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finding your Red T-shirt

Over the years...I have struggled to have a taste in clothes...Most of my friends used to complain about it...and eventually the nagging stopped when I let them decide on what would/does look good on me. If you ask me personally, I like to try new things...so anything 'off-beat' or trendy...I dont mind giving it a try...
But then...when a lot of people say you have a fucked up taste in clothes...trust them..its for your own good! :)

I looked at my closet the other day and I noticed that I dont have a bright Red T-shirt...
Ever since I can remember...I have always wanted a Red Tee...you know the perfect red colour...not too dark...not to bright...just the perfect one...
I have till now not been able to find one...the perfect one..
I look at my closet full of clothes...I think about the Red Tee I want...and I still get that incomplete feeling...a if there is something missing...
Sometimes... you can have a lot of things in life...you can  fill your closet with the best of things that come very near to the Red Tee you always wanted...but you will still always crave for it...and nothing can replace the thing you always wanted.
I personally believe...that one should not let go of that craving...keep shopping....but dont settle for less...
You want a good Red Tee...you keep looking for it...because once you get it...that 'complete' feeling would be priceless...
Now that...is worth waiting for....

wishes

I call aloud; it hears not what I say;

I stretch my empty arms; it glides away.

To dream once more I close my willing eyes;

Ye soft illusions, dear deceits, arise!

All of these and everything else.

Its been a long time...I think the use of social media kills your instinct to blog...simply cos every moment of your life is on the net anyways...which leaves this space for contemplation and profound thoughts...
anyway...i still feel the need to come back here...i think i should probably get back to writing more...it is better to write some thoughts down than letting them eat your brain out...

I always have believed that everything happens because it is supposed to happen...everything that is around you is made to make to live the way you are supposed to...and the events in your life define your existence.
Although I think i have developed a lot of positiveness around me in the last few years...which has helped me grow...I also get this feeling that if something has to happen to you...or is meant for you...it should and will fall in your lap...
Say...you like someone...you want a job...you want to buy something...all of these and everything else...it has to fall in place...
I love it when the nature works its own beautiful way of giving you what you want....when things happen at the right moment and at the right time...when something you did unknowingly turns into a reason for happiness and joy for someone else...
What I am saying might sound vague and aimless to you...but think about it...

Isnt it an amazing feeling when all you need is given to you...in the right way...almost like magic...
Isnt that better than you making notes of good/bad, right/wrong, likes/dislikes,want/dont want, match/not match...

Let life be like love...and let love be like life...just let it happen...


Found this at a restaurant in Thailand...must read...tells and teaches a lot about life...

21 Suggestions for Success

By H. Jackson Brown, Jr.

• Marry the right person. This one decision will determine 90% of your happiness or misery.
• Work at something you enjoy and that's worthy of your time and talent.
• Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
• Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.
• Be forgiving of yourself and others.
• Be generous.
• Have a grateful heart.
• Persistence, persistence, persistence.
• Discipline yourself to save money on even the most modest salary.
• Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.
• Commit yourself to constant improvement.
• Commit yourself to quality.
• Understand that happiness is not based on possessions, power or prestige, but on relationships with people you love and respect.
• Be loyal.
• Be honest.
• Be a self-starter.
• Be decisive even if it means you'll sometimes be wrong.
• Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life.
• Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did.
• Take good care of those you love.
• Don't do anything that wouldn't make your Mom proud.

aaahhh!

Decisions

There are times in your life when you question your decisions...what is right...what is wrong...what would have been...with what is...

Notice how all of your decisions are influenced by people around you...by friends, relatives, situations, moods...

One decision...every decision in your life is a filter of all these aspects...

The point I am trying to make is that...amongst all this influence...one should draw the line and understand what one really wants...what is the true 'self' and consequence of the decision.

Throughout mankind...the problem and essentially also the essence of life has always been choice.

So let it be yours...learn from others...but execute what you feel.

Don't let someone's opinion become your reality.

True Story.

About Mistakes...just a quote...

‎"There are certain things in life where you know it's a mistake but you don't really know it's a mistake because the only way to really know it is a mistake is to make that mistake and look back and say, "Yup, that was a mistake". 

 So really, the bigger mistake would be to not make the mistake because then you'll go your whole life not really knowing if something is a mistake or not. And well...by the end of it..You will realize, you made no mistakes."

What interests me....

The Invitation

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living

I want to know what you ache for

And if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are

I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool

For love

For your dream

For the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon…

I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow

If you have been opened by life’s betrayals

Or have become shriveled and closed

From fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain

Mine and your own

Without moving to hide it

Or fade it

Or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy

Mine or your own

If you can dance with wildness

And let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes

Without cautioning us to

Be careful

Be realistic

Remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true

I want to know if you can disappoint another 

To be true to yourself.

If you can bear the accusation of betrayal

And not betray your own soul.

If you can be faithless

And therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty

Even when it is not pretty

Everyday.

And if you can source your own life

From its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure

Yours and mine

And still stand at the edge of the lake

And shout to the silver of the full moon,

“Yes”.

It doesn’t interest me

To know where you live or how much money you have.

I want to know of you can get up

After the night of grief and despair

Weary and bruised to the bone

And do what needs to be done

To feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know

or how you came to be here.

I want to know if you will stand

In the centre of the fire

With me

And not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom

you have studied.

I want to know what sustains you

From the inside

When all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone

With yourself

And if you truly like the company you keep

In the empty moments.

Oriah Mountain Dreamer, from the book “the Invitation”, published by HarperSanFrancisco, 1999.

your thoughts...and the cupboard!

The good thing about having an off from work is that it definitely gives you a break from the routine.
So I am sitting at home...reading stuff....listening to music...and making plans for weekend getaways...
In between...just lying on the bed...thinking...

Have you ever noticed...when you are sitting idle...how you can actually "hear" your thoughts...each and every word....so clear...not messed up...
You may be thinking about anything random...might even not make any sense...but it is still clear...
I somehow find peace in such thoughts...time is slow...and your thoughts know no boundaries or limits...

The free time also gave me a chance to clear up and arrange my cupboard...It was one of the "make your mom happy" things that I did (also because she was after me to clear up the mess for long now!)
(We Boys seriously have a 'thing' with MESS...dont we?)
I mean...I know my clothes are messy...but i do find whatever I want whenever I want it...dont I?
Anyway...after much hesitation and avoidance...I finally got going to arranging my stuff...and thats when I realised something...

As I started arranging my stuff...putting them into proper compartments...rows separating T shirts and formals...jeans and trousers...discarding things i did not need...I somehow felt better...
As if I had made things simple for me...
All of it was always there...and yess....I could find and wear anything I wanted always...even in time..
but this arrangement of things seemed better...simple...and easy...

Isnt it the same for all our thoughts?

You have sooo many of them all the time...messed up....lying there...crumbled...
You know you can tackle them...when you want and how you want...
But trying sitting down once....arranging them...hearing yourself...removing and discarding ones you dont need...and you see how you feel...
at ease...at peace...the world doesnt matter...you and only you and your thoughts do...

“We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. 

With our thoughts, we make the world.”