Monday, December 25, 2006

...3 shockers...

I wonder how people can be so shallow....
I have come to knw of 3 BIG news from 3 different friends...all three whom i considered were close...i guess was wrong...

I feel betrayed...more than anything else...and it bloody hurts!!
How can i even call them friends???
They don even understand the essence of friendship...

Right now...i could trust strangers more than these so called friends!

Treachery at its best...

...a lesson in life has been learnt...

Saturday, December 02, 2006

...about priorities...

I cant help but think how things have changed after i have completed my engineering.
I have no idea where life is taking...and thinking abt it and trying to sort things out only baffles me more.
I spoke to her today...and i instantly felt the "change".
Its not the same.
The distance could kill evrything and i have no control over it i guess...maybe cause thats how it is supposed to be.
But yes...its not the same.She maybe just a phone call away...but priorities have changed...maybe for both of us.
And honestly...i have no courage to discuss things...and thats because i myself am not sure about what i want!

I look at the people around me at my work place.And i have come to learn a lot of things about "living" life from them.I still cant digest the fact about how someone can run his family with Rs 6000 per month...and still be content abt it and enjoy his life...
I try to find out then....why am i not satisfied with my pay package...the best the industry gives for a fresher....abt 4 times more than most experienced contracters i am handling...and why cant i do something abt such nice ppl...help them mayb...
I have heard life is unfair...but what decides the level of unfairness???

Yes...i am learning a lot about life these days...just that...there isnt any inference to things...atleast not till now....

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Life should be a song...


I cant believe what music does to you...
God should fit an ipod in evryones brain!
LOL

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

I havent been bloggin much these days i knw...
But i don hav much spare time these days...and nothin exceptionally "different" is happenin either...Also i am really really sorry for not visiting many of my favorite blogs for the past few weeks...

I get to meet all kinds of people on the job...and thats one thing i like about my job very very much!
Right frm the selfish money makers to the humble hard workers...

Life is unfair i agree...we just need to accept it...But sometimes i feel...Our payment system shud be exactly upside down...
The labourer's shud b payed maximum...Its a foolish thought i knw...
But accept it...the bigger post we get...the only thing that "increases" apart from our pay package is...our EGO!!

Think abt it...and respect ur juniors and servants next time they do something for you...
Coz its very easy to command...but its difficult to actually 'lead'....and commanding someone is not leadership...its lettin down the respect of your so called 'position' !

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Got a nice 4 days off frm work coz of Diwali...
But somehow i like being at work than sittin at home...
My idle mind keeps pestering me all the time when i am at home...

All the insecurities keep comin back ...and they just arent ready to go!!!
Ironically...the biggest concern is abt my job...But atleast my work keeps me away frm thinkin abt it!!!

And nothin big happenin in these holidays either...
Damn...i think i hav bcome too much of a pessimist...or its just that God wants to live with COMPROMISE!!
Forget it...i cant wait to go back to work...

Anyways...Happy Diwali to everyone...
May God bless u all!!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

My life has changed drastically this week...
i dunno wher evrything is goin...
be it...Love or Career...

But i hardly have any complaints right now...
All I knw rite now is...
Its WORK WORK and even more WORK....

And yeah...I will be workin over here....


:-)

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Sunrise and Sunset...

I saw these two movies the other day,Before Sunrise (1995) and its sequel, Before Sunset(2004) ...
Both movies are critically acclaimed and were on my "to-be-seen" list for long...

And yes...Both movies are a MUST WATCH!
The story is simple...
Two strangers meet...and they talk...talk and talk!!!

...LOL...

What I liked abt the two movies is that while the first part deals with destined love...abt how two ppl met because it was just written somewhere for them to come accross each other and how they just click!
The sequel however...very convincingly contradicts the same....

I agree there is just too much "talk" in the movies and it might get a bit boring sometimes....actually...thats all that ther is to the the movies...endless conversation...

But the conversation between the two has a lot of depth...

Here are some of the quotes from both the movies which i just loved...
Do watch both movies if ya can get your hands on them...
:-)

"I believe if there's any kind of God it wouldn't be in any of us, not you or me but just this little space in between. If there's any kind of magic in this world it must be in the attempt of understanding someone sharing something. I know, it's almost impossible to succeed but who cares really? The answer must be in the attempt. "
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"Sometimes I dream about being a good father and a good husband. And sometimes it feels really close. But then other times it seems silly like it would ruin my whole life. And it's not just a fear of commitment or that I'm incapable of caring or loving because... I can. It's just that, if I'm totally honest with myself I think I'd rather die knowing that I was really good at something. That I had excelled in some way than that I'd just been in a nice, caring relationship."
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"I know happy couples... but I think they lie to each other! "

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"I don't know, I think that if I could just accept the fact that my life is supposed to be difficult. You know, that's what to be expected, then I might not get so pissed-off about it and I'll just be glad when something nice happens."
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"You know what's the worst thing about somebody breaking up with you? Is when you remember how little you thought about the people you broke up with and you realize that is how little they're thinking of you. You know, you'd like to think you're both in all this pain but they're just like 'Hey, I'm glad you're gone'."

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"Memory's are a wonderful thing if you don't have to deal with the past."

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Jesse: You want to know why I wrote that stupid book?
Celine: Why?
Jesse: So that you might come to a reading in Paris and I could walk up to you and ask, "Where the fuck were you?"
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Celine: You can never replace anyone because everyone is made up of such beautiful specific details.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

I think i have learnt to control my feelings and behave...
At first...may be i used to expect a lot from people...and wanted things to happen...the way i wanted them to be...
Somehow i think this used to affect me a lot...emotionally...

And now i finally realised...You cannot ask ppl to behave the way you want them to...They will do it if they really are interested...And if they are not..then well...THEY ARE JUST BEING NICE...And then came the big thought...
Do i actually need someone to just be "nice" with me...??? huh...I don need ppl who just do things coz they wanna show how good they are...Or rather they do things just because i want and expect them to in a certain way...

Its just disappointing...very very disappointing...
But then...i think i have grown out of it now...

I think its high time for people who really want to do things for me be given a chance...
At least they are honest about what they are doing...

My freind told me once..."If something you do doesnt reciprocate...Its a waste of time..."
I dont think the problem with me is about people not reciprocating...They can be and are very good friends...But maybe i just dont need friendship anymore...

Rather somehow....I cant see myself on the same "level" as your other 'friends'...
It has to be something special...the sole reason bcoz it is frm my side...

Maybe i am expecting too much...but i just cant take it anymore...
So now...I am behaving 'NORMAL'...

Friday, September 29, 2006

...Pink Skirts...

There is something abt skirts...Oh yeah....
Me and my friends were hanging out at Mocha today...
And there was this gal in skirts sitting on the next table...

Ohh man...there is just that spark when a gal is in skirts.
Damn...wat is it abt skirts...They make a gal look so pleasantly cute...!!!
(Sexy...yeah...but i like the "cuteness" factor more...)

A word of advice for all gals out ther...If ya wanna impress a guy...Thers not a simpler thing to do...LOL...
...Its official...No guy can resist them...

[Of course...Wear one only if it suits you...and most importantly...if u carry urself well in them..else you will just make a fool of urself...!!
:-p]

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Eternal Sunshine...

I just love these lines... They just touch the heart in some way...


How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest, that equal periods keep;
"Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;"
Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n,
Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n.




Tuesday, September 19, 2006

A lot of planning..going nowhere...

"I would give almost anything
if I could rewrite the present and future...
Cause in my heart I know that you
should be here with me"

I have come to a realisation in the past few days...
Somehow i dont think "PLANNING" is a good word...It must be removed from the dictionary as soon as possible..
...Its not making any good use of its meanin in my dictionary at least...

I am now begining to accept it...Evrything goes as it is meant to be...And i seriously have no problems with that...
but it would have been easier don you think if you had the map of life i your hands...
;-)

Well... I have decided now...No more..."i want this to happen...i want that to happen..."
Its now changed to..."ohh...so this is happenin....good..."

And that goes to everything i do in life now...Not that i have given up thinkin...But i am beginin to take things a bit more lightly...
It helps sometimes to remain cool i think...

I have been hearing a lot of Career and LoveLife outcomes of people around...
And believe it or not...Not one of them PLANNED where they are today...
careerwise as well as relationshipwise...


Strange still...We are required to PLAN things so often....


Thursday, September 14, 2006

L O S T


I am a bit LOST for the past 2-3 days...So lost that i have almost nth time started and shut down my PC just to make a blog entry!!!
...LOL...

The main reason for this i feel is that many things hapening these days are catchin me by surprise!
I have some news...its seemingly good news alright..but i dunno whether i shud be happy about it...
AAAGhh...better not react to it at all...Let some more time go...
Suddenly...When i had almost let go on my big plans and started studyin for MBA...Job offers and apptitude tests are pouring in...ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!!
Crazy world man...
I dunno what to infer from this...Ok Ok...i give the tests...and i dont mind a good job either...
But common....!!
God has to rain all the offers when i was ready to let go !!
:-P

On top of all this confusion...All my loved ones (including my computer classes ma'am!) are falling sick...Damn the viral fever! :-(
All i did for the past 2 days was sit with the book...or in front of the PC...B L A N K!!

But more on this later...I am back to being lost...

Monday, September 11, 2006

Yesterday,me and my friends were commuting for a test we had to give.
Sunday being a "mega-block" for trains (I dunno what repair-work they do under the so called mega-block on sundays tho...the trains look the same...rusty and old as they always were...) ,the rush in the train was close to a free massage but we still did find a place to sit somehow...

One time travel was enough for us to decide to go by Car for the next test from now on...anything to avoid this mess called TRAIN !!!
So there it was...simple...next time we travel by the most comfortable mode available...and it just matter how much more it will cost...

When we somehow got down...Varun mentioned how spoilt we are...
"We don think twice wen it comes to money...do we...?? I mean...our parents have been traveling everyday through these very trains so that they could give us the comfort of Cars...But we just cant handle it..."

I thought abt what he said for a while...
True...very true...Our parents hav gone through a lot to giv us comfort...But you know what...
...LIVE BIG...DREAM BIGGER...
Our parents commuted by train...gave us a Car...Let us travel by car...and gift them a private JET PLANE someday !
;-)

Thursday, August 31, 2006

So big plans got screwed up...as they always do...

Don worry...We still hav backup plans...though that will require a lot of slogging still to do...I must get used to it now i guess...
So i am gearing up all the +ive energy i hav left (i wonder if ther is anymore left tho...LOL..) and lookin forward to the inevitable and unavoidable sloggin in my life...he he he...

People are funny...So are relationships...
There are some things you cant explain...Coz then they seem very obvious to explain...

There are some things which are like that bitter truth...You knw it will hurt to accept the truth...so you just keep covering it up sayin "Okk...A little more time..."

And then there are some feelings which you try to avoid and still cant run away from...
How can you curb them i ask even when the person doesnt seem interested at all....?!!?

You live your dreams...but dreams may die,
Dont get shatterred...never ever cry,
The world is big and has lots to give...
And that my dear...
is the way to LIVE !!

I wont say i believe in the above words anymore...but they do sound inspirational nevertheless :-)

Song on the player: "Stand By Me..." by Ben E. King (Mann....what a song..!!)

Saturday, August 26, 2006


There are some songs which are not one of your favorites but they sometimes just touch your heart and leave a shiver behind when you hear them...
Heard the song "Tujhse Naraaz nahin Zindagi..." from Masoom yesterday...
I was stunned for 5 mins after listenin to it...Not that i havent heard it before...But sometimes songs like these need the perfect timing to strike you...
...And it did...
:-)
It suddenly reminds you of childhood and the sweet memories one has with their family...



"Jeene ke liye socha hi na tha, dard sambhalane honge...
Muskuraoon to, muskurane ke...karz utaarne honge...
Muskuraoon kabhi to lagata hai
jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa hai"



...Wow...Some songs are really...GOD sent....


Wednesday, August 23, 2006

...The Spark...


It must be really great to be in love...It surely must be...
I can feel the spark between couples in love...Ther is that somethin abt them that brings a smile on your face...
hmmm....It sure must be somethin to be in LOVE....

Now here i am not talkin abt you liking someone or even the other way round...that...isnt exactly LOVE that i am refering to...

I was talkin to my friend over coffee the other day...talkin abt his relationship...His gf has gone out of town for sometime...
And his talks just make you feel very very clearly how much he misses her...He doesnt hav to specifically tell you that...now THATS LOVE i say....thats THE SPARK!!!

When you see such ppl together...you just knw...YESSS...THEY ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!

That takes me to another discussion me and my friends were having today...

One of my friends pointed out abt how we are born in wrong part of the world and how we really need a more casual approach to the whole relationship thing here...
...LOL...
I wont say i wud like to contradict him...But my point of veiw was...
Every relationship needs to go somewhere...It has to...towards good or worse...And do whatever you can in your power....You just cant RUN away from it!

I said this and bang came back his answer...
"Thats EXACTLY the problem with you dude...Too much thought to everythin you do..."

Monday, August 21, 2006


Think

by Alana
Should you always say what you feel
Think, is the person you're telling going to be able to heal

Is what you're saying necessary for everyone else to know
Just because you're thinking something, maybe you should just let it go

Everyone else around you may not be as strong
Some things need to be kept hidden and you should move along

You don't know where that person has come from or where he's going to go
What kind of day he's had, you just don't know

Before you blurt out everything you feel
Think, is the person listening going to be able to heal?



I am really really messed up...i hav no idea whats goin on actually...Not that somethings gone WRONG as such...nothin was expected to go right anyway...
Ohhh...i better shut up!!!

Friday, August 04, 2006

A long wait...

Excuse the long S I L E N C E...


But i have my fingers crossed over something...
I just hope I make it thru...

W I S H M E L U C K!!

Friday, July 28, 2006

Two Nights...

Time is the same for everyone...Your one minute passed isnt gonna be a second for me...it too has to be one minute for me too...

The night when our results were declared...It was just one night...But i was spent differently,by 8 of us and the 2 of them...
It was a night i will never ever forget...

Some of us spent it partyin all night...with not even a wink of sleep...
...and there were those others...who just couldnt sleep...

I am in no mood to explain my vague thoughts right now...Life isnt always fair i know...But does it really have to be so???
Yes...It was a night i will never forget...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

No emotions in business!

Donald Trump said this to his elder brother when the latter had returned after leaving his job as an Air pilot...

"Good...really good...I am glad you left the job...Why do you need to fly planes anyway when you can just BUY the airline!"

This had come from the mouth of a guy who had still to make a mark in New York...who had still not placed a single brick in his real estate business!!

But thats how it should be...
ALWAYS THINK BIG!!!
Only then can you find yourself where you really want yourself to be...
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You know how sometimes...
you get this warm feeling when everything around you is going wrong...
It just feels "right" sometimes....
I like the above picture a lot...just thought i'd post it :-)

They say there can be no emotions in business...i just wanted to see how both "blend" with each other...
Thats why the title...and also the reason for two parts in the same post!


Sunday, July 09, 2006

Kill All the PIGEONS !!!

Had to stay at home the whole day today...Couldnt step out...And i blame it all to the RIOTS!

I dont get it...

How can people be so damn foolish...Burning buses and killing people and protesting just because they think that doing so will be just thing to do..

What are they burning Mumbai for again???
Protesting over someone putting mud over the bust of Shiv Sena leader Bal Thackerey's late wife.

If that angers you so much,so called Shiv Sainiks,then i have a request...
KILL ALL THE FUCKIN PIGEONS WHO POOP ON THE STATUES EVERYDAY!!!!

Thats a real disrespect isnt it???

What did they achieve from todays protest??
Ohh...they had their fun...burning buses and stopping trains...
The only people who suffer...ARE US!!!

Ohh...Let us...for once...plzzz...RETURN TO INNOCENCE AND PEACE....

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Away from life and love...

Life has suddenly become slow these days....
Had taken a break with friends...freaked out in Goa...and had a really good time...

When you are on a vacation...you are just away from this world...
away from all worries and tensions...thats what vacations are for afterall...arent they??

I dunno how many of you hav tried this...
But try listenin to the waves of the sea sometime...just look at it come crashin to the shore...

(This is a pic i took in Goa...its totally "untampered"...yess....the BLUES are real...look at the beauty of nature!)


Suddenly...a song of the sea starts playin in your mind...and you loose track of everythin around you...the "loneliness" is divine....

Loneliness
It is cold today
Indeed the rain is falling and I am alone.
Thoughts of life and love,
meaningless to anyone but myself.
I am alone.
They watch me, their eyes not knowing,
knowing nothing of what they see.
I am but another creature, alone.
They scurry on the surface, unaware,
unaware of the life below
when you are alone.

Loneliness, not a burden nor a sorrow,
but a time of solace, of deepness
never to be shared, never to be understood.
They can never reach the place where I am
And I know I will never reach the place where they are.
I know I don't want to reach that place.
True happiness is here, unmisted.
Unmisted by smiles or laughter,
unmisted by the joys of company.

To find true happiness,
to know if one is truly happy,
he must be happy alone.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Its all about the EGO!

People change...or atleast your perception about them does change from time to time..
Two peeople can be the best of friends for sometime...and then...their friendship just drifts apart...

I hav been seeing this goin on between some of my friends lately...and sometimes...the bitterness is so much....that you just cant do anything about it...
and the best solution comes out that...Yeah...let them hate each other for life...

Friendship comes from the heart...If its true and if its meant to last...small fights wont burn it into ashes...But yes...only if its meant to last...

Else...its just a clash of EGO's !!
No one is right or wrong...But then...it comes down to a matter of each ones self respect...

Me and my 2 best friends hav had fights...but in the end...after everythin...We know we will still be best friends...NO MATTER HOW BAD A FIGHT WE HAVE....
Thats FRIENDSHIP for you i think...

I think...anyway...Friends are not supposed to last all your life...they are there with u for a particular phase...
Notice ur phonebook or speed dials....they change after sometime...regularly...in months...years...

Sure...you will always have a good feeling abt certain friends...occassional Hellos wll also happen...
But then...Things wont remain the way they were...

Same is the case with LOVE i think...thats why people fall in and out of realtionships so often...
LOVE or FRIENDSHIP....Both needs a lot of workin upon...to come to the level where 2 people understand each others EGO's and are unaffected by it...

Monday, June 05, 2006

...JO JEETA WOHII SIKANDER...

So engineering is over...and i cant be more glad it finally is...

Life moves on now...and i dunno whether to laugh or cry over this...But life after engineering for me is....COMPLETELY BLANK!!
sure i hav plans...and big dreams....but right now...at this very moment...life is not quite "secured" as it is for others...and its freaky and a hell lot scarryy!!!

Ppl around discussing joinin dates at companies...others on with their visa enquiries and US dreams...
ME...sittin around...watchin them...and thinkin..."what abt me??"

Somehow things in Engineering didnt quite "happen" for me....i wonder why...
I din do anythin wrong...i KNW i din do anythin wrong...

I wonder how things work in this world of ours...
Lemme just analyse things here...
More than 3/4th of electronics in my college reads from MY notes!
Now...i dont take credits for making them or anythin...coz i just copy whats dictated...
my point is...if they read from it...it HAS to be good right...which has to imply that the writer has to b good enuf...
Look at me...not even in the top 40 in ELEX!
I wonder wher the days hav gone wen i was among the top 7 in my class...What did i do wrong here in engineering?

Dont tell me i didnot study enuf...coz i knw i tried my best...i knw and remember the days when i hav slept for less than 5 and a half hrs even when i was down with a freakin migraine...

I know a guy in elex...lets call him AB....
Now...AB is a guy who has things happenin for him...happenin is actually an understatement for him...He has things rolling for him...
And the worst part is....He freakin likes to boast and flaunt around...
Oh GOD! its soo irritating and frustrating....
Studies...Achievements...gals...the guy has a golden spoon on everything...
I am not jealous...no way...but i never boast around so devilishly...
Still things keep happenin for such guys...
and what do i do...
Keep listenin to his flaunts ...what else can i do...
yes...i feel like shoutin at him sometimes to STOP...and just get lost...but i cant do it...

ohh...I wonder what i did wrong...
Somehow...things just dint do right...Did i screw up??Nope...Life screwed me up....

Life dint understand what i wanted from it i think...nor did someone whose name i wont mention...
Ahhh...Life COULD have been so good...

Well...
I told Sanjai this when we were discussin abt AB and his irritating nonsense...
"JOH JEETA WOHII SIKANDER..."
He is thw winner now...he has every right to do as he wants...



But u knw what....The RACE of life hasnt finished yet....
:-)

Thursday, May 18, 2006

The urge...

dunno why...
had decided wont blog till exmas are over...
but today had this sudden urge to write something so...

First paper over today...din go that well...so not in the right mood...
:-(

Lets see what other papers hav to offer...

Thursday, March 30, 2006

A question with no answer...

It will be over in two and a half months...
The last two and half months of college...

And after that...i dunno...maybe i'll never see her again...
This gal that i like so much...will be gone...
You say you will try to be in touch...but it hardly happens...i knw it....
And it hurts...to know that...its gonna be over...

Harry: "Comeon...forget abt her...Get over her...I mean...seriously..."
Me:"Its not that easy man...and plus...i really dont want to...i really really like her..."
Harry:"Well...thats for HER to realize..."

Hmm....it sure is...its for her to realize....
So...what shud i do....just let her go?

Well...i am not thinking abt it...just watchin what happens next...
Lifes good...But it would defintely have been better with her...
:-)



Dilbar mere dil mein kya hai
To jo ise sun leti...
Mere sang jeevan ke kitne sapne to boon leti,
O meri dilrooba tu ban shama...
Aur phir dekh ja jalta hua parwaana...

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I have my exams coming up...so i might not be blogging much...
Anyway...i think i need a break...
Like one of my friends told me...
"Your blog is becoming too SAD day by day...life is sad enough yaar...cheer it up a bit.."

So...yeah...me taking a break...maybe till then...the broken heart will be healed...
:-)

Wish me luck! i need a lot of marks this time....for a lot of things!!!


Sunday, March 26, 2006

The change is coming....

Me and my friends were hanging out at the mall yesterday...
I have a friend who will be gone to the US by August...

"So...just 4 months and you are gone yaar....after that...things just wont be same...Nothin around will be same...We might never meet again...."

The friend replied...
"We still got 120 days!!! "

Yeah...everythin is gonna change...hopefully for the better...
Like one of my prof said the other day..."the only thing consant in life is change."

What Comes Of Tomorrow

To know the joy of a dawning start
Standing there beside your friend on that road to paradise
We say farewell and weep
Knowing they must also compromise
And so we hold them close and whisper in their ear
Please take with you these memories.
Then from the eyes,
Your tear.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

There are times in your life when u want to be left alone...Not because you are sad...but just because you want to get away from the "routine"...
I am tired of all the insecurities in life...

Someone told me once..."whats the fun in living a life where you knw whats in store for you tomorrow...its the risk of life that makes it worthliving..."

Maybe 10 yrs frm now i might agree to this....but not now...
Definitely not now...

Risk
There are no guarantees
Life throws things at you
You can catch or miss them
But they will come, ready or not

I always looked for the real thing
Never trusting in the possibility
Risk-taking not my forte
Staying safe at all costs

Even playing it safe is not certain
Safe has hurt me
Zero risk gets zero gain
Sometimes playing it safe costs you more

It has me,
In not fighting the battle
you may lose the war
In not believing in a dream
You may never sleep peacefully again

So let go of the fear
Reach out for the flame
So what if you get burned
Better that then numb for life

Better to remember passion and joy
Along with the pain and tears
Then to have no memories worth
Remembering

So to hell with safe
I am going to gamble and bet
Until I win back everything I lost
And my life is what it was meant to be

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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

2 and a half hrs at the coffee shop...


Life moves fast...real fast i tell you...
Sometimes you move ahead...sometimes life races you ahead...
But the best thing to do sometimes is to STOP...SIT down somewhere and TALK...



with whom you ask?
With anyone who matters to you...
why you ask?
Coz thats the only way to come in pace with life...

After all...what is life without your friends and loved ones walking with you...

I dont know what life holds for me tommorrow...but i know one thing...i knw everything i need to knw before i face tommorrow...
Atleast i think i do...
:-)

Sunday, March 05, 2006

Fall In Love...

By Pheonix

The lip is sealed

But the faint smile
And the lowering eyelids
Do give it all away.

Listen, if you have the ears to,
Hear in the clamour of the bangles
The secret behind the glow
The secret she doesnt say.

The spark that sits in her eye
Blushing and gleaming with dreams
The noise of the wind that
In her bouncing hair, does sway.

The fresh colour on her face
The vibrant spring in her step
Makes it all too obvious
It's not just any other day.

Feel the energy that emanates
Feel the positive vibes
Of her infectious exuberence
That'll make u exultant anyway.

She leaves, but her aura doesn't.
Her warmth stays back to haunt
Her unsaid words then lead you to believe
Everyone should fall in love, someday.

One just knows when someone is in love...Do whatever you possibly can...But it just shows on your face...YOU ARE IN LOVE...
And know what...It feels gr8 to knw that YOU are bitten by the bug called love...
:-)


Friday, March 03, 2006

I am so damn pissed off right now....
I hate the ppl who show on their face that they have no problems with you...Talk to you with that pretty smiling face whenever they meet you...
But are ignoring you whenever they get a chance...

Damn you...If you dont wanna talk to me...i am fine with it !! Just bloody say it on my face...
And then see if i care a damn...

Stupid ppl...You care with all your heart for them and all they hav for you is PRETENCE!!


Ohh...How i hate it!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

I cant help....Thinking!!!

Results are out....
and i scored a good 67%

I am really not that excited abt my result...mainly because 2 of my very close friends arent satisfied with their's...and even though it may sound very superficial...but i feel really bad for them...

Both my friends had given GRE this Sem and had to devote a lot of time to it...What i dont get is...ppl who are less deserving than them (and i dont say this just because they are my friends!) have ended up gettin better marks... Talk about everything being FAIR in this world !!!
I know....Theres always a second chance and all that crap...but comeon!! What abt NOW...What abt THE PRESENT!!


I am really messed up these days...messed up because everything going on around in my life is fine...but it just doesnt feel right...



My friend says i am in LOVE...LOL...I say i am being FOOLISH if thats the case!! [Its the same isnt it...being in love and being really really foolish ;-)]

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Results Results Results....

UPDATE:(16th Feb)
Stupid Mumbai University....Result postponed...expected in 2-3 days...
damn...the tension!!!!!!!

=================================


Results are 'almost' out....almost because they were supposed to be displayed today....but they dint...so its gonna be displayed tommorrow...thats why the 'almost'....

I know i am sounding too lame...but may be its the mounting tension....

Anyway...
WISH ME LUCK!!!

I wish i get my desired marks...i just sooooo hope i get them!!
Pray for me...byeeee........

Monday, February 06, 2006

The Valentine's Day talk...

Me and my friend today were on a usual chat....discussin the increasing good crowd in the college...and other stuff...like the Valentines day comin near and NO PLANS!!
I hav nothing else to write...so READ ON...and HAVE A LAUGH...
;-)

PS:- There are no "edits" in this post (apart from the names of course....!)

~*Prasad*~: btw....comin back to the "good crowd" topic...
~*Prasad*~: i think its mor of...
~*Prasad*~: well...suddenly the gals in our collge hav caught hold of a new term....
~*Prasad*~: DRESSING SENSE!!
~*Prasad*~: :-D
~*Prasad*~: or rather the sales goin al around are helpin...
sanjai_dr: lol
sanjai_dr: yea....may be
~*Prasad*~: but all the mor....it leaves u with an even mor bad GF-less feeling!!
~*Prasad*~: :-(
sanjai_dr: act..that thin crossd my mind.....abt 14 feb like "arre final yr hain"..."abhi nahi to kab "...but then as usual
~*Prasad*~: 14 feb is not abt final yr yaar....
~*Prasad*~: it abt "NOT BEING IN LOVE!!"
sanjai_dr: yea u hav a pt.....but nothin in engg
~*Prasad*~: yaa man...
~*Prasad*~: btw...
~*Prasad*~: do u think engineerin is just an excuse?
~*Prasad*~: i mean....ppl hav a gr8 time in engineerin too man...
~*Prasad*~: i think we just use it as an excuse coz we found noone...
~*Prasad*~: or rather....noone found us! either ways
~*Prasad*~: LOL
sanjai_dr: well my bro just told me THere are better things in life
sanjai_dr: i said wat crap !!
~*Prasad*~: i agree...ther are man...but comeon...wats mor imp than love!!!
sanjai_dr: showin off !!!!....i think that is,,,,,
~*Prasad*~: ppl say..."get ur priorities rite..." I say..."wats "priorities"for u?" I think i m managing my studies well enuf...
~*Prasad*~: well....one mor Vday will be over...
~*Prasad*~: and i just found out today while fillin the form...
~*Prasad*~: i am 21 yrs 8 months OLD!!!
~*Prasad*~: :-(
sanjai_dr: given a choice with whom wud u go out on valentines frm our coll
sanjai_dr: don say *******...some one else...
~*Prasad*~: well...
~*Prasad*~: rite now...it wud hav to b ******...but thats just coz u hav to choose frm college...
~*Prasad*~: and even ****** will do...
~*Prasad*~: :-)
~*Prasad*~: wat abt u?
sanjai_dr: i liked this gal frm TE i gues...dunno her name...
sanjai_dr: coll me bataungaa
~*Prasad*~: elex??
sanjai_dr: saw her durin fest
sanjai_dr: na..i dunno
~*Prasad*~: okk
sanjai_dr: else ******'s good
sanjai_dr: :-)
~*Prasad*~: well...if u talkin abt whole college...
~*Prasad*~: then....
sanjai_dr: spekin of elex !!!
~*Prasad*~: lets see...
~*Prasad*~: umm..
~*Prasad*~: lemme think...
~*Prasad*~: umm...
~*Prasad*~: cant pinpoint anyone....
~*Prasad*~: depends on who the gal is actually....whether i'll take her out or not
sanjai_dr: yea me too

sanjai_dr: hey hav u talked to ******
sanjai_dr: that ******s frnd?
~*Prasad*~: yaa....occasionalyy...y?
sanjai_dr: i dunno she has this intelligent felin the way she talks
~*Prasad*~: hat re....
~*Prasad*~: :-P
~*Prasad*~: i feel shes a bit "mand aatma"
sanjai_dr: nothin tho..but stiill...its diff frm rest
sanjai_dr: yea may be
~*Prasad*~: hmm
~*Prasad*~: arre yaar...kaash ****** haan bolti...
~*Prasad*~: i wud hav been on the top of the world rite now...
~*Prasad*~: :-(
sanjai_dr: yea
sanjai_dr: k...lets guess who wud Mavani date
~*Prasad*~: ***** **** for sure
sanjai_dr: arre haan...4got abt her
~*Prasad*~: lol
~*Prasad*~: i wish we had PROM in our college....
~*Prasad*~: mazaa aata tha...
sanjai_dr: hmm


:-D

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Whats going on???

When fate is making all the decisions of your life...
its better to just stay shut and watch everything unfold...

wat say?



No matter how "perfect" you wanted things to be....
No matter how much you wanted things your way...for once...just once...
The bottomline is... ITS JUST NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!

No...I am not SAD....but i cant help asking myself "IF ONLY..."

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

17th January, 2:00 pm: I am taking a flight from Mumbai to Goa.



18th January,3:00 pm: I am taking a flight from Goa back to Mumbai.

It all happened in 24 hrs...
and...Woah....That was one hell of a ride!

Saturday, January 14, 2006

I wait for that one moment....

Sometimes you dont feel like sayin anything....writing anything...thinkin or feeling anything...
You hope everything just happpens...
and it happens just the way you always wanted it to happen...with no second thoughts...no regrets...
Life goes on...and you enjoy every moment of it...

Its all abt that one moment isnt it...

One moment you say 'YES' to a person...and you regret it the rest of your life....
But also...One moment you say 'NO'....and maybe you will regret even more the rest of your life!

I read this article the other day about doing want you really want to do and not thinking about how your action is going to change your life...coz you never know what is good or bad untill it happens!

So basically...your action at that one moment can change so many things around you...

Lets take an example shall we...
You are busy into your world...say with friends at a restaurant...
A girl finds you interestin and is thinkin of comin over for a chat...
She gives you a look and you dont bother...

Now consider this...
1)She is very much interested...but she never comes over thinkin it wud be too wierd...
2)She does come over...and may be it cud become the best day of your life...
3)She does come over...but you are least interested...may be coz you hav someone else runnin through your head already...

Consider each of these situations and put yourself in that moment...and just imagine how every stituation changes your life differently...

All these situations revolve around that moment...and that one moment cud change yours and her life forever...or may be that very same moment goes by unnoticed...

The point of all this??
The answer to that lies in this very moment...
:-)


Wednesday, January 11, 2006

!!! THINK !!!

I saw the new marathi movie "Dombivli Fast" today...
Its an amazing movie...a must watch!!
Its the first movie where i felt somethin from the heart...so much that tears rolled down my eyes!!

The movie makes you think...think abt the present...the past...and the future...
It slaps you on the face by showing how "corrupt" the human mind has become...and how the one who "revolts" against anything wrong around him/her is considered plain foolish and mad...
Something i could really really relate to...

Why keep quiet and give in to all the injustice around....
just because you are ONE against the whole world???
Why the hell should we live the way others "expect" us to live??Why live for others when we have our own existence!

Trash
by Alexandra

You're throwing it away, you're wasting your life.

You're too young to know what decisions to make.
You're too stupid to know what opportunities to take.

You're just a teenager, too rebellious and wild to think.
You're on the brink of falling over the edge.
Don't take a step too far, be cautious,
right now you're on the ledge.

I'm just trying to help, so don't raise your voice.
It's not your choice anymore.
You must do as I say, you can't have it your way.

You don't know what you want.
You can't have what you hunt.

You can't have your own dreams, you have mine.

I couldn't live my life to the fullest,
so I'm going to make yours the dullest.

Don't waste your life or throw it away
because you're living it for me, my way.


Isnt this what really doing....
LIVING FOR OTHERS??
or rather the blindly followin the wrong path because you "think" you cant do anything abt it...

I am pretty sure many reading this might have absolutely no idea of what i am talkin abt...
But do watch the movie...You will see a change in the way things "seem" around you...

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Mixed up Health...

Me and my friend were on a visit to a fitness center the other day...to enquire abt the Health club facility (i wonder why guys do this...i mean why the hell cant we just stick to a single gym!!)
So...we were sittin ther..doing wat guys are supposed to do..goin through the facilities provided...and this gal on the other side was telling the prices and the various options we have...Evrything was fine untill she said one of the most embarrassing sentence i have heard in my life...

"So...you both are thinkin of joinin?"
"Yes."
"Ok....we have COUPLE discount till 10th.You pay 500 less!"



COUPLE???
Me and Harry looked at each other and burst out laughin...
Harry corrected her at the instant...
"Oh...you mean there's a discount if TWO people join at a time..."
"Yes Sir...very right.."

Stupid gal...If ya dont know proper English...dont use it!!!
Least dont embarass two very very very very straight guys!!

And if this was not enough...When we were abt to leave...She had to open her mouth...
"Doobaraa jaroor aanaa (Do come again...)"
As if we had just shopped at her flea market shop...

Stupid Stupid gal...

PS:-
I wish everyone a very Happy New Year...

Sorry abt the lag in postings...[Well...I do hav a list of excuses...but lets just get to that later :-)]I assure you from now on i'll be a more regular visitor in the bloggin world...
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