Monday, December 24, 2007

New year....COMING SOON!

Love this pic...it seems just perfect...and reminds me of some incidents of the past...
So finally saw Taare Zameen Par...
must say...its a good movie...but not at all great...not worth the rave its getting from people...especially after Aamir Khan commenting on Sanjay Leela Bhansali and calling BLACK to be "manipulative"...
TZP is just too slow and goes no where till three fourth of the movie is done...
Plus..you always have higher expectations when its an Aamir Khan movie...
Anyways...no sweat...

New year plans making and breaking...dunno at the end where we will land and party...but I am just glad all of my engineering grp is meeting...atleast those who are here...

Someone asked me the other day about my new years resolution...and i was thinking about the things i want to change about myself...right now...well...theres nothin as such...(LOL...not that i am perfect....but for now...just let me be ME!)


Was thinking of how my life has changed...and all i see is this "someone" drawing an abstract painting whose message im still trying to figure out...
Though i would like to believe that with everything happening in my life till now...there has to be MORE...
As Sanjai always says..."There is something BIG waiting to come..."


I am really looking forward to the next year...hope 2008 brings in what i have been really longing for...
After the final no there comes a yes
And on that yes the future world depends.
No was the night. Yes is this present sun.
- Wallace Stevens, "The Well Dressed Man with a Beard"

Friday, December 21, 2007

I hope you had the time of your life...

Green Day - Time Of Your Life

Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.

Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.

So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.

It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
and still frames in your mind.

Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
and dead skin on trial.

For what it's worth,
it was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

(music break)

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

...Irresponsible...


"Every position you get in life comes with a responsibility....and you cannot make excuses to defend yourself unless you have a valid explanation..."

Friday, December 14, 2007

Luck/Friends

Exams done...and winter project not starting for another few days....so...
All i have on my TO DO list is...EAT....SLEEP...SLEEEP more...
Need to exercise too...have put on a lot of weight!!! (But exercising will be done only if i get 27hrs in a day...coz the rest 24hrs im just sleeeping these days...!)

Ohhh...and i feel like dancing too in between times im not sleeping...just the new years spirit i guess...
Found this poem on LUCK...a must read...

Hard Luck

Ain't no use as I can see
In sittin' underneath a tree
An' growlin' that your luck is bad,
An' that your life is extry sad;
Your life ain't sadder than your neighbor's
Nor any harder are your labors;
It rains on him the same as you,
An' he has work he hates to do;
An' he gits tired an' he gits cross,
An' he has trouble with the boss;
You take his whole life, through an' through,
Why, he's no better off than you.

If whinin' brushed the clouds away
I wouldn't have a word to say;
If it made good friends out o' foes
I'd whine a bit, too, I suppose;
But when I look around an' see
A lot o' men resemblin' me,
An' see 'em sad, an' see 'em gay
With work t' do most every day,
Some full o' fun, some bent with care,
Some havin' troubles hard to bear,
I reckon, as I count my woes,
They're 'bout what everybody knows.

The day I find a man who'll say
He's never known a rainy day,
Who'll raise his right hand up an' swear
In forty years he's had no care,
Has never had a single blow,
An' never known one touch o' woe,
Has never seen a loved one die,
Has never wept or heaved a sigh,
Has never had a plan go wrong,
But allas laughed his way along;
Then I'll sit down an' start to whine
That all the hard luck here is mine.

...Edgar Guest


Met some of the old office friends yesterday...
Some people in your life just come to stay...
I mean...I dont understand how this works...how does one make friends really???
People just jump into your life....from nowhere...and there they are...!!!
amazing isnt it?
:-)
Try finding the relation between the two...LUCK...and FRIENDS...

Saturday, December 08, 2007

Welcome...to the party come welcome...

Pretty much relaxed now...exams almost over...the remaining are not that difficult...no studies required atleast...
Had a great fulfilling lunch with the college gang after exams...YUM YUM YUM...
:-)


Was thinking today about the "haves" and "haves not"...
I look at some people in college these days...many of them i hardly know that well...
but...they have stories behind them that i know of which i cannot mention here...some funny...some everyday situations...some intense....
And I see their life changed right now...Its different from what it would have or could have been...

Its because of situations...choices...i dunno what it is...
I think sometimes.."what if this would have happened with me...what if i would have been there instead..."
Life would be different...

Some things around me dont affect me...some things however it you hard...
Just a thought though...observe people around you...and think of the choices they made in everyday situation...some which made them happy...some which made them sad...
and just THINK...what if you had been in their place...what if you had made that choice...what if you were LIVING that life....

See the world from a different EYE...It gives you a lot of insight...



Friday, November 30, 2007

Excuse 4 not blogging and Expectations...

...Exams ON...
and bored of it now...
soo many papers..NIL preparation....just dragging it....

Looking forward to better and happy days...
Life in MBA has been good...could have been better....great rather....but i guess i just over expected something from this course before knowing about it...


Expectations is a matter of huge debate...
Your life is a flow of expectations...expectations from friends...family...and its all about who is expecting more than the other....

I have learned from my recent experiences that expectations need to be reasoned out...
You cannot expect more from a person than he/she can offer...and thats the bottom line...even if it is not just...not valid in the situation...not practical...but then...thats the bottom line...and it ends there....
So better be ready for it when u know your expectations arent going to be fulfilled...be prepared...
You are not wrong...the expectations you hold are not wrong...just that...there always have to be ups and downs...

Well...too much of exam effect rubbing off i guess...
still 6 more papers to go...arrrggghhh!!

I am having this great feeling of positivity...i dunno why...
(definitely not bcoz of the exams!!!! LOL )

Monday, November 12, 2007

...Diwali lights...


Have had one of the best times in the past week...
the time passes....
..... memories remain....


I wish the time stays once in a while...just to feel the moment...


Missing people is worth it when they return...to give you a time of your life!
:-)

Friday, November 02, 2007

You gotta be "kidding"

Time just flies by...I remember telling myself once that i will give everything i do my best shot...

Had a presentation the other day...and I somehow wanted it to be perfect...
Just dont think it went upto the mark...
I dont want to blame anyone...its better people realise their mistakes on their own...if they dont..well...its their loss...
Somehow when the presentation isnt satisfactory...all the efforts just go WASTE...in a matter of seconds...
and thats exactly where it hurts!
must get used to it now i guess...

Had very less sleep yesterday...frustrated with mom and dad...its so difficult to keep everyone happy these days...and for now...i just chose to ignore...and let it be...

The village trip to Kashedi was an experience...and ill stick to the word experience...without mentioning good or bad...

This is the first time in my life i dint remove my camera for pictures on a trip...somehow...jut dint want any memories of this thing...but i know it has taught me a lot...about expectations and otherwise...

The trip also made me realise how shallow a thinking people can have...and how people can be plain JEALOUS...trying to pull a person down...without realizing that apart from acting like kids...they are just making a fool of themselves...
LOL...i just laugh at these people...they dont even know me...i wonder...what will happen to their jealousy when they actually know what i have achieved and my credibility...
LOLzzz


Anyways...there is more to life than all this...and right now...i am just tooo excited about it!!!

Welcome to each coming second....I am ready for you...
:-)

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

...fast fwd...

Life has geared up...Its become tough...irritating...frustrating...and all the words you can put in for me to tell you i am bugged!

Not that i hate it....but things are happening which i dont want to be a part of...because i dont really need them right now...
I know my goal...let me just achieve that...
I wonder how come the most supportive people create a block in your life...almost suddenly...not that they mean to...but it just happens i guess...and life is about living through these challenges...

Change is good...but it shoudnt be your destiny...
I have always got the things that i really want the hard way...and i have gotten used to it...
BUT I CANT COMPROMISE ON MY SUCCESS...i just wont let anyone take that away from me!

You try to be the best son...the best friend...the best colleague...the best social being...but then if you are loosing out on what YOU really need....its just not fair!

If this is destiny...i really dont need it right now...

A friend told me yesterday....
"When you are around...how can someone not open up..."
I smiled.

Glad that i am what i am...it makes me feel good about myself from the inside...

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Just Lines...



Will: I didn't ask for this.
Sean: No, you were born with it. So don't cop out behind "I didn't ask for this".

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Lambeau: Sometimes I wish I had never met you. Because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there....!

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Chuckie: Every day I come by your house and I pick you up. And we go out. We have a few drinks, and a few laughs, and it's great. But you know what the best part of my day is? For about ten seconds, from when I pull up to the car and when I get to your door, cause I think, maybe I'll get up there and I'll knock on the door and you won't be there. No goodbye. No see you later. No nothing. You just left. I don't know much, but I know that.

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Sean: You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.


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Sean: Do you have a soul mate?
Will: Define that?
Sean: Someone you can relate to, someone who opens things up for you.
Will: Yeah, Chuckie.
Sean: Chuckie's family, he would lie down in fucking traffic for you. I meant someone else who isn’t family....

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Lambeau: You're angry at me for doing what you could have done but ask yourself, Sean. Ask yourself if you want Will to feel that way, if you want him to feel like a failure.

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Sean: Oh, you arrogant shit! That's why I don't come to the goddamned reunions 'cause I can't stand that look in your eye. Ya know, that condescending, embarrassed look. You think I'm a failure. I know who I am, and I'm proud of what I do. I was a conscientious choice, I didn't fuck up! And you and your cronies think I'm some sort of pity case. You and your kiss-ass chorus following you around going, "The Field's Medal! The Field's Medal!" Why are you still so fuckin' afraid of failure?

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Monday, October 22, 2007

Knowing people...

Being a good person is hard i have heard...
I have always tried to be one...Dont quite know if i have been good enough...

Madhura always tells me i am a good boy...and she is pleasantly surprised of the fact that..even though i am an engineer...i am good..( dont know wats the relation tho...an engineer and being good...LOL...)

Well..I dont know...they say there is an evil in all of us...I have tried to supress it to the uttermost...thats all i have to say...
But i dont think everyone thinks i am good and noble...Not all can....there is nothin 100% perfect...and even i am HUMAN...NOT PERFECT!!

I have done things in my life i shouldnt have....and some of them have been definitely wrong in some peoples eye...
But primarily...they have deeds which i have found right and have believed in...
For me...What according to me is WRONG will always be WRONG....there is no substitute for it...same is the case with the RIGHT thing...

Varun told me the other day...
"Never ever REGRET about anything if you believed in what you did...Never say 'IF ONLY'...coz...what you do...you do it from the heart..."
That sentence has just changed the way i look at things....


Wednesday, October 17, 2007

USED...THROWN

I see this beggar at the station everyday....Small kid of abt 12 yrs or so...People actually know him now...the regular commuters i mean...

No one really gives him any money...What caught my attention about this guy is that....people actually make fun of him everyday...they hit him...force him...tease him...
And all this guy does is ask for money....

Its soo frustrating...The feeling of being USED and THROWN as per convenience...even more irritating is the fact that you choose not to react...whatever the reason maybe...In this case of course...because the guy has no money...not much he can do to people...

GET OVER THE EVIL....EVERYONE HAS A SELF RESPECT...TRY AND UNDERSTAND IT...WHEN YOU MAKE FUN OF SOMEONE...YOU ARE LOWERING YOUR OWN IMAGE AND SELF ESTEEM SOMEWHERE....IN FRONT OF SOMEONE....


I have given few people a second chance in my life...and i have asked for one from a fewer ones...
They say that life is all about the strings you choose...I guess someone just chose the wrong one...and may be...things just wont be the same again..and maybe that is what is meant to be...or may be not...only time should tell...

I am happy about a good thing i did today...Gave a college friend a b'day gift i had promised her...and i feel sooooo happy abt it!!!!!
:-)

Monday, October 15, 2007

Time

too much work to be done...too little time...
i dont wanna think....but i cant stop thinking....ill die...
I make no sense...i know...but sense isnt to be measured anyways...
(WTF!)

LOLzzz

Its going to be a frustrating and tasking week...jammed with tests and submissions...
I am ready for it....it is a challenge in a way....but cant wait for it to get over...!

I am glad the situation at home is a bit better now...that has been irritating me even more all week...
College just seems messed up somehow still...and things arent quite clear...and it does bother me sometimes...but thanks to Saumya's blunt answers...I have learnt to take it in my stride!!!
LoL
I still hate it tho....coz it reminds me of my engineering days...and I soooo dont want to get back to all that...

People say i get too serious about things...I say...Cant help it...Thats the way i am...and its hard to change me now...
:-)

"You are alive. So LIVE."

A lot of things to look forward to....
Two of my very close friends...Soniya and Chikki coming back in December....cant wait to meet them !!!!!

...And then of course.....theres the big WEDDING!!!
Wooohooooo!!
:-)





Sunday, October 14, 2007

Being "ME"

People are changing around me...They seem to have changed their priorities...or just maybe failed to understand what is right and what is wrong...

It will affect them...And I thought about it...whether i should adjust to this and just accept things...without reason...
Because if i do...I wont be myself....And I have let go of people influencing me...

I will do what i always have wanted to do...I REFUSE THE CHANGE...

I have always been there for my friends...and I always will be...because you cant change what you feel for a person as per situations and surroundings...if you do...then i think you never can be a good friend...

A friend from college had called today...and he told me his problem...I talked to him for about 20 mins and consoled him...
I knew somewhere that i am not in the mood to console and comfort someone else...but I am glad i did it...and I am even more happy that it came to me naturally...
Dont worry Amit...Everything will be just fine...

I am always there...hope this goodness returns to me someday too...somewhere find the need for it now...

"The search for the truth is the most important work in the whole world — and the most dangerous"

Friday, October 12, 2007

Tonsils and fever

Was down with fever today...

I went to my Doc for some medicine and skipped morning lectures...


Doc: "Ohh....Tonsils...they are bad this time...you had something cold to drink??"

Me: " Yeahh....maybe...But im down with fever too...the tonsils arent botherin me that much..."

Doc: "Yes...thats wat...the fever is because of the tonsils!"

I just looked 2 mins at him with a blank face...I remembered the incident...
"Whats the relation between tonsils and fever ??? Your Doc must not know anythin... " i had told her...

And then...I just burst out laughing....

After reading this...You might just not get the joke in this...but somehow...this post is for me...and the joke also....for me...
:-)
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I wonder if the friendship is dead...somehow....there is no life left in it...people are too angry to realise what they really want...
I know exactly what i want...but i have to take care of my self respect...and even more than that...about others self respect...because...i dont want to force anything on anyone now...even though i knw somehow that is what is best....that is what is...COMPLETE...
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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Thats it !!!

I have had enough of this now...You care about some people in your life...you want to know and help them out...but things just go bad...
I never intended to be where I am right now...I guess i was not taken in the proper way...WAS JUST TRYIN TO B A FRIEND....help someone out...

I thought about it today...and i realized i too might have made a mistake...and guess the situation now is out of hand...

I have been ignored and avoided too many times now...the situations may have been different but i hav had it with all this...right from engineering days...People acting according to their own convenience...what they dont understand maybe...is that friendship is not done according to your convenience...
arrghh....watever...i am not supposed to tell people what to do and what not to...!!!!
Maybe that was why i behaved this way...the fear of being ignored again...

I have triggered some things to seriously irritate...I know i have entered a space i shouldnt have..and somewhere i did expect too much too soon...but i just wanted to be there and help someone out...never expected or intended it to go this way...But i am glad at least others are not getting ignored and disliked...

I am glad Varun said i am one person among our college friends who has not changed...but somehow i feel i should have changed...I agree sometimes with my Mom when she says that me valuing my friends more than anythin else could be harmful...but i just cant help it...!

It affects me...Yes it does...because this is exactly what i wanted to avoid ...
May be i put in too much emotions here...but they just came out i guess...beyond my control...and now...as much as i dont want to...will have to keep and pull them back...and like i said before...put them at the right places and with the right people...

Pramod ( THE PALMIST) read my hand today again..LOL
He says ill achieve something big when i am 26...He also says im gonna earn too much in a short span of time...
It just brings a smile on your face...because i know it may not be true...but still...it feels good to hear nice things abt yourself...
:-)
oh yess...I am also sooo happy to have made a sister in college...!!!


Thank you for these moments...ill remember them all my life...

For now...
i have a lot many things to worry about...because i want to accomplish what i set out for...and i will do it...i just know i will...

I wish though that things will be back to normal again...cant put in words how deeply i want it to be normal...
Only time should tell...else...you always have abrupt endings...dont you...

For now...its about SELF RESPECT....and i totally understand...

Monday, October 08, 2007

Step One...

HE had warned me about how my anger will affect me...
I told him how it has grown on me...cause of the situations i had faced...where without being aggressive we wouldn't have been able to stand up for the right...

I hate the impulse it brings...and i know it affects me more than others...There is no excuse for the wrong...and so this has to be controlled...and this is the open realization and learning for it...
I WILL CONTROL MY ANGER...MY REACTIONS...MY IMPULSE...

Because...if i have given up the past....this goes with it...and i am hopin soon enough...

"However good an artist really is...the thought that his art will leave him some day...that the talent will just fade away...always haunts him throughout his life..."

Interesting day today...some things worth noting...

* There will always be people in your life who will care for you more than you would ever have thought of caring for them...and they might or might not say it to you ever!
* Contrast to the above,There will always be people in your life who you care about more than they could ever...and maybe you might never say it to them...

Both statements mean the same technically....but they vary in some way...they vary where it really "matters"...

Saturday, October 06, 2007

L O N E L Y

Life has been unfair...
I know it has..it always will be...and yes...i am done thinkin abt the past...The future awaits me...and the FOCUS OF LIFE is testing me....

"Think of marketing as the biggest heartbreak you ever had...and think about how u felt...compare it with the failure u have when you lose out on a sale...that feeling of what went wrong...thats the passion you should have for marketing..."

There are some things that i hate about the man who said this...some things about him which i find unethical and unforgivable...but he does talk sense...and i can sometimes relate to his talks...

The passion is driving me...I know exactly what i am here for...and i know what and where i want to be...
But there are still some questions that need answers...but may be i dont need to know them for now...



I feel like i am hurting someone these days by my actions...I dont want to really...and i seriously dont know what i am doing wrong...I dont want it to be this way...and it hurts me i cant do anythin abt it...But somehow...i dont know if the person is bothered or if i have done something to annoy...somewhere though...things arent the same...and i dont know the real reason for it... but i also dont know why i blame myself for it...


I saw these two little kids in the train while returning home...and one of them just held my finger and started laughing...It felt really nice to see that smile...sorta relaxed me for the 5 mins i was with them....
The unfair Life is also beautiful...if only the beginning and the end were more CLEAR...

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

...I hope you dance....

I just love these lines....
They just energize you in a way...with H O P E...and a feeling that something positive awaits....


"I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,
I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin might mean takin chances, but they're worth takin
Lovin might be a mistake but it's worth makin
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,
I hope you dance....."


Monday, October 01, 2007

Sleeping to life...

There is little difference between what is meant to be and what really is...when it comes to LIFE...

I have realised that not all people that come into your life can be your best of friends...and that is exactly what the problem is..You care for people...but its not really necessary they care the same amount for you....they might not even bother sometimes...
And thats a bit frustrating at times...When you don get the same response...its not as if its expected...but u feel sometimes that it has to be two ways...
After a point of time though....you just stop bothering...because...you have a life of your own to lead...



Ever wondered how a dream at night sometimes always feels like a lifetime...Its like you have lead another life ....in some other world...with matters not needing or deserving explanations...
I have been having such dreams these days..
The funny part is....I AM LIVING A LIFETIME...Its something i cannot put up right here...but its just something that seems like another perfect world...
Its bothering me somewhere at the back of my mind though...because..i cant make out anything out of these dreams...
Dreams shouldn't be analyzed as they say...but when they revolve around the same thing....i think you need to take notice...
Why do the most amazing things only happen in dreams??


I am fearing a few things...but that doesnt stop me from being who i am or doing what i do...but it does keep the fear alive..because...somewhere i know that even though LIFE and PEOPLE cannot influence me...What if it just DOES take me back to the road i dont want to travel again?

Its a hard choice...but then....the problem is always CHOICE....
:-)

Monday, September 17, 2007

Im sold....

Had another workshop on communication skills today..It went on for like hours and i was hardly interested..
And it wasnt because it was boring....but by now...i have attended almost a 100 such workshops...and they just talk the same thing in a different way....

I liked the way the guy said "Im SOLD".
He was talking about customer satisfaction and how if you satisfy even 3 outa 10 expectations of a customer...the customer is SOLD to you...

There is so much deeper thought to these words..."Im SOLD"....It potentially means you have been taken over by something...and you are theirs forever....
It also means that since you are sold...the person might have fooled you in some way or the other...because...after all he is doing business...and business always has PROFIT...

This phrase reminded me of the episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S...where after Chandler has got a date...he comes to his friends and says....

"PRICK A FORK IN ME....IM DONE!!!"

love these phrases....they are short....but they mean so much....

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Being in control....

I have always believed that money will always return when you give with a heart...and dont think much about it..
Yes...it definitely doesn't mean that you spend aimlessly...
I value the importance of money...coz i know how much and what it takes to have your monthly salary credited in the bank account.
I pity those who don't really value their pockets...Coz...maybe they have never had to...but I feel...There comes a time in everyones life when MONEY really matters....


Caught up with some old engneering college friends today...
Its always a great feeling...to meet some of the most amazing people in my life....Somehow...Life without them is incomplete...
I knocked Unmeshs door...and was waiting for him to answer it...
And i remembered all the fun we had during project meetings and the occasional no reason night outs....
ahhh....it was sooo good!!

Harry and me were discussing today...about how we are 23...and how it sounds blodddy OLD!!!!
lol
And he brought up a very good point...
"You never ever thought right....that when you are 23...your life will be like this...."

"Yeahh....Not even in the wildest of my dreams!!! I mean...lets just not discuss whether it is good or bad....right or wrong....It is what it is....but somehow....I thought...life at 23 will be...well...
MORE IN CONTROL!!!"

:-)

Monday, September 10, 2007

...Think...



Have no shame in being kind and gentle, but if the time comes in your life to kill for success,
kill and have no regret.
In the time of your life, L I V E — so that in this wondrous time you shall not add to the misery and sorrow of the world,
but shall smile to the infinite delight and the mystery of life.

William Saroyan


The above words seem hard hitting....but they leave a state of mind thats worth thinking over....


Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Disconnected.

There are times in your life...when the best of things just go wrong...
Ask me how to mess up a perfectly natural and normal presentation...!!

Had this task of talking for 5 mins and i sucked...!
Such things never happen to me...I guess i needed this...and im glad this happened...soon enuf...

I have been feeling a bit disconnected these days...
I dunno what it is...if its something i am missing right now...or the want of something i don have...just something...disconnected (cant find any other word for it)

I remember Amey asking me the other day....

"Whats wrong dude?"
"nothing man...nothin at all....",I said.

Amey looked at me.
"You know dude...i know you from day one of college...and u were not like this when u started...You wanted to bring in people...Now....I just feel you are running away from everyone..."

I just thought at what he said....Its not that im running away....But yes...there is something missing....something is not right...I feel the need for more...

Its perfect...in a way....but not "right"!

I remembered what Soniya said yesterday...and i have been thinking about it...about what i should do...after all...Shes always right when she advices...!
:-)

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Jobs ahead...

The day started today with a speech by Dr.Kiran Bedi on leadership...

There she was...this woman...talking about her life....about achievement...about humility...duty...about being a leader!

She was inspiring....to the limit that I almost had tears in my eyes when i could relate some teachings to my life...

Some things and words hit you hard sometimes....its like someone just opened up your dreams and placed it right before you for analysis!

Its amazing how good leaders inspire...they help you DREAM.....

The day ended with another speaker...Some alumni from the college....and well....he wasn't impressive at all....
Thats the difference i guess....
All people talk....but only a few INSPIRE!!!


Thursday, August 30, 2007

There are always three perspectives to life....

The first is the right one...the second is the wrong one....

and the third almost always DEPENDS!

And i am not goin to talk abt any of the three....coz.....somehow....its just doesnt make any sense!!

Everything as they say....is "eventual"...and i somehow believe theres never a point in discussing whats right or wrong...

I have never understood how people form opinions....coz they change everyday...and you really have to be narrow minded to stick to just one!


Friday, August 24, 2007

Its nothing personal...its just business...

Came home from college a bit early....apparently....these days 1/2 an hr b4 regular time is early for me...

MBA is fun...and i recommend everyone doing it...its totally worth it!!

Somehow though....i don't quite get all the "pretensions" people have in an MBA college...Whats with all these ppl....????
And all that they are really interested is to just show off how cool they are in the corporate world....!!
I myself may be in this category from a third eye view...dunno...
lolz...But its a gr8 learning experience i must say....

When these people from the industry talk...its all abt MBA....and it feels gr8 to listen to them....
But somehow the term "healthy" competition seems a bit underrated...

After all....
Business just cannot be done with "healthy" competition...Can it ???

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

...Click...

Some people just click don't they...
I realized that its always the first meeting with a person which decides if you are gonna be friends or not....
Just one look...and you know...

What I don't understand though are these complex meetings with people...strange acquaintances...interesting situations...The gal you accidentally met at the coffee place...the guy you met in the train who was reading the same book as you...and many more...the list is long....

What i always find is that....however interesting these situations and meetings are....they always end abruptly an somewhat....INCOMPLETE..
And ironically...the people i meet through such complex situations...are probably the best people i wud love to hang around with...but that rarely happens...

Have accounted some really "complex" meetings recently...some of them really funny and interesting..Lets see where they lead to...hopefully not another abrupt end...!

Had an off today...and was really excited yesterday abt it...
Slept till 12 in the afternoon...and then realized had bloody NO plans for the rest of the day!!
lolzz...so preferred goin to college instead!! lolzz

There is a thing bothering me at the back of my mind...and i prefer to get over it...and i hope i do...soooon!!

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


~_Prasad_~: apparently....i sometimes feel....thers a lot more to do in life mann...and a hell lot of things u will never do!!

Sanjai: woh to hain....

~_Prasad_~: like....i dunno...like...SURFING!!! mann...i wud like to try that some time!!
lolzz
....and i havnt even learnt swimming yet...!!

Sanjai: no big deal....if its written ...up ther ...ur wife might teach u ...think about all the fun involved

~_Prasad_~: LOLzzzzzzzzzz

Now thats a really good way to look at it!
:)

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Being Homer...

Doing virtually nothing these days at home...waiting for college to start...
My daily schedule for at least another week will be...

Sleep....net....sleep....read....TV....sleep....Net....and then more sleep.....!!!! (LOLzz)

I have been trying to understand this whole process of doing whats RIGHT....or rather...doing whats supposed to be right...
And this "right" thing goes something like this....

People with bad scores at entrances...will enter into better and best colleges...its a cake walk...coz...apparently....you dont need a score for a seat at a management institute...all you need is MONEY...or...better still...you need to be "reserved"(No point explaining this!)....

So these ppl...who have "rightly" got seats in top institutes will pass out in 2 yrs...and most of them will land with packages close to 7-10 lakhs....
That sounds soo right...just about perfect.....

Now lets talk about the "wrong" people...people with bad scores have no choice...they can stay in hell for the rest of their lives.....
The "wrong" people who have got descent scores (I come in this category!) and cant pay money (yeahh...a "small" amount like 8-20 lakhs cant be shelled out by these ppl under this category....how pathetic rite??) have to settle for whichever college they get.....they might even get placed after passing out...but they will have to settle for a package of 3-4 lakhs...and no chance of getting a desired profile at job...

So basically....The wrong people have to compromise on their packages of 7-10 lakhs for the right people...just because they dint have money in the first place!!!
yeah.....thats soooo LOGICAL!!!!
Obviously.....if we "wrong" people are so worried abt bad packages...we should waste one more year and score more right!!!!
Why should the poor "right" people suffer because of us????

LOLzzzzzzz

Ohh yess....and not to mention....these right people will sit on your head after passing out and tell you...."This college is not worth doing MBA from...."

btw...watched the Simpsons Movie recently....its simply amazing!!! Must watch if you are a simpsons fan...
:-)

What else.....well...Have you ever felt the urge to avoid someone...not because you are angry...not because you are mad with the person in question...and all the other natural possibilities for you to avoid speaking to a person...Its just that feeling of not wanting to open the already closed doors...hardly explainable..

Saturday, August 04, 2007

...Gone...

Last day at Godrej arrives...
now a new beginning...into a new life...strange things happen...some hard to explain...some which have explanations...but better not be talked about...

My last mail from the Godrej mail id...

Dear All,
Today is my last working day at Godrej.

It was a wonderful experience to work with this organization especially with amazing people like you all.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank you for all your guidance and help in the days I spent here.
You have been kind enough to support me through this learning phase of my life and extend your utmost affection towards me.
I carry this experience with me which will really help me for my future.

All these memories will remain with me throughout my life and I have you people to thank for it.
I will never forget this Godrej Family!

Please note my following contact details to be in touch.
E-mail:- prasad84@gmail.com


I wish you all the best in your future endeavors and hope that our roads will cross again in this path of life…


Thanking You Once Again !!!

***********************XXXXXXXXXXXX*********************************

Tears havent really rolled out as yet...coz i know i will be in touch with my godrej family for a long long time...its just hard to forget and let go such beautiful people...

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

The situation is pathetic...I am just watching people with lesser scores getting in amazing colleges...Some through money...some coz they are teh respected and lucky "reserved" candidates [No offence intended :-p]

I am being some what rude to people these days....
and thats only because i want to avoid answering the same lame questions again and again...

"So....what next? You think u will get admission...?? Where are the chances??"
"Why the hell are you leaving your job when you dont have a confirmed seat at MBA ??"
"Why dont you better try next year??"


Damn it...Just two words...B U Z Z OFF!!!
I have more important things and even more troubles and worries to take tension about!

God...!!! How i wish this phase ends fast...someone plz press the FAST FWD button!!!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Damn...

No mood to blog these days....
Hell lot tensed about certain things...and least bothered about a certain others..!!

Damn...this lifes so messy...The whole life i have been struggling with this word called "MERIT"
Bloody...where is the place for merit in India...

No no...Im not fretting...thats what losers do they say...
A winner makes his way through...creates his own path...excels in all difficulties...
i just laugh at these sentences now...
Whatever...have learnt to take things as they come and as they are...
If i lose out at life...ill just blame my LUCK and screw my DESTINY...
LOLzz...

Okk...so if thats settled...i can tell you other things...
Me enjoying last days at Godrej....will never forget this place!!
I cant tell you the fun we have at this "work" place....
and it will be equally hurting to leave this wonderful place....

On other things...

There are people...i cant quite understand or interpret their attitudes...and i am not thinking much about it either....
Though i do wish things were more clear..and things were certainly not the way they are right now...
Someone define "patience" to me...is it synonymous to "being in love"??
If yes...then im very very bad at patience...which equals to me being bad at love...
(LOLz....i hav no idea wat im talking about...)

damn ....this messy life....

Monday, June 11, 2007

Walking in the rain...

...I walk through the drizzle...The wind is blowing across...the music playing loud...

"Aasmaan ko bhi ye haseen raaz hai pasand
Uljhi uljhi saanson ki aawaaz hai pasand
Moti luta rahi hai saawan ki badliyaan...

Baahon ke darmiyaan do pyaar mil rahe hain
Jaane kya bole mann dole sunke badan
Dhadkan bani zubaan..."

and then there are those faint memories of her...
People walking by me...but all i can see is the faint picture of my memories...almost lost....fazed out...but still there...very much there...
I dunno what it is about this weather thats making me think of her...
Or what is it about her thats sooo "always there"...The insecure feeling in my heart when i think about her...and what we could have been...

I try to avoid the foolishness...try to keep myself occupied in aimless conversations with friends...trying to enjoy the moment...
Feel the moment...the drizzle washing away all pains...the smell of first showered land killing all evil...
The picture starts fading out...bringing a smile on my face...

We walk on...feeling the freedom this weather has given us...Its perfect...
.....
.......
..........And then i look back again..........

"Did i leave something behind???"

...I walk through the drizzle
................................................The wind is blowing across
...............................................................................................the music playing loud......

Sunday, June 03, 2007

A sign is all i need...


There are times in everyones life when we have to make life changing decisions...
I am on one such stage of my life right now....

As they say...Too much good happening in life is also a challenge...
:-)

I am very sure what i want to achieve in life...and also what i want to do...But somehow...right now...I NEED A SIGN...!!!

Coz destiny has played with my dreams...and made me lose most games of life...and somehow i have lost confidence in myself somewhere...

But i need to rise...comeback...and win the finals now!!
Just gimme a sign..and ill make my best move...

:-)

Monday, May 21, 2007

Wats in a NAME??

At a training session today...we were asked to jot down in points what all should we consider while buying a house for yourself.
These points had to be further divided into "Must haves" and "Negotiable"
something like...
Budget(for the house) is a "must have"...and something like School nearby the house is "negotiable".

We all had it done discussing in groups...and everyone had almost got in all the must haves and negotiable points.
Mr.Joseph Raj asked if there was anything else u want to add to this list...and then after a moment of silence came a voice from somewhere...

"Sir,I think i would also consider if the building in which im buying a house is Earthquake resistant."

We all looked at him and burst out laughing!!
What the hell was this guy saying...earthquake resistant...how does that matter???

And then came what was one lesson we all had to learn...Mr.Joseph stopped us...
"Its a very good point...If you happen to be living in some place like Surat...this will play a very imp role..."
"Just because you are restricted to your surroundings...dont you ever curb anyone else's thoughts...You could be the biggest loser if you do so..."

The guy continued...
"People...I have done Civil Engineering...If you dont know...let me tell you...this is a very imp criteria...for any house you buy...esp business hubs...and also...that a building can only be earthquake RESISTANT...never can it be earthquake PROOF...If someone says its earthquake proof...they are just taking you for a ride..."

I looked at him and realised...
Yes...Its better to accept sometimes that the person in front of you might know something better...something useful...that you could never imagine...

Mr.Joseph concluded his session today by saying...

"Remember always...Youth is POWER...No matter what you do...wherever you are...you will always remember the time of your life between 20-30 yrs...
So utilize it well...Go ahead with your dreams...The time and opportunity might never come back...!!"


Now thats something to think about....
WHERE DOES YOUR NAME GO FROM HERE...WHO WILL REMEMBER YOU TEN YEARS FROM NOW??

:-)

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

The Stranger...

Have you ever noticed...that there are some people in life...some relations...that can never be defined...

I have known people...they are not just acquaintances...coz they knw quite a bit about you...
they are not "friends" coz they don know enough abt you...
But still...they play such an important role in your life!!

You are walking on the road...you are sitting at a coffee place...you are at work...there are so many people who go unnoticed...
and then there are some...who just come into your life...almost suddenly...

Who are these people...and why are they there???
They could be easily replaced by someone else...or may be not...I dunno...too complicated...

Found this poem the other day...Read it fully and try to get what it means...its too good...


The restaurants on hot spring evenings
Lie under a dense and savage air.
Foul drafts and hoots from dunken revelers
Contaminate the thoroughfare.
Above the dusty lanes of suburbia
Above the tedium of bungalows
A pretzel sign begilds a bakery
And children screech fortissimo.

And every evening beyond the barriers
Gentlemen of practiced wit and charm
Go strolling beside the drainage ditches --
A tilted derby and a lady at the arm.

The squeak of oarlocks comes over the lake water
A woman's shriek assaults the ear
While above, in the sky, inured to everything,
The moon looks on with a mindless leer.

And every evening my one companion
Sits here, reflected in my glass.
Like me, he has drunk of bitter mysteries.
Like me, he is broken, dulled, downcast.


The sleepy lackeys stand beside tables
Waiting for the night to pass
And tipplers with the eyes of rabbits
Cry out: "In vino veritas!"

And every evening (or am I imagining?)
Exactly at the appointed time
A girl's slim figure, silk raimented,
Glides past the window's mist and grime.

And slowly passing throught the revelers,
Unaccompanied, always alone,
Exuding mists and secret fragrances,
She sits at the table that is her own.

Something ancient, something legendary
Surrounds her presence in the room,
Her narrow hand, her silk, her bracelets,
Her hat, the rings, the ostrich plume.

Entranced by her presence, near and enigmatic,
I gaze through the dark of her lowered veil
And I behold an enchanted shoreline
And enchanted distances, far and pale.

I am made a guardian of the higher mysteries,
Someone's sun is entrusted to my control.
Tart wine has pierced the last convolution
of my labyrinthine soul.

And now the drooping plumes of ostriches
Asway in my brain droop slowly lower
And two eyes, limpid, blue, and fathomless
Are blooming on a distant shore.

Inside my soul a treasure is buried.
The key is mine and only mine.
How right you are, you drunken monster!
I know: the truth is in the wine.

By
Aleksandr Aleksandrovich Blok

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Feeling at home...

Was talking to Varun today over the phone...
He was telling me how he was supposedly bored and frustrated of his training at Infosys,Mysore and how he just wanted to come back to Mumbai...the sooner the better...

He was telling me how worst it is to stay away from home...how he misses Mumbai and its flavour...

I just listened...tried to console and show him the positive sides of being at Infosys
(i HATE Infosys tho..all stupid branding goin on...i dunno...mayb coz i din make it to one of the "best" IT firms in India today..)

But i couldnt help wondering...Here I am...trying to get out of this place...this ROUTINE...I would love the change...a new place...a new lifestyle...
Im kinda fedup of this mess....

Ahh...different perceptions...different views....different people...

Some things change every once in a while... Some things never change... Those which never change though...become ROUTINE...


Sunday, April 29, 2007

Music & Lyrics....edited.

She commented on my previous post...and i somehow cudnt keep it just as a comment...
Hence it comes in the front page...read on...



Misha said...

LOVE!!!!!!!!! a VIRTUAL WORLD........a world i lived in once.....believed in once, BREATHED it, SLEPT it, WOKE up wid it, ATE wid it, DRANK wid it, my left wz wid it my right wz wid it, top wid it, bottom wid it, it was wat defined me as a person the most important purpose of my existence, the reason God gave life to me......until the day he told me that hez gonna hafta take all that away....my breaths, my sleep, my food , n drinks, and all that i ever knew existed in that world!!!! it was not until that day that i realised that wat i was living for the past five n a half years, wat actually a bubble, which he just pricked wid a needle in one go and "POP" it bursted, and my entire world fell apart and i HIT rock botom!!!!! wn i rmmbr those days, it still sends a shiver down my spine even to this day, although its been almost a year now. i wake up in the middle of the nigh screaming in fear, coz my mind still thinks he is there, and while sleeping i still live in that virtual world of LOVE, i make myself dream about those intense times of being madly in love, but somehow even while sleeping, the reality strikes and my dreamz take a disasterous angle and have me scream and wake up in a pool of tears!!!!! takes me almost an entire day to believe that "it was just a dream and is over....now now, thats okay.....i'm fine....." :)

wat is TRUE LOVE???? there was a time it used to be my religion, i worshiped this word but now i feel i'm an atheist and u'll hear me say things like LOVE IS JUST A HORMONAL IMBALANCE, ITS JUST AN OVERDOZE F THE SAME PERSON, ITS JUST A STATE OF MIND!!!!!!!
what does SOULMATE mean if not that wat i thot it did????? if it doesnt mean that, then i'm certain that its JUST A MYTH!!!!!!!!!!! :)

n yes prasad.....COMPLEXITIES of the so called NORMAL LIFE, are way too COMPLEX to comprehend!! :)

herez a piece f my poetery that i rote jus yesterday!!!! :)

"GET OVER IT......MOVE ON!!!!"
It was all I ever breathed, ate, drank, slept, woke up, each night and each day.......
Until the day he came to me and took them all away..........
Paralysed I felt inside out that day when he was gone.......
All everyone ever told me was....
"Get over it....Move On!!!!!"
They all were hurt cz they loved me too but did they kno wat that means......
Taking a fish outa the water and askin her, to grow lungs it seemed!!
Did not kill me, chopped my limbs off and just left me there..!
I would not even care to see the hunderds of ppl who would still care!!!!!
If the wound wz skin deep, it sure would heal and i would reach my goal........
But the dagger dug into my flesh went ryte upto my soul!!!!!!!!!!
Its been a while it should be over.....technically YES I should say..................
but it still stays lik "a crushed flower that never blooms but leaves the perfume on the hand it was crushed on".....all through the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel at times i'm almost there......so close to the dawn.....
but then something happens, it all goes away and all everyone still says is "Get over it....Move On!!!!!"


-------By MISHA!!!!!! :)

P.S: Prasad sweetumps....u cn use ne f my pics whenever u feel lik!!! :) Nethin for u dear frn f mine!!!! love U!!!!! :)

Friday, April 27, 2007

...Music & Lyrics...

I am having some pleasant images in my dreams these days...
Things that i somehow wanted to happen in the past...The funny thing is...they appear to go on so smoothly in my dreams...as if everythin was alright...and some how...meant to be! It just appears perfect...!!

I cant argue the fact that i miss her...but i also know that somehow...somewhere i have accepted the truth and i am ok with moving on...
Just don get it tho...the answer to the question,"Why is it this way and not the other?"

I was discussing with my friend how we like to rush to outcomes rather than waiting...The insecurity of a loss bothers us so much that we loose confidence over everything we do...
We just want to know what lies on the other end...And we have developed this attitude only because of reasons known to us...and however hard we try...we have become so insecure that this might last a lifetime!
It has somehow become a part of me...

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end ...

(The credit for the above beautiful pic goes to my friend Misha...May her newly found passion for photography remain alive always...so that i keep gettin such sweet images for free!!
LOLzzz)

Saturday, April 14, 2007

...9 to 5...

With a pile of 300 résumés on his desk and a need to pick someone quickly, my boss told me to make calls to the bottom 50 and toss the rest.
"Throw away 250 résumés?" I asked, shocked.
"What if the best candidates are in there?"
"You have a point," he said. "But then again, I don't need people with
bad luck here."

-- Becky Horowitz

I have always contemplated over the fact that if i have come to this world to do something...to live something...
will it be as simple as doing a 9 to 5 job??
(And those who are presently working...even if you are getting a 50k per month package...just think over this!)

Thats just plain "hard to digest" material for me...and its worries me sometimes...
They say...Its only until you realize what you want from life will u be happy and satisfied...

The word "happy" reminded me of these lines....

You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something
themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want
something? Go get it. Period."

I have this friend and senior at office...He is in 2 minds about leaving his present job for a higher pay package...and he has no probs with his present job except the moolah...
I think this situation comes in everyones life...its like leaving ones second family...for...money!!
The decision is obvious though...we work for money rite...

But somehow i dont like the concept of "working for money"...
Make the money work for you...

I think...each one of us has this ability...to make money work for us...
But what most of us lack though...from the quotes above...is either the right amount of WILL...or just plain old right amount of LUCK!

The point is...
Its not if you get there...its whether you tried...
else of course...you still hav your 9 to 5 job!
;-)



Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Notes...!

A post long overdue i knw...

Din get time to write down the thots...Lets keep it to pts and a cute pic this time...
:-)

  • Found this pic on a mail...and its the cutest i hav ever seen!!!!
  • Felt bad for a friend who had to wait at office on his gf-bf anniversary today...coz...as they say..."Work comes first!" wat crap!! :-(
  • At a random conversation i revealed two of my favorite names for gals...ALIFFIA and REWA..now ppl....don even think of copyin these...i mite just copyright them in a few days!! LOL...i wonder wat the copyrite wud b like.... "THESE NAMES ARE A SOLE PROPERTY OF PRASAD.ANY MISUSE WILL LEAD TO COURT ACTION" LOLzzzz
  • Am in search of something these days...don exactly know wat it is...but it has to be somethin to flaunt about and one which makes me smile evry now n then...
  • 4th April CET results....NO FURTHER COMMENTS!!!
Thats all for now....catch ya soon....!!!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Maybe someday...

Maybe someday my dreams will come true
and finally in life, I'll know exactly what to do.
Maybe someday I'll find my soulmate
and finally learn the wonders of not needing to hate.
Maybe someday life will go perfectly right
and with no problems, I'll be able to sleep at night.
Maybe someday I'll have children, 5 years apart,
and finally be able to mend the hole in my broken heart.
Maybe someday I'll be 6'2, the perfect height
and I'll be able to fly, my soul on a kite.
Maybe someday, I'll really fall in love
and maybe, with good deeds, I'll reach the angels above.
Maybe someday I'll find a true best friend
and I'll learn that some loves can never end.
Maybe someday, everything I've ever wished for will come true,
but will I truly be happy, will I know what to do?

Thursday, March 08, 2007

...Updates...

I have been in a good mood lately...if not gr8...
The positive streak that has come in my life is doing wonders for me i think...
I have now started appreciating the "smaller"...more important things in life...
Its almost like being in love...

The new job at Godrej & Boyce Ltd is gr8...just love being in the office and spending time with my colleagues...wherever i move on...I will never ever forget this phase of life...ever!!!

(LoL..Caught unawares at work...!!)

I hav this poem a friend wrote on my testimonial at Orkut...Its simple...but worth reading...

A friend needs to know
No matter how far apart
That they always will
Have a place in your heart

A friend needs to know
Just how much you care
And they need to know
You'll always be there

A friend needs to know
They have your love and trust
And they need your respect
Like a pie needs a crust

A friend needs to know
That they have your ear
Should they need to talk
To ease their burdens or fear

A friend needs to know
That you have their back
Should they fall in a slump
You will help pull up the slack

A friend needs to know
Through good times and bad
That you'll be there for them
To cheer them up and make them glad

I'M So Happy To Call You My Friend...

On other things....well...
On 9th of Feb occurred a gr8 coincidence...details...will tell ya some other time..
Else..nothin much is happening...
have been taking things as they come...and not expecting much from anyone and anything....
Eagerly waitin for the mba results too...
Lets see wher life goes...
Don worry...ill keep you informed..
[;-)]
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