Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Feeling...

Its been long since i have got down to write down...just too much MBA going on...more than MBA i think its the people managing skills that are being toned and its occupying a lota time of my precious life...

There has been so much happening everyday that its becoming difficult to keep a track of everything.
I am loving the change...but there is a lot to be improved and i hope i get over the little left and be the way i want myself to be...Its taking a lot for me...but i have somewhere made a promise to myself that ill do it...more importantly because the change is important for me maintaining some relationships...and i am glad that these relations matter to me so much that they will drive me to overcome the "blocks" in me...

I lot of things have to be jotted down...but i don't know how to...
Have you ever got that "song for the day"???
Its like...you hear a hundred songs in a day...but then...theres this ONE song...and you suddenly feel gooodd....i love that feeling...

This happens with people...you talk to a close hundred people everyday...and then theres this ONE who just makes your day...the funny part is...the song may not be same everyday...the the person is...and i love that feeling!

At times you feel lost...confused with yourself....trying to find out where you are and what you want to do...it bugs you couple of times in a day...that lonely feeling gets so strong sometimes that you wish you were not alone...and that if life was perfect...you would never feel lonely...something like being in love...

I strongly feel being in love is good...but i am done with looking for it everywhere...and now i am pretty sure i have come to a point that i might even avoid accepting it...for the fear of getting it wrong again...and affecting myself...the feeling which makes me feel life's unfair...and where did i go wrong...and i hate that feeling!


I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity.

* Gilda Radner, 1946-1989


I am soo happy about a certain things...it makes you feel nice that the people around are happy...somewhere because you talked to them...and you were there when they needed you...and the problem is...its becoming a bit too much and too many people to handle...and by the end of the day...somewhere i feel drained out...and it bugs me that this leads to the sour feeling of loneliness..its momentary though...but still...i dont want it...and i hate that feeling!

I am hoping life has something really good to offer me sooon...coz somewhere i need it...
I want life to unfold positively...and with full of happiness now..i need a gift from life...for being fair and just...and as good a person as possible...and then ill loveeeee that feeling!

"Think of a car driving through the night.The headlights only go a hundered to two hundred feet forward,and you can make it all the way driving through the dark,because all you have to see is the next two hundred feet.And thats how life tends to unfold before us. If we just trust that the next two hundred feet will unfold after that....in the right way...and the next two hundred after that,your life will keep unfolding the way you want it...and eventually you will reach you destination. The catch here though is...its only you who can avoid the bumpers and potholes. The catch is "identifying" these potholes..."


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