Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Away from life and love...

Life has suddenly become slow these days....
Had taken a break with friends...freaked out in Goa...and had a really good time...

When you are on a vacation...you are just away from this world...
away from all worries and tensions...thats what vacations are for afterall...arent they??

I dunno how many of you hav tried this...
But try listenin to the waves of the sea sometime...just look at it come crashin to the shore...

(This is a pic i took in Goa...its totally "untampered"...yess....the BLUES are real...look at the beauty of nature!)


Suddenly...a song of the sea starts playin in your mind...and you loose track of everythin around you...the "loneliness" is divine....

Loneliness
It is cold today
Indeed the rain is falling and I am alone.
Thoughts of life and love,
meaningless to anyone but myself.
I am alone.
They watch me, their eyes not knowing,
knowing nothing of what they see.
I am but another creature, alone.
They scurry on the surface, unaware,
unaware of the life below
when you are alone.

Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow,
but a time of solace, of deepness
never to be shared, never to be understood.
They can never reach the place where I am
And I know I will never reach the place where they are.
I know I don't want to reach that place.
True happiness is here, unmisted.
Unmisted by smiles or laughter,
unmisted by the joys of company.

To find true happiness,
to know if one is truly happy,
he must be happy alone.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Its all about the EGO!

People change...or atleast your perception about them does change from time to time..
Two peeople can be the best of friends for sometime...and then...their friendship just drifts apart...

I hav been seeing this goin on between some of my friends lately...and sometimes...the bitterness is so much....that you just cant do anything about it...
and the best solution comes out that...Yeah...let them hate each other for life...

Friendship comes from the heart...If its true and if its meant to last...small fights wont burn it into ashes...But yes...only if its meant to last...

Else...its just a clash of EGO's !!
No one is right or wrong...But then...it comes down to a matter of each ones self respect...

Me and my 2 best friends hav had fights...but in the end...after everythin...We know we will still be best friends...NO MATTER HOW BAD A FIGHT WE HAVE....
Thats FRIENDSHIP for you i think...

I think...anyway...Friends are not supposed to last all your life...they are there with u for a particular phase...
Notice ur phonebook or speed dials....they change after sometime...regularly...in months...years...

Sure...you will always have a good feeling abt certain friends...occassional Hellos wll also happen...
But then...Things wont remain the way they were...

Same is the case with LOVE i think...thats why people fall in and out of realtionships so often...
LOVE or FRIENDSHIP....Both needs a lot of workin upon...to come to the level where 2 people understand each others EGO's and are unaffected by it...

Monday, June 05, 2006

...JO JEETA WOHII SIKANDER...

So engineering is over...and i cant be more glad it finally is...

Life moves on now...and i dunno whether to laugh or cry over this...But life after engineering for me is....COMPLETELY BLANK!!
sure i hav plans...and big dreams....but right now...at this very moment...life is not quite "secured" as it is for others...and its freaky and a hell lot scarryy!!!

Ppl around discussing joinin dates at companies...others on with their visa enquiries and US dreams...
ME...sittin around...watchin them...and thinkin..."what abt me??"

Somehow things in Engineering didnt quite "happen" for me....i wonder why...
I din do anythin wrong...i KNW i din do anythin wrong...

I wonder how things work in this world of ours...
Lemme just analyse things here...
More than 3/4th of electronics in my college reads from MY notes!
Now...i dont take credits for making them or anythin...coz i just copy whats dictated...
my point is...if they read from it...it HAS to be good right...which has to imply that the writer has to b good enuf...
Look at me...not even in the top 40 in ELEX!
I wonder wher the days hav gone wen i was among the top 7 in my class...What did i do wrong here in engineering?

Dont tell me i didnot study enuf...coz i knw i tried my best...i knw and remember the days when i hav slept for less than 5 and a half hrs even when i was down with a freakin migraine...

I know a guy in elex...lets call him AB....
Now...AB is a guy who has things happenin for him...happenin is actually an understatement for him...He has things rolling for him...
And the worst part is....He freakin likes to boast and flaunt around...
Oh GOD! its soo irritating and frustrating....
Studies...Achievements...gals...the guy has a golden spoon on everything...
I am not jealous...no way...but i never boast around so devilishly...
Still things keep happenin for such guys...
and what do i do...
Keep listenin to his flaunts ...what else can i do...
yes...i feel like shoutin at him sometimes to STOP...and just get lost...but i cant do it...

ohh...I wonder what i did wrong...
Somehow...things just dint do right...Did i screw up??Nope...Life screwed me up....

Life dint understand what i wanted from it i think...nor did someone whose name i wont mention...
Ahhh...Life COULD have been so good...

Well...
I told Sanjai this when we were discussin abt AB and his irritating nonsense...
"JOH JEETA WOHII SIKANDER..."
He is thw winner now...he has every right to do as he wants...



But u knw what....The RACE of life hasnt finished yet....
:-)
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