LOVE!!!!!!!!! a VIRTUAL WORLD........a world i lived in once.....believed in once, BREATHED it, SLEPT it, WOKE up wid it, ATE wid it, DRANK wid it, my left wz wid it my right wz wid it, top wid it, bottom wid it, it was wat defined me as a person the most important purpose of my existence, the reason God gave life to me......until the day he told me that hez gonna hafta take all that away....my breaths, my sleep, my food , n drinks, and all that i ever knew existed in that world!!!! it was not until that day that i realised that wat i was living for the past five n a half years, wat actually a bubble, which he just pricked wid a needle in one go and "POP" it bursted, and my entire world fell apart and i HIT rock botom!!!!! wn i rmmbr those days, it still sends a shiver down my spine even to this day, although its been almost a year now. i wake up in the middle of the nigh screaming in fear, coz my mind still thinks he is there, and while sleeping i still live in that virtual world of LOVE, i make myself dream about those intense times of being madly in love, but somehow even while sleeping, the reality strikes and my dreamz take a disasterous angle and have me scream and wake up in a pool of tears!!!!! takes me almost an entire day to believe that "it was just a dream and is over....now now, thats okay.....i'm fine....." :)
wat is TRUE LOVE???? there was a time it used to be my religion, i worshiped this word but now i feel i'm an atheist and u'll hear me say things like LOVE IS JUST A HORMONAL IMBALANCE, ITS JUST AN OVERDOZE F THE SAME PERSON, ITS JUST A STATE OF MIND!!!!!!! what does SOULMATE mean if not that wat i thot it did????? if it doesnt mean that, then i'm certain that its JUST A MYTH!!!!!!!!!!! :)
n yes prasad.....COMPLEXITIES of the so called NORMAL LIFE, are way too COMPLEX to comprehend!! :)
herez a piece f my poetery that i rote jus yesterday!!!! :) "GET OVER IT......MOVE ON!!!!" It was all I ever breathed, ate, drank, slept, woke up, each night and each day....... Until the day he came to me and took them all away.......... Paralysed I felt inside out that day when he was gone....... All everyone ever told me was.... "Get over it....Move On!!!!!" They all were hurt cz they loved me too but did they kno wat that means...... Taking a fish outa the water and askin her, to grow lungs it seemed!! Did not kill me, chopped my limbs off and just left me there..! I would not even care to see the hunderds of ppl who would still care!!!!! If the wound wz skin deep, it sure would heal and i would reach my goal........ But the dagger dug into my flesh went ryte upto my soul!!!!!!!!!! Its been a while it should be over.....technically YES I should say.................. but it still stays lik "a crushed flower that never blooms but leaves the perfume on the hand it was crushed on".....all through the way!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel at times i'm almost there......so close to the dawn..... but then something happens, it all goes away and all everyone still says is "Get over it....Move On!!!!!"
-------By MISHA!!!!!! :)
P.S: Prasad sweetumps....u cn use ne f my pics whenever u feel lik!!! :) Nethin for u dear frn f mine!!!! love U!!!!! :)