled down a road to find there was no end
For every corner that you turned there was another bend
The faster that you walked, the longer that it seemed
And you were all alone, in this crazy dream

Crazy dreams that you dream alone
When the lights go out and no one's home
You see the day for what it's been
And you wish to God you could stay clean

The morning brings you to the road you didn't want to travel
and every step you take again makes your life unravel
You keep on walking down the path, wondering what you'll find,
and pray that when you find it you wont have lost your mind

It's halfway through another day and you're looking for those dreams
knowing they can make your life better than it seems
If only to forget your pain for a little while
you can travel down the road just another mile

The night is now upon you, the miles are on your face,
But you keep going forward to your final place.
You know the end is coming soon, you see it straight ahead
And if they don't forget you, you never will be dead

Saturday, June 21, 2008

...Worth Reading...

Below are some of the quotes by AYN RAND...believe me...it is one of the most profound writing i have come across in a long time...read every word...and let it sink in...it will leave you amazed!


"Achievement of my happiness is the only moral purpose of my life, and that happiness, not pain or mindless self-indulgence, is the proof of my moral integrity, since it is the proof and the result of one's loyalty to the achievement of one's values.
It only stands to reason that where there's sacrifice, there's someone collecting the sacrificial offerings. Where there's service, there is someone being served. The man who speaks to you of sacrifice is speaking of slaves and masters, and intends to be the master. Ask yourself whether the dream of heaven and greatness should be waiting for us in our graves - or whether it should be ours here and now and on this earth. From the smallest necessity to the highest religious abstraction, from the wheel to the skyscraper, everything we are and everything we have comes from one attribute of man - the function of his reasoning mind."
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Money is only a tool. It will take you wherever you wish, but it will not replace you as the driver.


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"Love is the expression of one's values, the greatest reward you can earn for the moral qualities you have achieved in your character and person, the emotional price paid by one person for the joy he receives from the virtues of another.
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To say "I love you" one must first be able to say the "I."


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"There are two sides to every issue: one side is right and the other is wrong, but the middle is always evil. Contradictions do not exist. Whenever you think you are facing a contradiction, check your premises. You will find that one of them is WRONG."

Friday, June 20, 2008

freaking 24!!!

I think the best part about your birthday is that you actually celebrate "getting OLD"!
I am all smiles outside....but inside i am cursing myself...

"F**kin blooddy oldddie 24...!"
LOLZ...

I know its not that bad...but come to think of it...what have i achieved at 24...
I mean common...Katrina Kaif is 24 (And that very much makes her a potential prospective wife to be for me!! wooohooo!!) Look at her...famous...rich...and has the world at her feet...

I know life isnt really about comparisons though....But the essence of survival is incomplete without comparison...
Its always what the other wants and has tat bothers us throughout our lives...
"Why does he have that girl....How did he get that job...How come he is soo rich...Why is she thinner than me...Why is she fatter than me!!"
You always want to better than the other...and no matter how much people say they dont care...they always do get bothered...somewhere...!!!

Anyways...Since the text im writing isnt really going anywhere...i guess i whould start writing something else...
Ohh...yeahh....my wish list for the b'day...
You know...i dont really believe in writing down wish lists...Things should land up in your life...only then its funn...u knw like...when you get just what you always wanted without even telling it to anyone!!
As if it was just meant to be...
(Meant to be...hmmm...funny words...)

But actually...I have made ONE wishlist...still making additions and deletions in it...and it includes some things i think i might never have...and i think will be auto displayed here...
:-)


I have these sudden urge sometimes to have a kid around me...especially after watching JERSEY GIRL...
I think it will be a great thing...
You have this small person caring for you soo much...believing in you...asking you all sorts of stupid questions...and you are a world to him/her...!
It must be an amazing feeling...
I dont say that suddenly im feeling OLD and planning to become a dad (heck...i need a GF b4 that! lol) i guess...its the need to be cared for...to be asked for...to be loved...or....i guess i have just gone OLD!!!

:-(

"Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what happened."
-- Jennifer Yane

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

...The journey...

Its fun sometimes to not know where you are going....I like the idea of wandering into the unknown...exploring aimlessly and just seeing whats ahead...

I strongly believe that your journey shouldn't just be a means to an end...because you will reach your destination anyways...it might take longer or shorter the time...but its the road you walked on that you will remember...and not the place you reached...

I do it a lot...sometimes when i have to go some place....i would just start walking....looking around...getting into the small mysterious lanes...
Of course after a point....you can always ask someone where is the place you are looking for...and there you are...You reached the place you wanted to go...and you also had FUN!

Life shouldn't always be a means to an end...I choose to take the road less traveled...I dont say that life has given me everything i wanted...but i will get it someday...and i might be frustrated i have not got it still...but i know atleast that the ride was a lifetimes experience!

Think about it...

Let's go out and have some fun.
It doesn't matter where or when,
Or what we say or what we do,
As long as it's just me and you.

Let's be together for a while
And get to know each other well,
Exchanging jokes and tales and chatter
Before we get to things that matter.

Let's see what happens when we dance
Across an evening sky, and glimpse
Below the stirrings of a sea
That might--or not--wind-haunted be.

-- Gordon

Sunday, June 15, 2008

In “Fiddlers”, the last of Ed McBain’s 87th Precinct novels, Detective Andy Parker tells Detective Ollie Weeks a story about a little puppy dog walking across the railroad tracks:

“He is a little white puppy dog, and this train comes along, and the wheels run over his tail, and he loses the end of his tail. And he’s very sad about this. So he puts his head down on the tracks and he begins crying his heart out, and not paying any attention. And just then another train comes along, and runs him over again, cutting off his head this time. You know the moral of that story, Ollie?”

“No, what’s the moral?”

“Never lose your head over a piece of tail.”

...On the Rocks...


Sometimes all you need to cheer you up is 30 ml Chivas Regal...I realised that tough i had it for the first time...

Like Varun says...One "on the rocks" really gets you in the party...You are feeling lighter...enjoying the moment...dancing...talking to people you never knew or wont even bother to after the night is over...
Have one of the best night outs in a long time...

Its not the alcohol...its the moment...you just need an excuse to give yourself..to be freee....
Its very necessary to be in control though...better not make a fool of yourself...to yourself!

"Because you are in control of your life.Dont ever forget that.You are what you are because of the conscious and subconscious choices you have made."

Barbara Halls -A Summons to New Orleans 2000

Sunday, June 08, 2008

...Lost...


Lost in a world, that scares me to death,
Lost in a crowd, I'm losing my breath.
Lost as a boy, lost as a man,
I need to grow up, don't think I can.

Lost as a person, can't find my way.
Lost in life, every day.
Lost in worry, who am I?
All my life, I've lived a lie.

Lost to kindness, lost to love,
Lost in a sky, like a new-born dove.
Lost in thought, which I shouldn't do,
It winds me up, I can’t get through.

Lost to comfort, all kind words,
Lost to advice, it isn't heard.
Lost to those who really care,
All these people, always there.

Lost in me, I need a break,
Lost in wonder, which road to take?
Lost in a place I don't know well,
Where are you now? There's no one to tell.

Lost here, all alone,
Lost apart from the mobile phone.
Lost still, there are no calls.
I'm struggling alone, to break these walls.

Lost in mind, lost in soul,
Lost memories, they're just a hole.
Lost family, lost mate,
Gone now, yet I'm full of hate.

Lost in boredom, think I'll leave.
There's a lot in life I need to achieve.

Saturday, June 07, 2008

On being a Gemini...

I would like to believe that even tho your sunsign doesnt really describe you completely..but there certainly are certain traits common between 2 people having the same sunsign...

I think i am a perfect example of my sunsign...!!!


Was on a call with a friend yesterday...and I was going on and on about how life has become a routine...and how i need something exciting to happen....about how CHANGE is inevitable...something new...something happening...something fun...lively....romantic...some change!!!

After a pause...he started laughing loudly on the phone...and then he went on telling me about how he has this other friend who is also a GEMINI and how he was saying the same exact things!!!

Its difficult to be with geminians actually....they can be really irritating & moody (and believe me...they can have mood swings in seconds!!!)
I sometimes think...that even though some of my best friends are geminians...i myself get really really frustrated with them at times!
LOLzzz....

One of my friends who is a geminian calls herself "half mad" and i cant agree with her more...We sometimes do some of the most stupidest things (but with grace mind you! ) and ROUTINE BUGS US!!

Kudos to all the people who have borne me till now...and just in case you have forgotten...my b'day is on June 18th !

:-D

Right now....Im not in a very happy happy mood actually....could use a hug...but then its ok....not that depressed either...
Liked this picture i found on the net...

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Notting Hill...rains...june...and Andrea...!

I have never seen Notting Hill completely...as in...in one go..always wanted to see it from start to end with a nice mood and timing...and with some perfect company...the moment never really came...
LOL

So today i was browsing through my list of cds and found it..
...and so i lay on me bed...with the amazing and perfect company of my pillow and watched the movie start to finish!



I simply love the scene at the garden...
William
: [after hitting his shin on a fence while climbing over it] Now what in the world in this garden could make that ordeal worthwhile?
[Anna kisses him]
William: Nice garden.

Anna Scott: "For June who loved this garden from Joseph who always sat beside her." Some people do spend their whole lives together.
(Anna sits on the bench...William walks away....)
Anna Scott: Come here....sit with me...






So it finally rained today...and i was dancing in public on the railway station hooked to my music...and im simply loving it!!!
June always makes me happy somehow....
I have a lot of memories of the rains....GOOD and WORSE...it has always been fun and a learning phase...thats why i feel that this month will never let me down somehow...

I just feel that...and i know its foolish...this month showers lots of gifts to me...and when it rains...i just feel that somewhere...another gift is on its way...that Life is not that bad after all...and there is someone to take care of you...

Was looking out of my window...enjoyin the rain..and listening to Andrea Corr...what an amazing song...makes soo much sense!

WHAT CAN I DO
By The Corrs

I haven´t slept at all in days
It´s been so long since we have talked
And I have been here many times
I just don´t know what i´m doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There´s only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better
If I don´t try and I don´t hope

[Chorus]

No more waiting, no more aching
No more fighting, no more trying...

Maybe there´s nothing more to say
And in a funny way I´m calm
Because the power is not mine
I´m just going to let it fly...
[Chorus]
Love me...


I love THE CORRS....undoubtedly my favourite band...especially Andrea...she is one beautiful babe who can also play and sing!
I will die for a gal who can play an instrument...or if some one sings to me...its like any guys dream come true...!!!!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

...Shout out loud...

I have realised that no matter how much i want...they will never quite understand me...and i have lost the patience of trying and explaining them each and everything...
Some how...i have lost it to the level that it doesnt really affect me anymore...
I am not reacting to a lot of things around...because i know that things will just faze out...and no matter what you do...people will never understand...
No one really cares what you want...they just need to please themselves..

I am not sure if anyone really understands what i want anymore...and its this very fact that is bugging me...
At work...I am around people with whom i have to mentally patient and calm...with both seniors and juniors...
Was sitting at this corporate house where we had an activity to do...alone...lunch...alone...traveling and commuting...alone...
and its getting on to me...
And after work...dont really feel like going home...and thats strange in a way...maybe i have started disliking both the places equally...i really dunno what it is...
Somewhere i know....some sort of frustration is building up...and its not really about that...coz i have learnt to deal with it...
arrrghhh....i dunno what it really is!

A friend was telling me the other day of how he wont like to go outa this world with that incomplete feeling...and asking me what is to be done other than being patient to get out that feeling...
I answered her with no clue of what i was saying..but it went on something like...
"If you are patient...then hold on...if you get too frustrated and cant take it anymore...just let go...Everything will be fine...with time..."

The smile on the face is still there...very much there...
I really dont know what it is about...

A distant friend...fighting for life...a distant dream...fading away...aimless thoughts...struggling their way...patience...loosing it ground...
Who answers me i ask...I look around...and no one hears...

To insist on one's place in the scheme of things and to live up to that place. To empower others in their reaching for some place in the scheme of things. To do these things is to make fairy tales come true.

~ Robert Fulghum ~



Tuesday, June 03, 2008

There is nothing like a little time for yourself...
After coming home these days...i spend most of the time watchin old episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S or The Wonder Years...after that its music....blogging and browsing around the net...

Now that I have mentioned Friends...I remember when Friends used to actually air during my junior college days...i used to simply love Chandler Bing....somehow found the guy with a funny sense of humour and just one irritating gf a very interesting concept! I like Mathew Perry as Chandler...and love his comic timing...!

Well...thats about that...

I take todays newspaper...and turn straight away to Bombay Times ...

Reading today's news...Amisha Patel got a new boyfriend...(grrrrr!!)
Goddd....why cant people just leave her alone for once!
(SOB SOB!)
:-(

I turn to the next page...
"Reports have it that mostly Katrina and Salman have broken up..."
( YIPPPIIIEEEEE!!! )

One cute gal now available....!!

My dad sees me browsing the papers...
"Whats the most interesting news today....?"

I quickly take the Economic Times...brush through it at lightening speed..
"ummm...Future Group boycotts Cadbury.."

And then i start talking irrelevant stuff about the futuregroup and cadbury...

LOLzzz

Monday, June 02, 2008

A post that doesnt really make sense....

I dont understand sometimes...I have seen relationships of two types...


In the first type...people commit each other considering all possibilities...you know...the usual...security...long lastingness...compatibility to the fullest...no family problems...
The second one...is the one which just happens...there may or may not be security...this one just leads its own way...


I feel...even though i have seen both types NOT working for people...what really is important is just one thing...and i tell this to all my friends who have second thoughts about whether their relationship will work or not...

Its simple...
"Look 5 years from now...do you think you can be the same with this person even if everything...(and i mean EVERYTHING that the world has to offer) around changes...
Be with him the same way...feel the same way..."

Most of the times the answer is..."How can i say that right now...I dont know..."

There you go...
"If you dont know it after being with the person for soo long...either dont think about it...or still if you cant help the second thoughts...you already know your answer"

Thunder only happens when it's raining.
Players only love you when they're playing.
(same is the case the other way)
Say... Women... they will come and they will go.
When the rain washes you clean... you'll know.
~ Stevie Nicks ~

I dont know if i am entitled to conclude such things about a relationship because i have never been in one still...but i just feel that when you are with a person...some things will never change about him/her....and those are the things that decide if you will be with him/her... Circumstances will just decide whether you can be with the person or not...the "things that will never change" will decide whether you will feel the same for the person or no.
Have just started reading this book called "The Under Cover Economist"
It starts with a very good observation...Of how the price you pay for the take away coffee u buy at the vending machine or the cold drinks you get at the retails have a profit markup of about 150% !
If you thought you already knew this (Even i had the same feeling...) what you did not know is that a maximum percentage of the markup goes to "get the competition out"...and this percentage is even more than the cost spent on advertisements!
Now...what i mean by "getting the competition out" is that...the company pays a lot of amount to the retailer or the place owner so that only its brand is kept at the place....especially at places where there is a lot of crowd...
For example....You see that there are a lot of Cafe Coffee Day (CCD) vending machines at CST station...
Ever wondered why Barista never bothered to get in there at a lower priced coffee to give competition...?

Its simple...CCD pays the railways a lumpsum not to allow Barista at the place ...and whats interesting is that...YOU pay the amount for this...
The office going consumers dont really bother when they have to pay a few rupees more for a normal cup of coffee...because its the rush hour n the mornings...and at that moment you dont really have time to think whats cheap...ALL YOU NEED IS YOUR COFFEE!!

Amazing stuff...in a way...what all a company does to stay ahead!
Exclusivity matters...once your are "more like others"....people will fail to notice you...
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